I Don’t Wanna Say Goodbye
ratting: PG-13
genre: Romance
pairing: TaeNy
warning: so many grammar error!
I hope I can tell you that I love you…
I know I should,
but something in me tell me to not telling you.
something…
I couldn’t take.
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“Tae? Are you listening to me?” Tiffany waved her hand in front of her girlfriend’s face. Taeyeon looked at her with puzzled look. “Looks like you aren’t” she pouts.
Taeyeon smile a simple smile as she tapped Tiffany’s head. “sorry sweety. What did you said again?”
Tiffany sighed and lowered her head. This is not the first time Taeyeon abandon her when she was talked to her. Actually, this is happened most of the time. Taeyeon seems like not herself for the past 10 months.
“nothing”
Taeyeon nodded and grab Tiffany’s wrist. “come on, it’s almost dinner. Your dad gonna kill me if you come home late”
10 minutes later, the both of them already stood in front of Tiffany’s home still hand in hand. Tiffany looked at Taeyeon lovingly just if this is the last time she can see her girlfriend standing in front of her with that simple yet beautiful smile of her. She pecked the petite girl in the lips before she opened the gate.
“Fany, wait.”
Tiffany turn around and saw Taeyeon handed her a teddy bear to her. Tiffany plash her eye-smile.
“it’s okay to not give me this every time we hang out together.” She chuckle. “thanks, Honey. I love you” she walked towards Taeyeon and hugged her tightly before she entered her home and waves her hand from behind the window. Taeyeon waves back and turn around, made her way to her home.
Tiffany walked into her bedroom and put the teddy bear on top of the other tons of doll from Taeyeon. All looks the same, same color, same size, same doll, same… all the same. No different. She exhales deeply. Taeyeon never say ‘I love you’ to Tiffany instead she gave her those dolls which Tiffany didn’t know what that for.
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The next day come. They passed it with dating, walked through the beach hand in hand, ate ice cream, and else. Tiffany would tell her that she loves her very much like nth times every times but Taeyeon choose to reply it with a simple smile and tapped on top of Tiffany’s head. She never said those 3 words back to her girlfriend.
One day after they got home from campus and Taeyeon walked her home after an exhausted day they were passed earlier. Tiffany’s mind maybe more tired than her body so she blurt out the things she never wanted to asked before to Taeyeon because she knows what’s the answer is. She was just frustrated because she didn’t know if her girlfriend loves her like she does or no.
“Tae, do you even love me?” she asked sharply. Taeyeon shock and snapped aback with the question. She was about to answered it but Tiffany cut her. “You don’t, right? you never love me”
“I-“
“you never say it. what am I to you?”
“Fany, I-“
“ANSWER ME!” she screams, tears flowing down her face.
“Fany, you’re too tired because of today’s activity. You… you should go inside”
Tiffany can’t take it any longer. She was tired of waiting for Taeyeon to say those simple three words but it never came out from her mouth.
Never…
Never…
“I don’t know if you love me or not, Tae. I… I do love you but” she paused. Looking everywhere, avoid her girlfriend gaze. “let’s break up already”
Taeyeon widen her eyes, forcing back her tears. “what?” she whispers. “w-why?”
Tiffany can’t answer it, she can’t looked at her girlfriend hurt expression - not to mention her pale face go more pale than before - she can’t. She just can’t stand it anymore. She needs someone who can tell her about her feeling instead of gave her a tons of doll.
I hope you know this
I hope you know what I afraid of…
it’s losing you,
it’s leave you alone,
you leave me
what am I without you?
I’m…
nothing.
Taeyeon PoV
I’m come home late in the night. My cloth all wet because I walked through the hard rain and it makes my head hurt like hell. I don’t care though. I don’t care about the pain in my head or my trembling body because of the soaking cloth. I don’t care if I die now, I don’t have my other half anyway. Whose care? No one.
I opened my room’s door when my mom tapped me on my shoulder. I look back at her. She was crying, she was worry about me. I smile to her. Painful smile. I hate it when she looked at me like that, so I open my room door and lock it right after I feel pain in my goddamned head. I groan as I bit my lower lip. It’s didn’t make the pain stop instead it’s feels like gonna blew my head.
I scream, tears no longer exist. I don’t wanted to crying like a baby because of this disease which I know it would take my whole life into a black and white. I know I can’t heard birds chirping from outside the window anymore, the wind that flowed my hair, the grass on my feet and… the touch of Tiffany Hwang. My beloved. I prefer to cry because of her than cry because of this stupid ill. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of my life.
