Worthy Sacrifice [chapter 3]
a/n: ah! an update! special thx to I<3Yoo for the help
this is kinda long chap. hope you like it. and leave comment won't hurt kk.
CHAPTER 3
“It’s like 5 in the morning, Sica.”
I looked down at Sooyoung who still buried her face on the pillow with eyes close tightly. I smile at her as I wore my coat on my fragile body.
“I know. Just sleep, don’t worry about me. I’ll be okay.”
With that, I closed the door silently, not wanting the other girls to wake up because of the sound. I tip-toed to the front door and pushed it gently before closing it again. The silence of the hallway calmed me.
A small sad smile crept on my face but did not reach my swollen eyes. I sighed deeply before pressing the button for the elevator and waited until it came. I took a step inside, rode until it reached the lobby. I said farewell to the security on my exit and walked away to the empty cold street.
I’m doing this in purpose. I just can’t handle it. I need… time. Alone.
***
“Where have you been?”
Taeyeon crossed her arms as I took off my shoes. She looked so tired.
“Sica? Did you hear me?”
I gave her a simple smile and placed my right hand on her shoulder.
“No need to worry, Taengoo. I’m okay. I just needed some time to think about everything.”
She sighed and turned around, following me towards the kitchen. Among us all, Taeyeon is the most hard-working. Despite her own problems, Taeyeon still help the other girls with their problems.
And now, it's my problem that's made her like this. She was thinking about this so much.
“How can you tell me not to worry when you disappear in the middle of the night and come back early morning? Not to mention I hear you crying at night too.” She whispered sharply behind me. I froze.
“Jessica, I know this is hard, but at least let me help you?”
I turn around to face the leader and once again forced myself not to look so broken inside and out. So I smiled at her.
“You've helped me so much, Taeng. Let me… do this by myself this time. Can you trust me on this?” Taeyeon slowly nodded and sigh. “I’ll tell you if I need help.”
Right before Taeyeon could respond my words; Tiffany stepped out of her room and looked at me almost instantly with an apologetic face. A sigh escaped my mouth when I saw her. Not wanting to be a mood booster, I walked towards Yuri and Yoona’s room to wake the two twins -and to avoid her.
***
I still keep my eyes on her when we’re performing or just simply doing anything together in public. Fans cheer out loud when her and I holdhands, fix one another’s hair, hug, or just stare at each other with love. (In my case, I am)
So, this time, when I saw him staring at me with that creepy look, my hand automatically turned into a fist. Why in the world was he always around Tiffany? I mean, he wasn’t doing anything here. There’s no one from his group here either, so why he is here? To keep his eyes on Tiffany or me? It’s for sure me, because when I looked at him after performing, he looked like he really wanted tohurt me.
“I thought I warned you already withthe ‘stay-away-from-my-girl’ thing.” He whispers to me sharply as I walked alone in the hallway towards the waiting room. I avoided him, not thinking much of the situation.
“You don’t care about your own good, do you?”
I scoffed and rolled my eyes. “You don’t love her.”
He stopped and gripped my wrist tightly;I hissed at the pain. I tried to jerk his hand away but his grip was just too strong for a girl like me. I looked him in the eyes.
“You’re just afraid that she’s gonna leave you along with your popularity.” I scoffed again. “I know what you’re doing, Taec. You made her crazy in love with you just for that. She’s folly for falling for your crap.”
He gritted her teeth.I yelped in pain as he jerked my hand harshly towards the wall. I held my wrist as I bit my lower lip. He grabbed my collar and slammed me onto the wall hard. I held my breath. Waiting him to talk.
“Watch your words, Jessica Jung. I’m not kidding around.” He grinned evilly.
“Looks like you don’t wanna stay away from her. It’s all up to you. We’ll see.”
He patted my shoulder, fixed my collar and walked away. I watched him until he disappear from sight, then leaned against the wall behind me. I held my pained wrist as red marks appeared visible. I closed my eyes.Before tears could fall down my face, I heard footsteps nearby. I looked at my left and saw Sunny walking towards me with Tiffany following behind her. Sunny sped up as she saw the marks on my wrist. She looked at me, and held it. I hissed in pain.
