Where Did It All Go Wrong...

[soldierx]

I sit here wondering what happened to that great plan I had set out only four months ago. It seems that nothing can go right for me in these last two years. I haven't been able to sleep well of late, everything just kind of eats away at me from the inside out and the little bit eatting me outside shows on my scared body. I've pretty much lowered my

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[dongstyle_ltd]

Ehh...it's still right. You can't buy happiness with money. But you can't have life without it either. And we tend to know our moods by relative states and changes.

Either way, misery is the nastiest paradox of all. You could die and it would end, or you can wait till it passes and you can look back and say you were glad you managed to live through it.

What is it that keeps you here? I like to think that for everybody who hasn't died yet, they've got some kind of hope going.

[soldierx]

Sometimes I don't know what keeps me here in existance. But I would say that if anything does keep me here, its knowing that people do care about me and that I have friends regardless of there distance I can still talk with them over this medium known as the internet. I also wish to see my two little cousins who are 7 and 9 years old, and quite the tomboys taking after there mom go far. They are bright especially the 9 year old. I wish to see them succeed as far as I did and even better in life. As they say the children are the future and its so true in the little town I grew up in because that town is dying and so are the people and without the kids around in that town it will eventually become nothing but a blip. I would say also that i've walked through a lot of mires and pits for the people I care about and hold dear inside me knowing that if I were to leave that a lot of people could be brought to there knees.