My mom knock the door harder behind me when she hear my scream and groans. I didn’t move from my spot, don’t let my mom saw me when I suffer like this even though I remember I lock the door already. So I walked away with my hand tear out my hair, eyes closed, sweat all over my body which mixed with my soaking cloth earlier.
“I’m… okay… mom” I said but I bet my mom can’t hear it because it was just like a whisper. I laying my body to my bed and slowly closed my eyes as I exhale softly. “I’m… okay…” I head my mom burst out the door with a loud bang. “…mommy”
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I told you that I love you
…in a different way.
hope you find it out,
my love :)
Author PoV
Tiffany slams the door hardly before she walked towards the dolls direction. She took one of those teddy bear before she throw it to the wall and repeat the same this to the other tons of the doll. She cries frustratingly before she sat onto the edge of the bed. She heard something mumbled in between the dolls so she looked up after the mumble can be heard again.
She stood up and made her way towards the doll. Tiffany picked up the doll and shakes it but nothing happened. She frowns and about to put it again when the doll mumbled something unclearly. The doll seems really normal with its cute face, nothing wrong as she started to questioning herself where the voice comes. She inadvertent push its nose and the voice heard again. But now… it’s more clearly.
“I love you” it says. Tiffany held her breath, heard stop beating as she push the other doll’s nose and found the same thing. Same voice which says “I love you”
Jaw drop, weak in the knee as she dropped herself to her bed. Lifelessly, hopeless, heart breaking into pieces. Tons of dolls with tons of ‘I love you’ in it. Tons. More than she ever said to Taeyeon. Her eyes started watery as her hand trembled, guilty all over her body. She grabbed her phone about to call Taeyeon to apology but its ringing right when the phone on her grip. She widened her eyes when she looked at the caller ID. It’s Taeyeon. Tiffany picked it up with a lightning speed.
“Tae! Tae… Taeyeon, I’m sorry” she sobs. “Taeyeon, I’m really really sorry. I should… I should know what was the dolls meaning! I should know it! Tae I-“
“Tiff” cut somebody behind the phone line. It’s not Taeyeon.
“Jessi? What…”
“Tiff, I-I don’t know how to say this” there’s something different in Jessica voice. She was crying. Tiffany gulped, wondered what had happened.
“what’s… what’s wrong?”
“Taeyeon… she was… she was…” paused for a good 2 seconds. “dead”
Jessica’s voice was just a whisper but it’s hit Tiffany until her backbone. She dropped her phone as she manages her brain to thinking hard about what was Jessica said to her. Taeyeon. Her girlfriend was… dead.
Dead…
Dead…
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Tiffany ran in the middle of raining night, heading blocks away to Taeyeon’s home. The water which fell from the sky mixed with her never ending tears. Her head hurt, heart didn’t have any shape any more. Her mind was blank; she can think nothing but the emptiness in her heart. She cursed herself for the entire life. How could she did that stupid - moron - act earlier when she knows she loves Taeyeon so much. when she knows she can’t life with her.
Life…
With…
….
Her…
“TAEYEON!!” she shouted onto the midnight life.
She run passed the crowd of people in front of Taeyeon’s house careless with the protested. She saw Jessica in Yuri’s embrace, sobbing hard onto the taller girl’s shoulder. She stopped in front of her best friend.
“w-where?” her voice trembling ache all over her body. Jessica looked up at her for a good 1 second and shook her head. Unable to tell Tiffany anything she wanted to know so bad. She looked at to Yuri who avoided her gaze as she answer. “go… go inside”
Tiffany nodded and walked slowly towards the door. Everybody around her looked at her sadly because things they’re all know is; this girl who walked with her soaked cloth and messy looks is the girl whom Taeyeon adore so much. They know it. They know it exactly.
Taeyeon’s mom is in there, crying her eyes out on Taeyeon’s dad’s hug. They both looked so dead pale. Tiffany walks in, heart thumping hard when she saw a white case in the middle of the room. She kneels down beside the case. Tiffany saw her, she saw her lover, as cute as she sees before, as pretty as she sees before, nothing change except some things.
She touch her lover skin, squeeze her palm as she wait. Waiting for her lover to squeeze her hand’s back or just a little movement so she can makes sure that Taeyeon is okay. Alive.