“What’s wrong?” she asked me.
“I… I was…”
“He did this to you, right?”
I, shocked and confused, looked at her and Tiffany repeatedly.
“Wh-what are you talking about?”
Sunny scoffed and turn around to glance at Tiffany for a good one second, then back at me.
“I know what he did.” Sunny sighed. “I saw it.”
Tiffany lowered her head. I knew she knows something. They both knew what Taecyeon did to me earlier. I wondered if they heard he said.
“What did he say?”
If there was ever a time more perfect to sigh in relief, this was it. So yeah, I sighed. It wouldn’t have been very good if they’d heard what they said.
“Nothing.”
Tiffany took a steptowards me and looked at Sunny. The shorter girl understood and nodded in reply.Then she left me and Tiffany alone. Tiffany waited until Sunny disappeared from the turn and looked me in the eyes. She reached for my injured wrist and carefully held it. She caressed it with her thumb slowly. Tiffany exhale deeply before look at me in the eye and lowered her head again. She bit her lower lip as tears fell from her eyes.
“I’m sorry.” She said, no louder than a whisper.
“It’s not your fault, Tiff.” I lifted her chin and smile at her as I wipe away the tears with my other hand.
“Still-” She held my hands on her face. “I hurt you. I should… I should listen to you and not-“
“Wait.” I cut her off. Did she just say that she was hurting me? Did she know that…?
Oh crap! “Did you… break up with him?” I bit my lip.
Tiffany sighed and let go of my hands as she nodded weakly. “I was- I was wrong. He‘s a jerk.”
If it wasn’t for the atmosphere, and Tiffany crying in front of me, I would’ve jumped and scream in sheer happiness. This was what I wanted; this is what I’m waiting for sooooo long for. For Tiffany to realize that Taecyeon is really a jerk. But yeah, I just stood there, keeping my cool when my heart was racing so damn fast.
“You realize it now.” I smile and lift her chin again, rested my arms around her neck.
“I know. I’m- I’m sorry. I was… I was just…”
Tiffany started to sob again and buried her face in my neck as she held on to me. She was so broken. I’m not gonna asked her now. It’ll make her sad even more. Later, when she calms down.I wouldn’t miss a thing. I’ll be on her side every single time.
***
I felt something vibrating under my back. Once, twice, trice. I ignored it. But seemed like it wouldn’t stop any time soon unless I picked it up. So I reach for my phone behind my back and without opening my eyes, picked up the call lazily.
“Yeah?” I said,my face buriedin the pillow. No answer. “Hello?” I said again.
I groaned. This is annoying. It’s like 4 in the morning and I slept like, 45 minutes! Who in the world would call at this time? I opened my eyes a lil’ bit and looked the phone screen. Unknown number. Which meant that-
“Beware.” It was a guy’s voice. Deep. The voice chuckled.
“W-who is this?” I sat up from my position. Now, fully awake.
“You don’t recognize me, Jessica?” he chuckled again. “How funny, we had just met this afternoon.”
Realization hit me. It’s him. It’s Taecyeon. My hands turned into a fist as I gripped hard on the bed sheet.
“What do you want, Taec?”
I stepped out of the the room and out of the dorm. I Walked by myself out of building with only a loose pink t-shirt and short shorts. I shuddered at the cool breeze as I walked through the park in front of the building.
“Nothing.” He stayed silent for a while as I crossed the street.
“You look hot with that loose pink t-shirt and short shorts.”
I froze where I stood, scanning my surroundings. I gulped hard. This jerk is really scaring me.
“H-how did you know? Where are you?”
“Honey thighs.” He said, and then let out a laugh.
I held my breath as I sensed somebody behind me. I gulped and turn around, finding Taecyeon with his stupid grin and his phone on his grip. He looked at me from head to toe before he licked his lips and tilted his head to one side. It felt like he was undressing me with his eyes. So I move backwards.
