A choice so hard to make I'm about to break.

[soichi_chan]

I feel like I’m 7 again, screaming out to my mother to pay attention to me. Hoping that I would get the recognition that my older sibling got, crying for something, anything to hold on too, my fathers hand, my mother shirt…. But nothing never came

Comments

[aqabluflamdragn]

i completely understand your anger. and i accept your apology, while still apologizing for the unnecessary details. i felt that you and orlando were friends only (which you are but i mean your feelings towards each other) and that a little detail that friends usually share w/ each other wouldnt hurt. and what happened btw us, as u kno, there were no emotions attached

Thanks.

[soichi_chan]

I won't deny, that I feel like a fool but I do....

Re: Thanks.

[aqabluflamdragn]

its okay. i would've reacted the same way if i were in your position. i would've been angry, jealous, confused.. all that. don't beat yourself up so much. we love you ^^ -hugs-

I know that feeling all too well...

[anonymous]

KEpp ya head up... and its already down, work on seeing str8. Love is prolly the biggest addiction Ive suffered from, It will get better. think of it this way... This is what I try to keep telling myself...

"When the worst that can possibly happen has already happened to you, theres no where else to go but up"
~ Orlando Oree A.K.A. Flame Houka.

Thats a quote I came up with myself... dont steal it. Its true because If the worst that can possibly happen has really just happened, everything else after that is only smal fish... You've dealt with the worst, no where else to go but up...

[ichigoikane]

Though I may have never delt with things like love, or anything on that leve, I do deal with problems towerds my own self-confidence.

A wise man told me that you shouldn't try to lock away what ails you, but put it in a display case, so you can observe it, and find the learning with it. I am still trying to do that to this day, but not so much with the mistakes I made, but more of the bad I always see in myself.

What I think would help, is getting into creative writing, like write poetry or short stories to convey your words in a way that is productive. ^^ It's been helping me a lot. I consider it a very creative therapy.