“Tae…” she whisper softly. Jessica and Yuri kneel down to her side. “you’re so cold” she waited again. But Taeyeon didn’t answer her. Tiffany trace the pale girl’s arm and stopped when she reach her face. “why were you so pale?”
“…..”
Tiffany ran her fingers to Taeyeon’s eyes and stopped in between her nose and mouth. Tears started flowing down her now pale face.
“Tae” she sobs as Jessica and Yuri hugged her tight. Crying. “Tae, why… w-hy were you not… bre-breathing?”
“…..”
“answer me”
“…..”
“do you… do you… l-love m-me?”
“…..”
“Taeyeon, answer me!”
“…..”
“Tiff~” Jessica whined. She can’t take it, she can’t watch Tiffany like this.
“Kim Taeyeon!” she shouted. “answer me!!!!”
Still no answer and Tiffany groan and began to crying her eyes out. She lifted her love’s hand and kissed its palm, buried her face on it. It used to be warm and the warmth gave her life. But now, it’s cold and the coldness took her life. Tiffany screams her name when she knows one thing, she has to face one thing. That her lover; Kim Taeyeon… is… gone.
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There’s Taeyeon reflection in the video. She was wore a loose t-shirt and short shorts. She smiles her byun smile and waving her hand.
“Hi there my Love” she said cheerfully before she exhale sharply and with a split second, her byun smile is gone which replace by a sad sad smile. “if you found this than I’m not there with you anymore. Sorry, I know this is not a good way to tell you about this but… yeah, I don’t know how to tell you.” she shift in her sit before continue. “Tiffany, my life” she smiles. “I’ve been hide this from you for a very long time but now, I wanted you to know this
Fany, it’s not like… I don’t love you, it was just, I don’t wanted to face the truth neither when I know about this. I am… I had a cancer on my brain.” Taeyeon pointed her head with her thumb. “and it’s already in the final stadium. I just have a couple of months to live and it’s hurt to know it, you know. I’m stressed out, I wanted to kill myself at that time but, you…” she smiles. “there is always you who made me not doing it. Because, if I kill myself at that time, I wouldn’t see your face anymore. I wanted to spend the rest of my short life with you in little arm.” Taeyeon giggled.
“I’m sure you already know what was the dolls for, are you? how many dolls that I gave you by the way?” she let out a chuckle while she count it with her fingers. “there’s soooo many! And I don’t know if the ‘I love you’ things in it would be mean to you or not because…” she scratch her head. “that was the only way how to tell it to you. why? Because I don’t wanted you to hope in me so high. I can’t life with you forever in the real life even though I really want to. I can’t stand beside you every time anymore. I can’t hold you in my arms and hugged you until the world ends.” There’s a hint of tears in the corner of her eyes.
“Tiffany, I love you more than you know. you had my soul, I give you it for the first time we met. But… something took away from you.” she started to cry. “I hate that thing! Its takes my life from you! I swear I force with it every time its came but I can’t. I… can’t” she sighs and wiped away her tears before she smiled back again.
“Miyoung, my heart, I wanted you to know 3 things. One, I love you more than anything in the whole galaxy. Two, you are always in my heart and… three, even though I’m not with you in the real life anymore but believe me one thing; you’re my life so, I’m always there, in the sky, watching you. Every. Single. Beat. Of your heart.
“and… I wanna you, Tiffany Hwang Miyoung, to promise me things I wanted you to do. One, I don’t wanted you to cry anymore; be a strong girl like you mom! And two…” Taeyeon smile the sad smile of her and talked softly. “I wanted you to move on. I wanted you to forget me. I wanted you to find another person more than me. I wanted you to life happily and have a lot of kids that loves you very much. I wanted… you…” Taeyeon’s voice trembled. It’s not that easy to tell someone you love so damn much to forget you. because, it’s hurt. “to love whoever it is more than you love me.” She paused and exhale as she smile again. “one last thing, I don’t wanna say goodbye because I know that I will met you in the other life, my life”
The tv screen turn into all blue. Tiffany sat there in front of it with Jessica crying beside her. She was crying too until she barely can breathing normally. It was Sunny who gave her the last doll from Taeyeon and tell her to watch the DVD after she got home. She felt guilty because she thought that Taeyeon didn’t loves her like she does but for Taeyeon’s request, she wipes her tears away. And from now on, she wanted to move on like what Taeyeon said. But one thing she ignored; she doesn’t wanted to forget her.
