if i were to write a book about my life, it would consist of a lot of time spent on railroad tracks. whenever something tragic happens, that is where i end up. so many have accumulated. the worst tragedy though was losing a piece of myself everytime it happened ( Read more... )

i had to have done well on my test yesterday. there weren't many questions that i was unsure of. if i messed up on anything it was the personality part of the test. all the questions were, "your past supervisors would say you are" and you have to pick what is most like you. i never know how to answer those ( Read more... )

yesterday i felt ok, today i mostly feel ok though i could see myself getting worse by the time i get out of work. maybe this won't happen because tomorrow morning i have that logic test to take for border patrol. i'm a bit nervous. i missed 2 out of 10 questions on the practice test because appearently there is a differance in saying "some of the ( Read more... )

i have so much to write about but i don't even know where to start. my thoughts are actually a jumbled mess and everything is confused ( Read more... )

i have absolutely nothing to write about. this is usually the time when i post the longest entry though. mostly its just rambling on about meaningless shit ( Read more... )

i can't believe that guy can make me mad even when i don't even like him anymore ( Read more... )

you can't understand how tired i am of living like this. this game of "hurry up and wait" is not really living at all. each day is a matter of finding distractions or means of making the time pass. there are a few tests coming up for me to take in hopes of finding a better job and moving away. but would moving even help? am i just running from ( Read more... )

The "Grown Up" Survey ( Read more... )

for the first part of the week, adam was just like how i remember him from years past. i remember how i was put off by certain quirks he has and ultimately remembered why i had stopped hanging out with him after only a short while each time. mostly, i tend to be very uncomfortable around him ( Read more... )

today is the aniversary of my mother's death. one year ago my mother passed away quietly on a hospital bed in the living room of her house ( Read more... )