“What do you want?”
“Are you afraid, Sica baby?” He stepped forward and I moved back with every step he took.
“I won’t bite. You’re making me want to. I told you to stay away from Tiffany. Didn’t you get it the first time?”
“She is not your girlfriend.”
“No, I don’t date fools.”
That was too much. I stopped and walked towards him. I held him by the collar and hissed sharply.
“Watch your words, Mr. *******.”
“You smell so good, Sica.”
He took a whiff beside my cheek and immediately, I pushed him away from me. He laughed. How much more of a jerk can this guy get? There’s no one in this world I hate more than him.
“I wasn’t kidding with my threat days ago. You should be careful from now on.”
“Yea I know that. I can smell something bad from you. Do I look like I care?” He scoffed at my words.
“I’m not afraid of you, Taec.”
“Oh my dear, you shouldn’t play with me. But it looks like you’re challenging me. You’ll be suffering for the rest of your life, Jung Sooyeon. And I mean it.”
With that, he turned around and waved his hand as he walked towards the dark alley and disappeared in the darkness. I felt weak in my knees. I’m afraid. I know what kind of guy he is and I’m afraid that something dirty is gonna happen to me. Sighing in frustration, I walked towards the building and pressed the elevator button. I waited until the sound of the elevator interrupted my train of thought before stepping in and the out again as I reached my floor.
I opened the door and shut it closed silently. I tip-toed inside the dorm and lay on the couch hopelessly. If I do this, if I risk my life for Tiffany, would she do the same if she was in my shoes? Is this worth it? This is my love that I’m fighting for. I hope the best for it. I hope Tiffany would open her eyes and notice that I’ve loved her for so long. Hoping like this won’t hurt me physically right?
***
“Yah, Sica-yah! There’s a package for you.”
I rolled off the couch and accidently fell on top of Yoona who lay with open arms on the floor. She yelped in shock then laughed her alligator laugh before slapping my arms playfully. I chuckled and hide my blushing face with my hands and got a hard slap on the head from Yuri which make me stand up and hide behind Sunny (mental note: don’t ever hide behind a shorter girl from a taller girl because it wouldn’t help at all).
“Yuri, stop slapping her head. She is slow already.”
I pout at Sunny’s remark while Yuri was laughing hard with the rest of the girls. I looked at Tiffany and she covered her mouth to stop herself from laughing when I stuck my tongue out at her. Taeyeon tapped my head and gave me the package. I opened the threshold to my room and threw it onto my bed. It must be another gift from fans so I decided to open it later.
A free day for me! I’ve been waiting for one for like forever and now, finally, I can spend my whole day sleeping and doing nothing. I slumped my body on the couch with a cup of tea and some biscuits. Inhaling the smell of freedom for today it made me feel so good. Tiffany watched me from across the room as she giggled cutely before taking a seat beside me. I look at her in the eye as I lift up the tea cup innocently. She pinched my cheek.
“Looks like it’s just the two of us.”
I nodded as I waved my hand to the rest of the girls -Tiffany does the same thing. She rests her head on my shoulder and took one of the biscuit from my hand. I smile, widely as my heart raced unsteadily.
“Just the two of us.” I repeated her words. “Want something to drink?”
She shook her head. “No thanks, I’m not thirsty.” Tiffany exhaled as she stretched her body before wrapping her hands around my waist, and buried her face in my neck. My heart raced uncontrollably and I was having trouble breathing. I gulped hard, extremely nervous at the contact.
“Jessi?”
“Y-yeah?”
“I wanna ask you something. Answer me honestly, will you?”
I nodded.
Things you should know; I dislike it when somebody asks me questions, and expect me to answer honestly. I hate to be honest especially if my answer is gonna hurt a person. I hate to be honest because if it’s something private, like a confession from my heart, I hate how it makes me blush like mad.
“Why did you really care of me?”
And this question, I hate it. It will lead to a confession.
“I care for all of the girls. Why?”
