i ruin everything that is good.

Have you ever been afraid to sleep because you want to hear the phone ring? You sit there trying to find ways to kill the time hoping that the phone will light up and start to vibrate with one persons name on the caller ID. You try to spend time with people you know in hopes that for a moment you will forget that your phone exists even though you ( Read more... )

1. How tall are you? 5' 10 ( Read more... )

i was looking though all of the bbbq pictures and i started thinking....

how many pictures of me that reside on the internet involve my middle finger?

i would almost guess 75-80% but i could be wrong.....

it is my intent to remain as far from sober as i can get for the entire weekend.

whos with me?

i wish i were a priate. cause it seems that in every profession i have under taken i have certin friends that ask me to apply my profession for them. like when i worked in computers, i would get calls from them asking me to fix this or that problem. or when i sold electronics, i would get calls asking about which teevee was better than that. now ( Read more... )

i came home tonight miserable. i have so much on my plate that even when i take bites it seems that i will never get through it. between work (3 sperate jobs), my parents moving, selling the house i grew up in, being broke ass poor and the conversation i had tonight i would really be thankful if i was the random victim of gang violence in portland ( Read more... )

See the animal in his cage that you built ( Read more... )

"Mr. Ross? Mr.Ross?"

all i can see is white, i know its a square room but the shadows never apper. it just appers as an endless strech.

Startled, "Huh-wha. Oh. Yes?"

"The experiment is complete Mr. Ross, you can continue living your life."

I stand up, finding m hat and coat. turning to the voice.

"Oh, yes. Thank you."

silence.

Welcome to an existence of pain, torture and tears. You sure you wanted to be here? Don’t ask what else might be, this is all I know. Anything else makes no sense. We all lie here in a pool of our own blood and tears right? You mean others are happy, how? Don’t they see everything we have worked so hard to destroy? They can't look past all of this ( Read more... )