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[solistenup]

...i realized that i should shut my mouth. i can't help it. if i don't agree i can't just nod and pretend. well, actually with some people i do but not when it comes to me. when someone is trying to 'figure me out' it pisses the living shit out of me. my dad is ripping on my brother so badly. my brother is having a crisis, and if u knew u'd feel

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[jumping_joan]

Nicely said. I'm going to post something like this in my journal today, but more harsh. lol

I could tell you a million times that you're not fat, ugly, whatever. Hell, Britt. I can't see ANYTHING ugly in you. NOTHING. Dude, I fucking don't care if you look like shit, I'll cross the line when you begin to offend.. lol. But the thing is, to me, you don't look like shit. Sometimes your hair is messy, but fuck man. I don't even TOUCH a brush. And your hair doesnt look like that all the time.

Fuck people.

I hate them.

Britt, with the whole situation, who cares what they think. I'm so fucking sick of being in their 'secluded' circle. Fuck it. I'm going to find a different place to sit in lunch, even if it is by myself. I'm not standing in their little cult in the morning. FUCK THEM.

I know who my real friend is. Notice that friend isnt plural. Because its just you.

[mourningraven]

I'm not a friend of either of you two? Pft, maybe I need to write my own entry. Nah...

Britt, you really aren't fat. You're pretty normal sized, if not thin. If you lost more weight, you'd probably look like a scary anorexic person. You're pretty. Yeah, your hair is a bit weird sometimes. But whose isn't? Besides preps that wake up at 4:30 to iron out 'those gross waves.' Whatever.

Alex really loves you. I can tell whenever you two are together. He kinda turns on like a lightbult. (60 watt, not 40)

And as for the 'group'... What do I do every morning? I get my stuff. I go up there. I say hello to Jess, Ageh, and you when I see you. And then.... I leave. Or I endlessly circle the outside of it, 'cuz no one lets me in. And I leave before it gets to be the behemoth it is at 7:10. I tried to make friends, but none of them talk to anyone except...Themselves. And people that talk to them first. Bleh.

I love ya Brit. *hug*

[solistenup]

thanx guys
it's truly appreciated

yeah well...hippies love you too hahah.

[lick3d_d0rit0]

dearest latoyanizzle. muchas gracias for the post. i really needed that. im sorry for that entry it was pretty lame of me to ramble on and on but i've had the worst day of my life i think. and for the first time in my life i know what it's like to be used, and led on, and *heart broken* <\3. not fun at all... anyways im gonna make this post long because i said so lol. all i have to say is just they act like nothing ever happened and stuff its rediculous and HELLO i'm standing right there when yeah... there's someone new and i've been replaced and it hurts so bad. idk what im gonna do. i cant bare to watch it. it sucks to cry in skool specially over a boy. stupid boys. but situations like these do bring me much closer to my friends and im VERY glad to have friends like you in my life. thanks and yes i do miss hanging out with you!! this summer was the best you have no idea. we do need to chill like ice. we should have a super sleepover or something. <3 write back.
lee

Re: yeah well...hippies love you too hahah.

[solistenup]

we shall^^

[lefttojakk0609]

yeah so ive been reading your journal because im grounded and sad and i kow exactly what its like to watch all your 'friends' talk and laugh and no matter how hard you try you cant get in their little group, ive pretty much been replaced by EVERYONE except..no wait yeah everyone but i feel your pain and um i never ever thought you were fat or ugly, just awesome last year and dont be sad because thats sad ick i dont make sense...sorry! <3