“No, there’s something different. I’ve been watching you lately. I-I even heard you cried the night when I and Taec-“
She stopped and cleared her throat.
“-and him got back together. Did I hurt you?”
Hardly breathing, hardly thinking, and hardly… answering. I needed oxygen. Where the hell is it when I so freaking needed it?! Whether I like it or not, sooner or later, she’ll find out. Maybe this is the time.
“I-I’m j-just-… there’s like something-… -my heart like stopped beating when I saw you and him together. Something like… someone just stabbed you hard and it goes dead as time goes by...” I gulped.
Deciding whether to say it or not.
“Ti-Tiff, I think… ithinkiloveyou.” I blurted out.
It’s not even clear but Tiffany slowly looked at me and straightened herself. I lowered my head as low as I can.
“Can- can you… say it again?”
“N-Never-Never mind. Forget it.” Awkward laughter escaped my mouth and it wasn’t helping. Tiffany still had her eyes on me. I sighed.
“Don’t make me say it again? Please?”
I can felt a hard look on my face as I - again - lowered my head and frown.
“Why?” her voice is soft and it made me look at her for a good 3 seconds.
“I’m… I’m afraid.”
“Afraid of what?”
“…Rejection.”
I looked away and closed my eyes, stood up and walked towards the kitchen. I needed something to freshen up my burning face and brain. I heard footsteps behind me, following me as I shifted my gaze to the window.
“But what if… there’s no rejection?”
My eyes widened. I turned around and found Tiffany looking at me, blushing, playing with her fingernails and biting her lower lip. She lowered her head as she continued her words.
“Will you… repeat it again?”
A huge smile -not caring if it looked creepy- was plastered on my face as I lifted her chin and lovingly got lost in her eyes. She smiled shyly as I held on to her hands.
“I love you.”
TBC
this is kinda long chap. hope you like it. and leave comment won't hurt kk.
CHAPTER 3
“It’s like 5 in the morning, Sica.”
I looked down at Sooyoung who still buried her face on the pillow with eyes close tightly. I smile at her as I wore my coat on my fragile body.
“I know. Just sleep, don’t worry about me. I’ll be okay.”
With that, I closed the door silently, not wanting the other girls to wake up because of the sound. I tip-toed to the front door and pushed it gently before closing it again. The silence of the hallway calmed me.
A small sad smile crept on my face but did not reach my swollen eyes. I sighed deeply before pressing the button for the elevator and waited until it came. I took a step inside, rode until it reached the lobby. I said farewell to the security on my exit and walked away to the empty cold street.
I’m doing this in purpose. I just can’t handle it. I need… time. Alone.
***
“Where have you been?”
Taeyeon crossed her arms as I took off my shoes. She looked so tired.
“Sica? Did you hear me?”
I gave her a simple smile and placed my right hand on her shoulder.
“No need to worry, Taengoo. I’m okay. I just needed some time to think about everything.”
She sighed and turned around, following me towards the kitchen. Among us all, Taeyeon is the most hard-working. Despite her own problems, Taeyeon still help the other girls with their problems.
And now, it's my problem that's made her like this. She was thinking about this so much.
“How can you tell me not to worry when you disappear in the middle of the night and come back early morning? Not to mention I hear you crying at night too.” She whispered sharply behind me. I froze.
“Jessica, I know this is hard, but at least let me help you?”
I turn around to face the leader and once again forced myself not to look so broken inside and out. So I smiled at her.
“You've helped me so much, Taeng. Let me… do this by myself this time. Can you trust me on this?” Taeyeon slowly nodded and sigh. “I’ll tell you if I need help.”
Right before Taeyeon could respond my words; Tiffany stepped out of her room and looked at me almost instantly with an apologetic face. A sigh escaped my mouth when I saw her. Not wanting to be a mood booster, I walked towards Yuri and Yoona’s room to wake the two twins -and to avoid her.
