So I really want right now to delete all the past entries because they are all about stupid pothead ex-boyfriend. We are SO over... and I am amazingly happy and freed by it. I can't believe how long I held onto that "relationship". I mean, I hated his NAME lol!! Come on, Katie! Oh well. The bad experience has taught me a lot. I sure wish I hadn't ( Read more... )

Well, about a month and a half ago Bill and I broke up. Not really sure why, though. I got mad and in one of my fits and broke it off and we're still not together. I miss him, I miss it all. But it's weird because we're still going out and doing things and stuff. I like it in a way, mostly because I don't have to say "I love you" all the time. I ( Read more... )

Am I crazy? Or am I just having the right thoughts? I don't know. I DON'T KNOW. And I'm TIRED of not KNOWING. Good God, please... I don't want to keep going through this crap.

I am so upset. Crying myself to sleep will probably be the goings on tonight. I don't understand why a guy can affect me like this and get me upset so easily. More than that, he's upset with me too.... yet he doesn't even want to talk about it, he just goes to sleep. I feel left out and stupid. I guess I'm not that important. It has always pissed ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been forever since I updated this journal! I have decided to start writing again... there are so many great memories in here, and I need a private journal to rant, rave, and express myself in. I'm a junior in college now, and really burnt out. Funny, I've gotten the stuff done that I didn't necessarily wanna do is done and I get to do the ( Read more... )

Alot has happened in the past few days... my parents and family know about Billy now. I'm feeling torn between them and him. I feel upset and unhappy. It's a long story and alot is going on right now, and I really don't feel like talking about it right now :( just think of me with kind thoughts ( Read more... )

The past few days have gotten me unbelievably depressed. My self esteem is already low enough, and it seems to just get lower. I feel so ugly, worthless, and stupid. I hate being stuck inside myself, and I hate the kinds of thoughts I have about myself ( Read more... )

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Finals are upon me! Auuugh! And so, I am taking a break from LJ. I feel so stressed, excited, and nervous... and broke! I feel very broke. I am actually borrowing money from my parents. And yesterday I accepted money from Billy for dinner. Sigh. Oh, but I got a job :D which starting pay is 5.75. Liekomgz. Well, it's better than 5.15! SUBWAY. A ( Read more... )

My mom loves Wintertime. I hate it for that exact reason. BECAUSE; she keeps the house SO FREAKING COLD. I don't know if she even turns on the heat. She loves being cold. I'm wearing a jacket in my own house for crying out loud! LOL. I don't know how she can take it. The weather is so horribly cold right now, and WINDY. Yesterday me and Jessica ( Read more... )