Wow. 
I had forgotten what it felt like to feel this GOOD. 
I'm so glad to finally be with someone who I know will actually treat me the way I deserve to be treated, and then better than that. 
Its so funny how things work out. 
I spent two years working so ridiculously hard to make things work with Paul, without realizing that he didn't deserve it.  ( Read more... )

So um, stuff ( Read more... )

 Worked 6am-3pm.
Came home.
Ate a lot.
Took a nap.
Woke up to Jasmine's call.
Slept again until 8pm. 
Fever 101.3

Work 6am-3pm tomorrow.
Home.
Homework.
Food.
Sleep.

Fan.friggin.tastic.

Life. Give and take.

School is already getting old. I wish that I could possibly find a class that I am truly interested in. Honestly, I'm into cars or decorating or clothes more than I am English or Art History, etc. I think I've decided that college (or at least this type of college) isn't really for me, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to ( Read more... )

work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work
work...

$700 paycheck, f*ck yes...

I cried tonight.

Hard.

For the first time,
in a long time.

It needed to happen.

I just feel bad that Paul
had to be around for it..
I think he feels like it was 
his fault, but I suppose
it was really just a 
long time coming

bad day.
bad people.
bad world.
no reason in particular.

good boyfriend.
i worked 10-6, he worked 6-10:30..
..except he didn't.
(( i had called him when i got off,
saying how sucky my day was and
how much i dislike people.. etc, etc..
thinking he wouldn't get the message
til basically after he got off work )).. But,
he shows up at CP while i'm helping w/ ( Read more... )

sometimes thoughts don't have to apply to current feelings/events/whatever.

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i really don't like the fact that when i want something a lot,
i completely get my hopes up.. no matter what, even if i try not to..
and then i don't get whatever it was that i ( Read more... )

i LOVEEE the fatboy slim video with christpher walken in it.. "Weapon of Choice"

it makes me so happy every time i see it. hahaha.

good stuff.

so paul and i have been talking about going camping for a while now. 
i decided to look up prices for renting jet skiis up at berryessa.. yeah um $95/hr. 
crazy. so i'm thinking that if we decide to do that, we can share one. haha

my plans have been foiled yet again.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

:(