Mikeys movie night and today
Last night was fun. We whatched the underworld which looked really good but it was kinda boring and long. I didnt get what was happening and i was kinda annoyed at the fact that all the vampires wore black. Its not like they have to, they could wear pink. THey dont have to be all dark and dreary, now being pale they cant help but why not brighten that skin tone. Lol..what a conversation.
omg..im whatching the funniest thing on mtv. Boiling points they have this guy who stares at people eating throught he window but he gets uncomfortabley close to the window. He starts moving his hands into how there talking. That would be the funniest random thing to do. Who ever is up for something like that at the mall, or some resturant that is at the mall with a window that you can get really close up to and bother them..yay..doctor phill is on.Ok now im whatching that.
so last night when i get in the car to go home my dad was trying to blame all this crap on me. I told him what we did and how we went to the park and talked and hes like what did you do at the park..like dad i did drugs, i just thought you should know that i did drugs..cant you tell? See how high i am. God hes so annoying, i know what hes getting at. I know hes trying to be a good parent and all its just im sick of not being trusted. SO then hes like since you went to mikeys party your not going to be able to get your bathing suit because its supposed to flood tommorow. Hes says: we could have gone tonight but you had to go to mikeys party. Now was he trying to make me feel guilty or something. SO then i was telling him how am i supposed to know this, you never told me we couldnt go tommorow? You never said brittany if you go to mikeys party then you cant get a bathing suit. I need a bathing suit by the way, really bad..i only have 2 but for a place where you going to be swimming everyday, i think i need another one. SO in the end Jim shouldnt have broughten it up the way he did, and i got pissed. GOd, i can get so annoyed with myself sometimes..like brittany how can be so selfish, or say that and not realize how it might make someone feel. I realize or maybe i dont that im not perfect but i guess im really hard on myself but i dont want to let up for fear ill turn into a person that im not comfortable with when i grow up.
Jason, yes this paragraph is going to be about jason so feel free to skip over it..lol. His front light is broke..how does his car always have something wrong...god well i have tried to get ahold of him all day..well 2 times..but no luck, he was sleeping the first time and then hes getting his light fixed. His mom says he will call me back but he never does..and sorry that kinda pisses me off. Im so commited to this relationship on calling him...and keeping in touch..but now that i re-read what i just wrote..ug..I dont know..maybe what i said was wrong but at the same time thats how i feel..i shouldnt be ashamed of that.
Ok also ive realized something pretty important...ok i dont usually talk about this stuff on here because i dont like to talk about my wieght. It makes me uncomfortable because ive always hated my body. People wouldnt know because this year was a big confidence boost. I dont like shopping because of the way I look like in the mirror...but latley..i have realized something that i will live by for the rest of my life..if you feel good and pretty in what your wearing then you are..dont sit there checking yourself out pointing out every single flaw in your body..cause if you walk with confidence then you have confidence. I am so much more comfortable with my body now..just cause ive realized that..lol..took me awhile but latley i think im evolving into a lot better person than i was before. My ideas and thoughts have gotton so much smarter in my opionin and mature. Im starting to become so much happier with myself..even though i get annoyed with myself..im proud of my ideas and thoughts..
man..ok so today i went to school at 7 with ms. howell. TYler fransis and jordan aldalgo..were there to. I got every problem right before them..hahhaa. I was actually impressed that i remember so many things. THis might sound funny but i always thought i wasnt smart, just average..well just latley ive become aware that im smart. Brittany McDevitt is smart..well the more i tell myself that, it seems the more its working for me. Next year im going to try alot harder..or push myself. I dont know why i want to do this but i really want to get into a good collage in california. Since thats where i want to live and go to collage. I have some jobs on my mind that involve the medical field, i want to be a er doctor, plastic surgen, nurse, phycologist. A phycologist would be super super nice.
Hum..well otherwise thats it..i dont know why i wrote so much today but hum..sometimes i think wow, i need to write that in my lj. Sometimes its really nice to jot down your thoughts or opionins..ok well thats it for now..bye bye