***
I still keep my eyes on her when we’re performing or just simply doing anything together in public. Fans cheer out loud when her and I holdhands, fix one another’s hair, hug, or just stare at each other with love. (In my case, I am)
So, this time, when I saw him staring at me with that creepy look, my hand automatically turned into a fist. Why in the world was he always around Tiffany? I mean, he wasn’t doing anything here. There’s no one from his group here either, so why he is here? To keep his eyes on Tiffany or me? It’s for sure me, because when I looked at him after performing, he looked like he really wanted tohurt me.
“I thought I warned you already withthe ‘stay-away-from-my-girl’ thing.” He whispers to me sharply as I walked alone in the hallway towards the waiting room. I avoided him, not thinking much of the situation.
“You don’t care about your own good, do you?”
I scoffed and rolled my eyes. “You don’t love her.”
He stopped and gripped my wrist tightly;I hissed at the pain. I tried to jerk his hand away but his grip was just too strong for a girl like me. I looked him in the eyes.
“You’re just afraid that she’s gonna leave you along with your popularity.” I scoffed again. “I know what you’re doing, Taec. You made her crazy in love with you just for that. She’s folly for falling for your crap.”
He gritted her teeth.I yelped in pain as he jerked my hand harshly towards the wall. I held my wrist as I bit my lower lip. He grabbed my collar and slammed me onto the wall hard. I held my breath. Waiting him to talk.
“Watch your words, Jessica Jung. I’m not kidding around.” He grinned evilly.
“Looks like you don’t wanna stay away from her. It’s all up to you. We’ll see.”
He patted my shoulder, fixed my collar and walked away. I watched him until he disappear from sight, then leaned against the wall behind me. I held my pained wrist as red marks appeared visible. I closed my eyes.Before tears could fall down my face, I heard footsteps nearby. I looked at my left and saw Sunny walking towards me with Tiffany following behind her. Sunny sped up as she saw the marks on my wrist. She looked at me, and held it. I hissed in pain.
“What’s wrong?” she asked me.
“I… I was…”
“He did this to you, right?”
I, shocked and confused, looked at her and Tiffany repeatedly.
“Wh-what are you talking about?”
Sunny scoffed and turn around to glance at Tiffany for a good one second, then back at me.
“I know what he did.” Sunny sighed. “I saw it.”
Tiffany lowered her head. I knew she knows something. They both knew what Taecyeon did to me earlier. I wondered if they heard he said.
“What did he say?”
If there was ever a time more perfect to sigh in relief, this was it. So yeah, I sighed. It wouldn’t have been very good if they’d heard what they said.
“Nothing.”
Tiffany took a steptowards me and looked at Sunny. The shorter girl understood and nodded in reply.Then she left me and Tiffany alone. Tiffany waited until Sunny disappeared from the turn and looked me in the eyes. She reached for my injured wrist and carefully held it. She caressed it with her thumb slowly. Tiffany exhale deeply before look at me in the eye and lowered her head again. She bit her lower lip as tears fell from her eyes.
“I’m sorry.” She said, no louder than a whisper.
“It’s not your fault, Tiff.” I lifted her chin and smile at her as I wipe away the tears with my other hand.
“Still-” She held my hands on her face. “I hurt you. I should… I should listen to you and not-“
“Wait.” I cut her off. Did she just say that she was hurting me? Did she know that…?
Oh crap! “Did you… break up with him?” I bit my lip.
Tiffany sighed and let go of my hands as she nodded weakly. “I was- I was wrong. He‘s a jerk.”
If it wasn’t for the atmosphere, and Tiffany crying in front of me, I would’ve jumped and scream in sheer happiness. This was what I wanted; this is what I’m waiting for sooooo long for. For Tiffany to realize that Taecyeon is really a jerk. But yeah, I just stood there, keeping my cool when my heart was racing so damn fast.
“You realize it now.” I smile and lift her chin again, rested my arms around her neck.
“I know. I’m- I’m sorry. I was… I was just…”
Tiffany started to sob again and buried her face in my neck as she held on to me. She was so broken. I’m not gonna asked her now. It’ll make her sad even more. Later, when she calms down.I wouldn’t miss a thing. I’ll be on her side every single time.