Never.
genre: Romance
pairing: TaeNy
warning: so many grammar error!
I hope I can tell you that I love you…
I know I should,
but something in me tell me to not telling you.
something…
I couldn’t take.
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“Tae? Are you listening to me?” Tiffany waved her hand in front of her girlfriend’s face. Taeyeon looked at her with puzzled look. “Looks like you aren’t” she pouts.
Taeyeon smile a simple smile as she tapped Tiffany’s head. “sorry sweety. What did you said again?”
Tiffany sighed and lowered her head. This is not the first time Taeyeon abandon her when she was talked to her. Actually, this is happened most of the time. Taeyeon seems like not herself for the past 10 months.
“nothing”
Taeyeon nodded and grab Tiffany’s wrist. “come on, it’s almost dinner. Your dad gonna kill me if you come home late”
10 minutes later, the both of them already stood in front of Tiffany’s home still hand in hand. Tiffany looked at Taeyeon lovingly just if this is the last time she can see her girlfriend standing in front of her with that simple yet beautiful smile of her. She pecked the petite girl in the lips before she opened the gate.
“Fany, wait.”
Tiffany turn around and saw Taeyeon handed her a teddy bear to her. Tiffany plash her eye-smile.
“it’s okay to not give me this every time we hang out together.” She chuckle. “thanks, Honey. I love you” she walked towards Taeyeon and hugged her tightly before she entered her home and waves her hand from behind the window. Taeyeon waves back and turn around, made her way to her home.
Tiffany walked into her bedroom and put the teddy bear on top of the other tons of doll from Taeyeon. All looks the same, same color, same size, same doll, same… all the same. No different. She exhales deeply. Taeyeon never say ‘I love you’ to Tiffany instead she gave her those dolls which Tiffany didn’t know what that for.
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The next day come. They passed it with dating, walked through the beach hand in hand, ate ice cream, and else. Tiffany would tell her that she loves her very much like nth times every times but Taeyeon choose to reply it with a simple smile and tapped on top of Tiffany’s head. She never said those 3 words back to her girlfriend.
One day after they got home from campus and Taeyeon walked her home after an exhausted day they were passed earlier. Tiffany’s mind maybe more tired than her body so she blurt out the things she never wanted to asked before to Taeyeon because she knows what’s the answer is. She was just frustrated because she didn’t know if her girlfriend loves her like she does or no.
“Tae, do you even love me?” she asked sharply. Taeyeon shock and snapped aback with the question. She was about to answered it but Tiffany cut her. “You don’t, right? you never love me”
“I-“
“you never say it. what am I to you?”
“Fany, I-“
“ANSWER ME!” she screams, tears flowing down her face.
“Fany, you’re too tired because of today’s activity. You… you should go inside”
Tiffany can’t take it any longer. She was tired of waiting for Taeyeon to say those simple three words but it never came out from her mouth.
Never…
Never…
“I don’t know if you love me or not, Tae. I… I do love you but” she paused. Looking everywhere, avoid her girlfriend gaze. “let’s break up already”
Taeyeon widen her eyes, forcing back her tears. “what?” she whispers. “w-why?”
Tiffany can’t answer it, she can’t looked at her girlfriend hurt expression - not to mention her pale face go more pale than before - she can’t. She just can’t stand it anymore. She needs someone who can tell her about her feeling instead of gave her a tons of doll.
I hope you know this
I hope you know what I afraid of…
it’s losing you,
it’s leave you alone,
you leave me
what am I without you?
I’m…
nothing.
Taeyeon PoV
I’m come home late in the night. My cloth all wet because I walked through the hard rain and it makes my head hurt like hell. I don’t care though. I don’t care about the pain in my head or my trembling body because of the soaking cloth. I don’t care if I die now, I don’t have my other half anyway. Whose care? No one.
I opened my room’s door when my mom tapped me on my shoulder. I look back at her. She was crying, she was worry about me. I smile to her. Painful smile. I hate it when she looked at me like that, so I open my room door and lock it right after I feel pain in my goddamned head. I groan as I bit my lower lip. It’s didn’t make the pain stop instead it’s feels like gonna blew my head.
I scream, tears no longer exist. I don’t wanted to crying like a baby because of this disease which I know it would take my whole life into a black and white. I know I can’t heard birds chirping from outside the window anymore, the wind that flowed my hair, the grass on my feet and… the touch of Tiffany Hwang. My beloved. I prefer to cry because of her than cry because of this stupid ill. I’m sick of it. I’m sick of my life.
