Fanfic: Bitter Choices

[somadanne]

Title: Bitter Choices
Author: somadanne
Characters: Adama/Roslin, Ishay, Lee Adama
Rating: M
Timeline: Crossroads
Words: 1850

Written for the adama_roslin Month of Love VII. The prompt was “wrong choice.”

Many thanks to the amazing larsfarm77 for her quick and fabulous beta work.

Comments

[afrakaday]

Ugh. So perfect. So them.
So much anger and resignation on her part. She trusted him, and he didn't come through for her in this one thing. It's a point that's always really bothered me (even though rationally I know that it's a good thing that they keep each other in check), and I love seeing it explored in fic.
I'll repeat the sentiments expressed above-- the beginning is fantastic. It really grabbed me and let me know I was in for an emotional ride.
And the bit about her not having seen his feet so long was great. No sand to play in here.

It's such a treat to have new fic from you. Thank you for this!

[somadanne]

So them.

This is the best kind of comment. :)

I hear you on understanding rationally that it's a good thing they keep each other in check.

You know me, I always like that emotional kind of ride.

Thanks so much for reading and commenting. It truly was fun playing with words again. :)

[lanalucy]

I love the idea that lying to Lee about sleeping with is father is nightmarish to her - it seems such a small thing, and to some extent, none of Lee's business, yet to her, admitting it to him is the stuff of bad dreams.

The last few moments that are just Bill and Laura, before the trial begins, are wonderfully poignant, particularly sprinkled with her internal thoughts of not being there for much longer.

[somadanne]

Thanks so much for coming by and reading! It's always interesting to me to explore who knew what and when (and also what happened between them and when). Nightmares and chamalla dreams area always fun for me to play with while writing about Laura, too.

The last few moments that are just Bill and Laura, before the trial begins, are wonderfully poignant

Thank you. When I'm writing, I am so often thinking of the losses they've endured, and the losses yet to come.

[o_banaa]

*sobs loudly in the corner*

this was so heartbreaking (as was this episode). very in character and poignant. thank you for sharing.

[somadanne]

*sobs loudly in the corner*

I'm sorry to make you sob, and yet so thrilled that you had that reaction. :) (((HUGS)))

Thanks so much for commenting and letting me know how this affected you. It was really great to put a fic together again after quite a break.

[aka_plynn]

Don't mind me, I'll just be curled up on the floor over here, weeping.

Another stellar piece, Anne. This is really wonderful. The pacing is tight, and it really adds to the tension of Laura's thoughts.

Also, this made me happy:
The sick look on Lee’s face made the revelation worth it.

FU, Lee.

[somadanne]

Weeping! \o/

Wow, it's always such a surprise to me to learn that something I wrote has that kind of affect on someone.

The pacing is tight, and it really adds to the tension of Laura's thoughts.

I'm glad to know you think that--pacing isn't something I think of much, though I should, so I'm glad to know it worked well for you. (Maybe this is what happens when I don't have endless weeks to nitpick something!)

Thanks so much for reading and commenting. :)

[aka_plynn]

You liar, you love making us cry! ;)

It was this that did it:
“No. I’ve … seen what it does. I know what I’m facing.” Baldness. Vomiting. Lack of appetite. Bone-crushing fatigue. Death.

The fact that she's doing it, hating every second of it with zero hope of her own, just to keep Bill (and probably others) optimistic. It just hit me like a punch, and I didn't recover through the whole thing.

After so many years of reading and dealing with Laura's illness and death, it's such a treat to read something that can still hit those buttons. <3

[zaleti]

Finally, I'm getting to read things! I love your details here. The crooked vial. The red bra (!!!). The way her fingers go in his hair like some kind of reflex. The feet thing. Laura worrying about "using" Bill... All these physical manifestations of emotional conflict... ??? But here I go, close reading it. To be honest, I really enjoyed just reading it and getting those A/R fic vibes again. Rusty fangirl. Rusty reader! Plus, who doesn't love a Lee court smackdown? :)