A ramble and proposal
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Once again I find myself sitting here alone with in a strange mood, not depressed, Just Disappointed.
Life feels a bit pointless being the only one holding onto childish things in a group of people who just want to be grown up now, like they always acted as kids. Im not alone, but I feel like it. I have no one that shares my unique taste in music. Music isn't the same when you have no one to share it with. Sometimes Id just like to listen and sing along with someone, talk about the poetry of the words... I get compliments on my artwork from strangers but no one close to home seems to care, and its their opinion that counts most to me.
I feel like I’ve exhausted everything that made me happy or exited and there’s nothing left, just reruns of my favourite shows that get old fast. I’ve gone through every fetish, every unusual picture and video, heard every song, read every story. That’s probably not even close to the truth, but not far from it.
There’s things I’ve been looking forward to, but at the last minute plans change. Movies don’t come out, stories are discontinued. Its like I’ve looked forward to ten days of sun and nine out of those ten days it rained.
Im bored, I don’t know what I want. Im disappointed that life has nothing interesting left to throw at me for now, and the future seem too far to even bother hoping for anything.
So throw something at me! Im no good with drawing things people want, but Id try my hand at writing. If there’s something you want to read but don’t want to write, some creepy fetish your too embarrassed to share, I sympathise. Throw it at me and Ill write you a short fic for your eyes only and whoever you want to share it with. Everyone has some creepy fetish (or maybe that’s just me) don’t worry about creeping me out, I’ve seen it all.
Im best at writing Victor/Logan fics, or Victor/Wade. If anyone wants to take me up on this offer just send me a pm.
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