The Difference Between Us : Chapter Fourteen - If...
genre : Romance, Drama
rating : PG-13
cast : Jessica/Tiffany
“kamsahamnida”
Tiffany bowed when a customer pay the coffee he buy. She smiled when she saw a lot of money they earned today. She walked toward a table, planed to clean it but a tapped on her shoulder stopped her. She turn around and found Sooyoung stood behind her.
“Soo-Sooyoung? What are you... ho-how do you know I worked here?”
“it’s not that hard if you’re Jessica EX-girlfriend”
Tiffany gulped but her expression change when she realized what her friend doing here.
“what are you doing here?” she asked coldly. “it’s Jessica isn’t it?”
“you know it already”
Sooyoung sat at the table in front of Tiffany and crossed her arms. Tiffany scoffed.
“she needs you”
Tiffany rolled her eyes as she avoided Sooyoung’s words by cleaned up the table.
“please back to her. She was so broken”
“…..”
“Fany-ah, don’t you love her?”
“……”
“she looks so mess”
“…..”
“are you listening to me?”
Tiffany slammed the napkin she held and turned around, facing Sooyoung. Her eyes full of fury, watering, hurt can be seen.
“really?? mess, huh?? Broken?? Should I care about that??”
“uh…” Sooyoung looked around her. All eyes watched them.
“don’t you know what am I felling?? What you gonna do if your girlfriend slept with the other girl?! cheated on you!! I’m broken Sooyoung!! I don’t have any heart again! She broke it so damn well!!” She wiped her tears. “just… go away. Told her… I... won’t came back”
Sooyoung sighed and walked away from her towards the door. She stopped by the edge of the door.
“it’s okay if you don’t want to came back but…” she looked at Tiffany and smiled weakly. “please, just looked her from afar. It won’t hurt”
By that Sooyoung left the coffee bar. Tiffany sat weakly at the chair not far from her as she cried. She was tried so hard to forget Jessica, to bury their sweet memories but she can’t. She loves Jessica too much that trapped her.
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Tiffany wrapped her arm around Eunjung’s right arm as their made their way to the mini market. Sooyong’s words can’t stop repeated on her mind; ‘please, just looked her from afar. It won’t hurt’. Tiffany sighed deeply.
“are you okay? you huffed and sighed so many today. What’s wrong?”
She shook her head.
“nothing”
“isn’t it because Jessica?” Tiffany looked up at her and nodded. “Fany-ah” Eungjung hugged her for awhile and smiled at her. “if you still love her-“
“no I’m not”
“don’t pretending”
Tiffany let out her arm and walked passed her. She picked some foods and chips before put it down to the basket. Eunjung followed behind her, watching her. It’s hurt, she was hurt of the facts that Tiffany still loves Jessica that much. She wants Tiffany to be hers but what she can do? Nothing. She always do nothing, she didn’t confess her a couple of years ago, she didn’t want to met Tiffany after their graduation because she want to forget her and now she still don’t tell Tiffany her feeling. Just like years ago.
“she needs you” she said softly. Her heart bleeding again, she can’t move even an inch. Eunjung lowered her head.
Tiffany stopped picking foods and turn around to her. She walked closer to Eunjung and stopped centimeters away.
“why?”
Eunjung looked away, avoided Tiffany’s gaze. Tried so hard to not cried in front of her. She bit her lips.
“I just… thinking that… both of you are so… perfect together” she sighed. “she needs you and you too”
“I need her? Really?”
“Fany, I’m your friend. You’re so easy to read. You can’t pretend like you’re not need her instead you hate her to the death”
“why you care so much?”
She looked at the shorter girl in front of her, she has the blankly expression on her face and nausea at the same time. Eunjung forced a weak smile.
“she didn’t care about me, Sooyoung too, Taeyeon and Sunny not even tried to find me. Why you care so much??”
Eunjung stay silent, she lowered her head again.
“I don’t need anybody to care about me!” she paused. “I don’t need you to care about me”
Eunjung looked at her in surprise. Jaw dropped, her eyes watery, heart don’t have any shape anymore this time. Tiffany dropped the basket and walked passed her. When she about to reach the door, she stopped. Eunjung just says something.
“because I love you” she wishper.
Tiffany freeze. Her heart stopped beating as she turned around just to find Eunjung facing her back.
“jungie~” she whisper.