My mom knock the door harder behind me when she hear my scream and groans. I didn’t move from my spot, don’t let my mom saw me when I suffer like this even though I remember I lock the door already. So I walked away with my hand tear out my hair, eyes closed, sweat all over my body which mixed with my soaking cloth earlier.
“I’m… okay… mom” I said but I bet my mom can’t hear it because it was just like a whisper. I laying my body to my bed and slowly closed my eyes as I exhale softly. “I’m… okay…” I head my mom burst out the door with a loud bang. “…mommy”
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I told you that I love you
…in a different way.
hope you find it out,
my love :)
Author PoV
Tiffany slams the door hardly before she walked towards the dolls direction. She took one of those teddy bear before she throw it to the wall and repeat the same this to the other tons of the doll. She cries frustratingly before she sat onto the edge of the bed. She heard something mumbled in between the dolls so she looked up after the mumble can be heard again.
She stood up and made her way towards the doll. Tiffany picked up the doll and shakes it but nothing happened. She frowns and about to put it again when the doll mumbled something unclearly. The doll seems really normal with its cute face, nothing wrong as she started to questioning herself where the voice comes. She inadvertent push its nose and the voice heard again. But now… it’s more clearly.
“I love you” it says. Tiffany held her breath, heard stop beating as she push the other doll’s nose and found the same thing. Same voice which says “I love you”
Jaw drop, weak in the knee as she dropped herself to her bed. Lifelessly, hopeless, heart breaking into pieces. Tons of dolls with tons of ‘I love you’ in it. Tons. More than she ever said to Taeyeon. Her eyes started watery as her hand trembled, guilty all over her body. She grabbed her phone about to call Taeyeon to apology but its ringing right when the phone on her grip. She widened her eyes when she looked at the caller ID. It’s Taeyeon. Tiffany picked it up with a lightning speed.
“Tae! Tae… Taeyeon, I’m sorry” she sobs. “Taeyeon, I’m really really sorry. I should… I should know what was the dolls meaning! I should know it! Tae I-“
“Tiff” cut somebody behind the phone line. It’s not Taeyeon.
“Jessi? What…”
“Tiff, I-I don’t know how to say this” there’s something different in Jessica voice. She was crying. Tiffany gulped, wondered what had happened.
“what’s… what’s wrong?”
“Taeyeon… she was… she was…” paused for a good 2 seconds. “dead”
Jessica’s voice was just a whisper but it’s hit Tiffany until her backbone. She dropped her phone as she manages her brain to thinking hard about what was Jessica said to her. Taeyeon. Her girlfriend was… dead.
Dead…
Dead…
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Tiffany ran in the middle of raining night, heading blocks away to Taeyeon’s home. The water which fell from the sky mixed with her never ending tears. Her head hurt, heart didn’t have any shape any more. Her mind was blank; she can think nothing but the emptiness in her heart. She cursed herself for the entire life. How could she did that stupid - moron - act earlier when she knows she loves Taeyeon so much. when she knows she can’t life with her.
Life…
With…
….
Her…
“TAEYEON!!” she shouted onto the midnight life.
She run passed the crowd of people in front of Taeyeon’s house careless with the protested. She saw Jessica in Yuri’s embrace, sobbing hard onto the taller girl’s shoulder. She stopped in front of her best friend.
“w-where?” her voice trembling ache all over her body. Jessica looked up at her for a good 1 second and shook her head. Unable to tell Tiffany anything she wanted to know so bad. She looked at to Yuri who avoided her gaze as she answer. “go… go inside”
Tiffany nodded and walked slowly towards the door. Everybody around her looked at her sadly because things they’re all know is; this girl who walked with her soaked cloth and messy looks is the girl whom Taeyeon adore so much. They know it. They know it exactly.
Taeyeon’s mom is in there, crying her eyes out on Taeyeon’s dad’s hug. They both looked so dead pale. Tiffany walks in, heart thumping hard when she saw a white case in the middle of the room. She kneels down beside the case. Tiffany saw her, she saw her lover, as cute as she sees before, as pretty as she sees before, nothing change except some things.
She touch her lover skin, squeeze her palm as she wait. Waiting for her lover to squeeze her hand’s back or just a little movement so she can makes sure that Taeyeon is okay. Alive.
