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I've started coming to grips with the fact that this grad school thing isn't working out, and I think I need to own up and start considering my options, no matter how terrifying that is right now. I don't really know why I was "brought" here - I only hope it makes sense in retrospect.
To clarify, by "I've started coming to grips with the fact that this grad school thing isn't working out," I mean "I've only just begun wrapping my mind around how awesome this all is."
By "and I think I need to own up and start considering my options, no matter how terrifying that is right now," what I really am trying to say is "why the hell didn't I do this sooner?!?!"
And finally, by "I don't really know why I was "brought" here - I only hope it makes sense in retrospect," I think I'm trying to convey "HOLY JESUS! I had no idea stuff could come together so perfectly!!!"
Also, the post date should read "April 1st"
[Actually, these past few months, just about the only aspect of my life that hasn't been wrapped up in some deep, existential angst has been my being in academia. Thinking on that, I'm suddenly struck by how much rightness is here, and how vanishingly small all the other worries become in comparison. I think I'm gonna like this April...it's tricky, but joyful!]
To clarify, by "I've started coming to grips with the fact that this grad school thing isn't working out," I mean "I've only just begun wrapping my mind around how awesome this all is."
By "and I think I need to own up and start considering my options, no matter how terrifying that is right now," what I really am trying to say is "why the hell didn't I do this sooner?!?!"
And finally, by "I don't really know why I was "brought" here - I only hope it makes sense in retrospect," I think I'm trying to convey "HOLY JESUS! I had no idea stuff could come together so perfectly!!!"
Also, the post date should read "April 1st"
[Actually, these past few months, just about the only aspect of my life that hasn't been wrapped up in some deep, existential angst has been my being in academia. Thinking on that, I'm suddenly struck by how much rightness is here, and how vanishingly small all the other worries become in comparison. I think I'm gonna like this April...it's tricky, but joyful!]