Eunjung wipe her tears and pick up the basket. Tiffany walked closer but stopped when Eunjung turn around.
“forget it. Pretend like I never told you that” she smiled weakly and walked passed her to the cashier.
“but…”
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Tiffany sighed loudly as she leaned against the back of the couch. She closed her eyes when Eunjung’s words crossed her mind again. ‘because I love you’. Again, she sighed. The image of Eunjung face can’t lied, the hurtful face she saw earlier made her feel guilty. Eunjung is her friend, best friend for more than a year. They know each other so well and can read one another feeling so easy but, why Tiffany can’t notice that Eunjung loves her?
“what is life… pffff”
She took a look at Eunjung room’s door and stood up, made her way towards the white door. She bit her lower lip as she knocked the door twice.
“come in, it’s not locked”
She nervously opened the door and saw Eunjung smiled at her from behind the book she read. Tiffany gave a small smile and closed the door behind her. She leans against the wooden door, stared at Eunjung, frowning.
“yes?” Eunjung lifted her eyebrow.
“I-I wanna ask you about… about what you had said earlier” she took a glance at her best friend, she still at the same spot. Tiffany bit her inner cheek. “Jungie be honest, are you… are you really-“
“love you?” she cut Tiffany’s word. She put the book at the nightstand and straightened her sit. “is that bother you that much?”
“yeah to be honest”
Eunjung inhale and exhale deeply. “well, if I told you the truth, will you trust it?” Tiffany nodded.
“Tiffany” Eunjung stood up and walked towards Tiffany. She stopped centimeters away from the long haired girl and smile sweetly. “I do love you” she paused. “from the first time we met at the high school. It’s been years ago but... as far as I know, I still love you ‘till now”
“oh my…” Tiffany lowered her head, felt guilty because she never knows that. “Jungie, I…”
“really Fany, you don’t have to answer it” she lift Tiffany head by her chin and smiled. “I feel so relief now. finally I can told you this” she paused. “sorry for the wrong timing”
“it’s… okay I think” Tiffany frowned. “just if…” she looked at Eunjung, consider if she want to tell the short haired girl or not. “forget it”
Eunjung lift her eyebrow but smiled. “sorry again. I don’t mean to say those words. Don’t mind it okay?”
“okay” Tiffany nodded and left the bedroom.
She closed the door and leaned against it.
‘just if you said that years ago, maybe I’m all your now Jungie’
Tiffany walked towards her room but stopped by the edge of it, she looked at Eunjung’s room again and knock the taller girl’s door. The door creaked open.
“can I sleep with you tonight?”
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Tiffany POV
The sounds of chirping birds wake me up from my sleeping. I yawned as I closed my eyes, covered it from the sunshine that entering the room. I looked around just to find Eunjung still fast asleep beside me; one hand wrapped my waist loosely. I watched her sleep and can’t help but smile at the sight.
She always looks this pretty and funny when she sleep - sometimes her tongue stick out from her mouth - I giggled and pinched the tip of her nose. She groaned meekly than buried her face onto my neck. I gasped by the sudden contact but relax as soon as her warm breath brush against my neck.
Somehow I feel comfortable by our position and safe because her hug. I stay silent and rested my head on top of hers as I closed my eyes slowly - not wanted to sleep but just feel the comfortable of her hug. A couple minute latter she shifted her position and I looked at her sleepy eyes. I flashed my eye-smile as I greeted her.
“good morning”
“good mor…” she stopped her morning greet when she realize that her arm wrapped my waist tightly. She gasped and stood up suddenly. I laughed at her.
“sorrysorrysorry, I didn’t mean to”
“it’s okay” I said stopped laughing.
“h-how long is it?”
“the entire night I think”
She gasped again and her face turned red by the mere second. I laughed again as I made my way to the door.
“I wash first” by that, I left the now redden face Eunjung stood like a fool in her bedroom.
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“here. For table number 9”
I nodded and pick up the tray of cups of coffee to the said table. I bowed to the customer but held my breath when I notice who it is. I gulped, sweating on my forehead. I stayed cool and pretend like I don’t know who they are as I put the cups and walked back to the cashier but a wrapped on my wrist stopped me. I held my breath, not turning around.
“wait” she said. “please”
I closed my eyes and turn around. Jessica sat there - on the table in front of me - eyes-bag visible below her red eyes -Yuri, sooyoung, Taeyeon and Sunny are here too - Really, that’s so painful; the sight of Jessica. I never saw her this mess, she looks like she didn’t care about herself anymore. The Jessica that I know is never look so hopeless and… the Jessica I know never ever show her weakness.
