I just need to get this off my chest. Although I like my job for the most part, and I like being busy and feeling competent, I hate that I feel like I am missing out on everything. I never see anyone anymore. I see erin maybe once a week for any greater period of time than a half hour before work or after before bed. It is difficult. I miss seeing ( Read more... )

It is amazing that you can spend two months doing absolutely nothing but drinking and hanging out and suddenly be working 11-13 hour days. My new job is all sorts of confliction and I just don't know what the fuck to do. I am excited to head to Boston on business and see where they send me from there but I don't want to wait the two weeks I have ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what to do. I wish I knew which path is the right one. I feel like I am at a crossroads right now, which is so ridiculous and so dramatic, yet I kinda do feel like I've reached some new place in my life. Now that I have graduated I need to figure out what it means and where to go from here and I have no fucking idea where to go or ( Read more... )

The clouds came from a picture tonight.

I hate being depressed. It sucks feeling broke, jobless, unloved, unmotivated and unattractive all at once. I really just need a job but I don't know how many more applications and cover letters I can crank out. My only glitter of hope is for a coffee shop to hire me at my interview on thursday. I became $26,000 in debt so that I can work in a ( Read more... )

Yea!  I finally have a place to call home that isn't a couch. Erin and I just moved into our new apartment on 17th off of Hawthorne. Totally cute.  Great place to crash if you need a place to sleep in ptown. You all have to come see it. And all I gotta say is that it is nice to have a place of your own to take care of some business. Andrea would ( Read more... )

somedays i just feel nothing.  others i just feel sad.

My day/night ( Read more... )

I am officially moved out of my apartment.  I am leaving for Cali in the morning and will be flying to new york on my birthday (July 3rd, although you all knew that).  I'll be back in portland on the 12th, sleeping on people's couches.  If you want me to sleep on yours, hit me up.

Hahahaha!  Take that U of fuckin O!  So I got my grades back, and instead of the horror I was expecting, I actually raised my GPA by some miniscule amount!  haha.  No Cs, rather I passed rock climbing, got an A- in Theatres of Resistance, B+ on my history thesis, and straight mother fuckin A in intergenerational justice,   Not the straight As I was ( Read more... )