ya... erica thanks for making it extremely obvious. Ok, wow I AM SORRY. I don't even know if it's going to happen. I'm having a really hard time figuring out how I feel about anything right now. I've been through so much with Justin and it's really hard for me to let him go. And I'm sorry I cannot control how he feels about me. I WANTED YOU AND HIM TO BE TOGETHER. I really did. I'm not a bitch you know. and Yes, I also know that you are a billion times better than me any day. I bet you don't know that every fuckin day I tell him that he should be with you and I constantly ask him what his problem is because you are easily so much better than me. I don't even know what I want right now. Everything is killing me. Everything brings back a memory. I have these god damned hickies that won't even go away and everything is hurting me. And I'm just sitting here lying to myself telling myself everything is going to be ok adn I can move on.... just like Justin is. But I'm having a hard time with this. Everything is a memory. The gifts he's
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darling i'm obviously not better than you. seriously. i'm not. i'm annoying and I get jealous way too easily. plus when i get mad or stressed out i'm definately a bitch. i know exactly where ryan is coming from. and i know you wanted that, i wanted that too but it's obviously not going to happen so i really need to get over it. but, like you with justin it isn't that easy. obviously it's going to be easier with me becuase i hardly even knew the kid, but damn. i don't know what it is about him.. but it's making me insane. i'm the one who should be apologizing 6000000 times, not you. it's not your fault it's mine. and you really can get over justin just give it time. i would say i knew how you felt..except i don't so thats not going to work. just wait it out dear, and seriously, everything will be ok. =]. once again thank you for your time in this crucial moment. <3
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No, you seriously are better. And you don't have to appologize at all. And with Justin.. everything makes me jealous. Like I said, I sit here and just lie to myself until I half way believe it... And I tell everyone what I tell myself and I'm the only one that knows that it really isn't true. You don't get jealous as easy as I do I am sure of that. I'm too embarrased to even say some of the the things... But good luck to you. We can figure something out. There are better guys out there. There have to be. We have to find guys like Justin's dad or Grampy. Now THOSE are good men. We just need them in our age hehehe. We'll figure something out
haha. no seriously though. stop saying that. i'm not better than anybody. you really don't even know. but i doubt it. im a big fat jealous person.. it's pretty crazy. haha yeah there probably are better guys out there. not close.. but somewhere lol. love you.
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SO WHAT AM I SO AFRAID OF?
uh...dumdumdummm...?
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thats a big bunch of lovin.
lol
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-Lauren
P.s- is that anonymous freak still on you?
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and why do you post anonymous? lol
love you x 30948753024
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once again thank you for your time in this crucial moment.
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-Michelle
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love you.
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