I force to not look care about it - trust me, I tried so hard - as I looked at her coolly.
“what is it?”
Jessica stood up. She sighed deeply as she looked directly into my eyes. Her stare is full of dull, sadness, emptiness, hurt, broken, and all I don’t want to find out.
“I want to talk to you”
“go ahead, but you should make it fast. I have a lot of things to do”
“not here. Can you come with me for a while? Please?”
I looked at my sunbaenim who stood behind the cashier table and sighed nervously when she nodded.
“10 minutes”
Jessica smiled meekly. She grabbed my hand and led the way outside the coffee bar. Jessica stopped at the alley and pulled me in. She looked around before she took of both of my hands. Her head down, she sighed deeply before she looked at me with her teary eyes. I fight myself to not cry by the sight.
“I’m sorry. I’m really really sorry. I didn’t mean to do that I swear. I was drunk and… and I don’t- know what h-happened nex-xt” she said between her sobs. “Fany please forgive me”
“8 minutes left”
Jessica sighed again. “I didn’t want that happened but what can I do? I was drunk Fany!”
“6 minutes”
“you-you don’t trust me any-more?”
“4 minutes”
“for god’s shake Fany! answer m-me!”
“58… 57… 56… 55… 54…”
“pleaseeeee~~~!!!” she whined uncontrollably. Tears all around her face.
“30… 29… 28… 27… 26… 25…”
“I swear I did nothing!! That was Gyuri’s fault!”
“20… 19…”
Her gripped on my hands tightened as she groaned in frustration.
“10… 9… 8…”
“please forgive me”
“1… time’s up”
I jerked her hands as I turn around, walked away from her.
“TIFFANY HWANG I LOVE YOU!!” she shouted. I gulped hard and stopped my walk. “I SWEAR I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!” Tears flew down my face. “pl-please don’t give- up on me” she lowered her voice. “pleas-se”
I turned around and saw her knelt down, Buried her face on her palm.
“I’m… I’m sorry” I said as I lowered my head. Avoid her shock gaze.
TBC
rating : PG-13
cast : Jessica/Tiffany
“kamsahamnida”
Tiffany bowed when a customer pay the coffee he buy. She smiled when she saw a lot of money they earned today. She walked toward a table, planed to clean it but a tapped on her shoulder stopped her. She turn around and found Sooyoung stood behind her.
“Soo-Sooyoung? What are you... ho-how do you know I worked here?”
“it’s not that hard if you’re Jessica EX-girlfriend”
Tiffany gulped but her expression change when she realized what her friend doing here.
“what are you doing here?” she asked coldly. “it’s Jessica isn’t it?”
“you know it already”
Sooyoung sat at the table in front of Tiffany and crossed her arms. Tiffany scoffed.
“she needs you”
Tiffany rolled her eyes as she avoided Sooyoung’s words by cleaned up the table.
“please back to her. She was so broken”
“…..”
“Fany-ah, don’t you love her?”
“……”
“she looks so mess”
“…..”
“are you listening to me?”
Tiffany slammed the napkin she held and turned around, facing Sooyoung. Her eyes full of fury, watering, hurt can be seen.
“really?? mess, huh?? Broken?? Should I care about that??”
“uh…” Sooyoung looked around her. All eyes watched them.
“don’t you know what am I felling?? What you gonna do if your girlfriend slept with the other girl?! cheated on you!! I’m broken Sooyoung!! I don’t have any heart again! She broke it so damn well!!” She wiped her tears. “just… go away. Told her… I... won’t came back”
Sooyoung sighed and walked away from her towards the door. She stopped by the edge of the door.
“it’s okay if you don’t want to came back but…” she looked at Tiffany and smiled weakly. “please, just looked her from afar. It won’t hurt”
By that Sooyoung left the coffee bar. Tiffany sat weakly at the chair not far from her as she cried. She was tried so hard to forget Jessica, to bury their sweet memories but she can’t. She loves Jessica too much that trapped her.
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Tiffany wrapped her arm around Eunjung’s right arm as their made their way to the mini market. Sooyong’s words can’t stop repeated on her mind; ‘please, just looked her from afar. It won’t hurt’. Tiffany sighed deeply.
