my grandmother

[somesimplicity]

I posted a reply to Hotcoco not long ago and erased it out of shame. I am shamed by my fucked up family history and no matter how freeing it might feel to write about it in the moment, rereading later never feels anything, but bad. My Grandfather was a monster, part of his Monster DNA runs in me, no matter how much I wish it weren't true. I have no

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[lmninnyc]

I miss you. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. xo

[eurika]

Sorry, hon. At least your kids will never have fucked up family memories of you! From all that I have seen in your postings, despite trials and tribulations, you have been a devoted mother.

My own family is also screwed up. It wasn't until I was in my late 30s that I finally believed the problem was them and not me. It took lots of people I admire liking and respecting me for me to realize that my parents dislike of me (and everyone else as a matter of fact) was their issue, not mine. It was like that moment in Labyrinth when she realized "You have no power over me." It was like a gift.

BTW, glad to see you back on LJ.

[meridianblue]

Just a drop by hello. Feeling nostalgic for lovely chats and even lovlier online friends tonight. Hope all is well with you xx

Glinda?! Kerrrry?!

[laurablackhart]

I don't know if you remember me or not, but I believe my username back in the day on here was take_apart ... It also could've been adarlingdear.

At any rate, we met up once shortly after I moved to Los Angeles and you so graciously gifted me some old houseware items and linens! :)

I hope you still check this from time to time. I was thinking about you the other day and wondering what you've been up to and how you've been.

xoxoxo,
Laura