“Tae…” she whisper softly. Jessica and Yuri kneel down to her side. “you’re so cold” she waited again. But Taeyeon didn’t answer her. Tiffany trace the pale girl’s arm and stopped when she reach her face. “why were you so pale?”
“…..”
Tiffany ran her fingers to Taeyeon’s eyes and stopped in between her nose and mouth. Tears started flowing down her now pale face.
“Tae” she sobs as Jessica and Yuri hugged her tight. Crying. “Tae, why… w-hy were you not… bre-breathing?”
“…..”
“answer me”
“…..”
“do you… do you… l-love m-me?”
“…..”
“Taeyeon, answer me!”
“…..”
“Tiff~” Jessica whined. She can’t take it, she can’t watch Tiffany like this.
“Kim Taeyeon!” she shouted. “answer me!!!!”
Still no answer and Tiffany groan and began to crying her eyes out. She lifted her love’s hand and kissed its palm, buried her face on it. It used to be warm and the warmth gave her life. But now, it’s cold and the coldness took her life. Tiffany screams her name when she knows one thing, she has to face one thing. That her lover; Kim Taeyeon… is… gone.
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There’s Taeyeon reflection in the video. She was wore a loose t-shirt and short shorts. She smiles her byun smile and waving her hand.
“Hi there my Love” she said cheerfully before she exhale sharply and with a split second, her byun smile is gone which replace by a sad sad smile. “if you found this than I’m not there with you anymore. Sorry, I know this is not a good way to tell you about this but… yeah, I don’t know how to tell you.” she shift in her sit before continue. “Tiffany, my life” she smiles. “I’ve been hide this from you for a very long time but now, I wanted you to know this
Fany, it’s not like… I don’t love you, it was just, I don’t wanted to face the truth neither when I know about this. I am… I had a cancer on my brain.” Taeyeon pointed her head with her thumb. “and it’s already in the final stadium. I just have a couple of months to live and it’s hurt to know it, you know. I’m stressed out, I wanted to kill myself at that time but, you…” she smiles. “there is always you who made me not doing it. Because, if I kill myself at that time, I wouldn’t see your face anymore. I wanted to spend the rest of my short life with you in little arm.” Taeyeon giggled.
“I’m sure you already know what was the dolls for, are you? how many dolls that I gave you by the way?” she let out a chuckle while she count it with her fingers. “there’s soooo many! And I don’t know if the ‘I love you’ things in it would be mean to you or not because…” she scratch her head. “that was the only way how to tell it to you. why? Because I don’t wanted you to hope in me so high. I can’t life with you forever in the real life even though I really want to. I can’t stand beside you every time anymore. I can’t hold you in my arms and hugged you until the world ends.” There’s a hint of tears in the corner of her eyes.
“Tiffany, I love you more than you know. you had my soul, I give you it for the first time we met. But… something took away from you.” she started to cry. “I hate that thing! Its takes my life from you! I swear I force with it every time its came but I can’t. I… can’t” she sighs and wiped away her tears before she smiled back again.
“Miyoung, my heart, I wanted you to know 3 things. One, I love you more than anything in the whole galaxy. Two, you are always in my heart and… three, even though I’m not with you in the real life anymore but believe me one thing; you’re my life so, I’m always there, in the sky, watching you. Every. Single. Beat. Of your heart.
“and… I wanna you, Tiffany Hwang Miyoung, to promise me things I wanted you to do. One, I don’t wanted you to cry anymore; be a strong girl like you mom! And two…” Taeyeon smile the sad smile of her and talked softly. “I wanted you to move on. I wanted you to forget me. I wanted you to find another person more than me. I wanted you to life happily and have a lot of kids that loves you very much. I wanted… you…” Taeyeon’s voice trembled. It’s not that easy to tell someone you love so damn much to forget you. because, it’s hurt. “to love whoever it is more than you love me.” She paused and exhale as she smile again. “one last thing, I don’t wanna say goodbye because I know that I will met you in the other life, my life”
The tv screen turn into all blue. Tiffany sat there in front of it with Jessica crying beside her. She was crying too until she barely can breathing normally. It was Sunny who gave her the last doll from Taeyeon and tell her to watch the DVD after she got home. She felt guilty because she thought that Taeyeon didn’t loves her like she does but for Taeyeon’s request, she wipes her tears away. And from now on, she wanted to move on like what Taeyeon said. But one thing she ignored; she doesn’t wanted to forget her.
Never.