Comments | solderini: I'm not drunk, but I feel like I should be, to excuse this windbaggy entry

solderini

I'm not drunk, but I feel like I should be, to excuse this windbaggy entry

Mar 28, 2006 19:07

So Mom looks a lot better than I thought she would, mostly because nothing hit her in the face when the car got her. She does have a nasty seatbelt mark, though. Looks like it hurts. Physical therapy is going well, she walks about 150 feet a day now, which is good, and she'll be coming home on Thursday ( Read more... )

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twh March 29 2006, 07:25:29 UTC

Well, I know I can't give you the answer to whatever it is that's bothering you, what I can tell is that it's easier being around people when they're themselves. And I like talking with people that are honest with themselves and others, or at least when they're trying their best.

The bottom line: We still like you a lot and though our own personal troubles give us some grief and time away, please don't think that we don't care. Because you're a nice person and we like you for that. :)

And I read your drabble(?) and though I'm not all that big into seeing ****** and ****** (SPOILER), it is the way of the fanfic.

Now, for something fun; if you've not seen it before, I heartily recommend watching 'AMV Hell 3: The Motion Picture'. Loads of fun. :)

solderini March 29 2006, 09:03:42 UTC

Oh crap, did that thing come off like a plea for attention? I'm sorry if it did, because it really wasn't the intent. It was more like movement towards not being so reserved through written musing. It just makes me nervous because 1) I'm not used to it, and 2) I'm never sure how other people will perceive it, and 3) I'm never sure how to react to perceptions I don't anticipate. Maybe I should have made my intentions more clear. However, not gonna edit, because whatever it came off as is probably something I unconciously wanted anyway, and I should stick by that.

XD For some reason, I've always wanted to see more of Zabuza and Haku (whether or not you slash them, which is certainly possible but not quite canon)--the dynamic fascinated me, and Zabuza is a very interesting character for me.

Anyplace I can find this AMV?

twh March 31 2006, 16:52:15 UTC

Well, it may be that I was reading a tad too far into it. You know how I love going deeper than needs be. :p Anyway, it was a nice bit of insight. In fact, it reminds me of a host segment from MST3k about a rather stupid kid named "Jimmy" in the movie 'I Accuse My Parents' (doesn't it always go like that? :p) where the basic idea is ( ... )

hazard_us March 29 2006, 14:20:15 UTC

Your post covered a lot, so if I missed the main point it's because 5 hours of sleep and paper writing = not so quick on the uptake ( ... )

solderini March 29 2006, 18:35:57 UTC

Actually, it does help quite a bit to know I'm not the only one, because most of the people I've talked to about this just looked at me strangely and didn't seem to get it.

It's taken a while, but I have slowly come to realize that being self-centric is not the same as being selfish or self-absorbed, and that self-centrism is actually a survival function. I think I probably misinterpreted the meaning when I was younger and then took it to extremes.

XD You got the main point just fine. Thank you, I really appreciate it. Good luck on your paper, and I hope you get the chance for some sleep!

haunteddiner March 29 2006, 18:57:31 UTC

Hey there! Big hugs for you! I don't know if this will help, but I feel like I go through a lot of similar feelings. I've always felt, from a young age, like I've got to put other people's needs and desires and feelings before my own. I've been doing this for so long that around high school and college I started to really wonder if I actually had any desires of my own, or if my desires were just other people's desires that I'd incorporated into myself. Does that make sense ( ... )