“are you okay? you huffed and sighed so many today. What’s wrong?”
She shook her head.
“nothing”
“isn’t it because Jessica?” Tiffany looked up at her and nodded. “Fany-ah” Eungjung hugged her for awhile and smiled at her. “if you still love her-“
“no I’m not”
“don’t pretending”
Tiffany let out her arm and walked passed her. She picked some foods and chips before put it down to the basket. Eunjung followed behind her, watching her. It’s hurt, she was hurt of the facts that Tiffany still loves Jessica that much. She wants Tiffany to be hers but what she can do? Nothing. She always do nothing, she didn’t confess her a couple of years ago, she didn’t want to met Tiffany after their graduation because she want to forget her and now she still don’t tell Tiffany her feeling. Just like years ago.
“she needs you” she said softly. Her heart bleeding again, she can’t move even an inch. Eunjung lowered her head.
Tiffany stopped picking foods and turn around to her. She walked closer to Eunjung and stopped centimeters away.
“why?”
Eunjung looked away, avoided Tiffany’s gaze. Tried so hard to not cried in front of her. She bit her lips.
“I just… thinking that… both of you are so… perfect together” she sighed. “she needs you and you too”
“I need her? Really?”
“Fany, I’m your friend. You’re so easy to read. You can’t pretend like you’re not need her instead you hate her to the death”
“why you care so much?”
She looked at the shorter girl in front of her, she has the blankly expression on her face and nausea at the same time. Eunjung forced a weak smile.
“she didn’t care about me, Sooyoung too, Taeyeon and Sunny not even tried to find me. Why you care so much??”
Eunjung stay silent, she lowered her head again.
“I don’t need anybody to care about me!” she paused. “I don’t need you to care about me”
Eunjung looked at her in surprise. Jaw dropped, her eyes watery, heart don’t have any shape anymore this time. Tiffany dropped the basket and walked passed her. When she about to reach the door, she stopped. Eunjung just says something.
“because I love you” she wishper.
Tiffany freeze. Her heart stopped beating as she turned around just to find Eunjung facing her back.
“jungie~” she whisper.
Eunjung wipe her tears and pick up the basket. Tiffany walked closer but stopped when Eunjung turn around.
“forget it. Pretend like I never told you that” she smiled weakly and walked passed her to the cashier.
“but…”
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Tiffany sighed loudly as she leaned against the back of the couch. She closed her eyes when Eunjung’s words crossed her mind again. ‘because I love you’. Again, she sighed. The image of Eunjung face can’t lied, the hurtful face she saw earlier made her feel guilty. Eunjung is her friend, best friend for more than a year. They know each other so well and can read one another feeling so easy but, why Tiffany can’t notice that Eunjung loves her?
“what is life… pffff”
She took a look at Eunjung room’s door and stood up, made her way towards the white door. She bit her lower lip as she knocked the door twice.
“come in, it’s not locked”
She nervously opened the door and saw Eunjung smiled at her from behind the book she read. Tiffany gave a small smile and closed the door behind her. She leans against the wooden door, stared at Eunjung, frowning.
“yes?” Eunjung lifted her eyebrow.
“I-I wanna ask you about… about what you had said earlier” she took a glance at her best friend, she still at the same spot. Tiffany bit her inner cheek. “Jungie be honest, are you… are you really-“
“love you?” she cut Tiffany’s word. She put the book at the nightstand and straightened her sit. “is that bother you that much?”
“yeah to be honest”
Eunjung inhale and exhale deeply. “well, if I told you the truth, will you trust it?” Tiffany nodded.
“Tiffany” Eunjung stood up and walked towards Tiffany. She stopped centimeters away from the long haired girl and smile sweetly. “I do love you” she paused. “from the first time we met at the high school. It’s been years ago but... as far as I know, I still love you ‘till now”
“oh my…” Tiffany lowered her head, felt guilty because she never knows that. “Jungie, I…”
“really Fany, you don’t have to answer it” she lift Tiffany head by her chin and smiled. “I feel so relief now. finally I can told you this” she paused. “sorry for the wrong timing”
“it’s… okay I think” Tiffany frowned. “just if…” she looked at Eunjung, consider if she want to tell the short haired girl or not. “forget it”
Eunjung lift her eyebrow but smiled. “sorry again. I don’t mean to say those words. Don’t mind it okay?”
“okay” Tiffany nodded and left the bedroom.
She closed the door and leaned against it.
‘just if you said that years ago, maybe I’m all your now Jungie’
Tiffany walked towards her room but stopped by the edge of it, she looked at Eunjung’s room again and knock the taller girl’s door. The door creaked open.
“can I sleep with you tonight?”
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Tiffany POV
The sounds of chirping birds wake me up from my sleeping. I yawned as I closed my eyes, covered it from the sunshine that entering the room. I looked around just to find Eunjung still fast asleep beside me; one hand wrapped my waist loosely. I watched her sleep and can’t help but smile at the sight.
She always looks this pretty and funny when she sleep - sometimes her tongue stick out from her mouth - I giggled and pinched the tip of her nose. She groaned meekly than buried her face onto my neck. I gasped by the sudden contact but relax as soon as her warm breath brush against my neck.
Somehow I feel comfortable by our position and safe because her hug. I stay silent and rested my head on top of hers as I closed my eyes slowly - not wanted to sleep but just feel the comfortable of her hug. A couple minute latter she shifted her position and I looked at her sleepy eyes. I flashed my eye-smile as I greeted her.
“good morning”
“good mor…” she stopped her morning greet when she realize that her arm wrapped my waist tightly. She gasped and stood up suddenly. I laughed at her.
“sorrysorrysorry, I didn’t mean to”
“it’s okay” I said stopped laughing.
“h-how long is it?”
“the entire night I think”
She gasped again and her face turned red by the mere second. I laughed again as I made my way to the door.
“I wash first” by that, I left the now redden face Eunjung stood like a fool in her bedroom.
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“here. For table number 9”
I nodded and pick up the tray of cups of coffee to the said table. I bowed to the customer but held my breath when I notice who it is. I gulped, sweating on my forehead. I stayed cool and pretend like I don’t know who they are as I put the cups and walked back to the cashier but a wrapped on my wrist stopped me. I held my breath, not turning around.
“wait” she said. “please”
I closed my eyes and turn around. Jessica sat there - on the table in front of me - eyes-bag visible below her red eyes -Yuri, sooyoung, Taeyeon and Sunny are here too - Really, that’s so painful; the sight of Jessica. I never saw her this mess, she looks like she didn’t care about herself anymore. The Jessica that I know is never look so hopeless and… the Jessica I know never ever show her weakness.
I force to not look care about it - trust me, I tried so hard - as I looked at her coolly.
“what is it?”
Jessica stood up. She sighed deeply as she looked directly into my eyes. Her stare is full of dull, sadness, emptiness, hurt, broken, and all I don’t want to find out.
“I want to talk to you”
“go ahead, but you should make it fast. I have a lot of things to do”
“not here. Can you come with me for a while? Please?”
I looked at my sunbaenim who stood behind the cashier table and sighed nervously when she nodded.
“10 minutes”
Jessica smiled meekly. She grabbed my hand and led the way outside the coffee bar. Jessica stopped at the alley and pulled me in. She looked around before she took of both of my hands. Her head down, she sighed deeply before she looked at me with her teary eyes. I fight myself to not cry by the sight.
“I’m sorry. I’m really really sorry. I didn’t mean to do that I swear. I was drunk and… and I don’t- know what h-happened nex-xt” she said between her sobs. “Fany please forgive me”
“8 minutes left”
Jessica sighed again. “I didn’t want that happened but what can I do? I was drunk Fany!”
“6 minutes”
“you-you don’t trust me any-more?”
“4 minutes”
“for god’s shake Fany! answer m-me!”
“58… 57… 56… 55… 54…”
“pleaseeeee~~~!!!” she whined uncontrollably. Tears all around her face.
“30… 29… 28… 27… 26… 25…”
“I swear I did nothing!! That was Gyuri’s fault!”
“20… 19…”
Her gripped on my hands tightened as she groaned in frustration.
“10… 9… 8…”
“please forgive me”
“1… time’s up”
I jerked her hands as I turn around, walked away from her.
“TIFFANY HWANG I LOVE YOU!!” she shouted. I gulped hard and stopped my walk. “I SWEAR I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!” Tears flew down my face. “pl-please don’t give- up on me” she lowered her voice. “pleas-se”
I turned around and saw her knelt down, Buried her face on her palm.
“I’m… I’m sorry” I said as I lowered my head. Avoid her shock gaze.
TBC