***
I felt something vibrating under my back. Once, twice, trice. I ignored it. But seemed like it wouldn’t stop any time soon unless I picked it up. So I reach for my phone behind my back and without opening my eyes, picked up the call lazily.
“Yeah?” I said,my face buriedin the pillow. No answer. “Hello?” I said again.
I groaned. This is annoying. It’s like 4 in the morning and I slept like, 45 minutes! Who in the world would call at this time? I opened my eyes a lil’ bit and looked the phone screen. Unknown number. Which meant that-
“Beware.” It was a guy’s voice. Deep. The voice chuckled.
“W-who is this?” I sat up from my position. Now, fully awake.
“You don’t recognize me, Jessica?” he chuckled again. “How funny, we had just met this afternoon.”
Realization hit me. It’s him. It’s Taecyeon. My hands turned into a fist as I gripped hard on the bed sheet.
“What do you want, Taec?”
I stepped out of the the room and out of the dorm. I Walked by myself out of building with only a loose pink t-shirt and short shorts. I shuddered at the cool breeze as I walked through the park in front of the building.
“Nothing.” He stayed silent for a while as I crossed the street.
“You look hot with that loose pink t-shirt and short shorts.”
I froze where I stood, scanning my surroundings. I gulped hard. This jerk is really scaring me.
“H-how did you know? Where are you?”
“Honey thighs.” He said, and then let out a laugh.
I held my breath as I sensed somebody behind me. I gulped and turn around, finding Taecyeon with his stupid grin and his phone on his grip. He looked at me from head to toe before he licked his lips and tilted his head to one side. It felt like he was undressing me with his eyes. So I move backwards.
“What do you want?”
“Are you afraid, Sica baby?” He stepped forward and I moved back with every step he took.
“I won’t bite. You’re making me want to. I told you to stay away from Tiffany. Didn’t you get it the first time?”
“She is not your girlfriend.”
“No, I don’t date fools.”
That was too much. I stopped and walked towards him. I held him by the collar and hissed sharply.
“Watch your words, Mr. *******.”
“You smell so good, Sica.”
He took a whiff beside my cheek and immediately, I pushed him away from me. He laughed. How much more of a jerk can this guy get? There’s no one in this world I hate more than him.
“I wasn’t kidding with my threat days ago. You should be careful from now on.”
“Yea I know that. I can smell something bad from you. Do I look like I care?” He scoffed at my words.
“I’m not afraid of you, Taec.”
“Oh my dear, you shouldn’t play with me. But it looks like you’re challenging me. You’ll be suffering for the rest of your life, Jung Sooyeon. And I mean it.”
With that, he turned around and waved his hand as he walked towards the dark alley and disappeared in the darkness. I felt weak in my knees. I’m afraid. I know what kind of guy he is and I’m afraid that something dirty is gonna happen to me. Sighing in frustration, I walked towards the building and pressed the elevator button. I waited until the sound of the elevator interrupted my train of thought before stepping in and the out again as I reached my floor.
I opened the door and shut it closed silently. I tip-toed inside the dorm and lay on the couch hopelessly. If I do this, if I risk my life for Tiffany, would she do the same if she was in my shoes? Is this worth it? This is my love that I’m fighting for. I hope the best for it. I hope Tiffany would open her eyes and notice that I’ve loved her for so long. Hoping like this won’t hurt me physically right?
***
“Yah, Sica-yah! There’s a package for you.”
I rolled off the couch and accidently fell on top of Yoona who lay with open arms on the floor. She yelped in shock then laughed her alligator laugh before slapping my arms playfully. I chuckled and hide my blushing face with my hands and got a hard slap on the head from Yuri which make me stand up and hide behind Sunny (mental note: don’t ever hide behind a shorter girl from a taller girl because it wouldn’t help at all).
“Yuri, stop slapping her head. She is slow already.”
I pout at Sunny’s remark while Yuri was laughing hard with the rest of the girls. I looked at Tiffany and she covered her mouth to stop herself from laughing when I stuck my tongue out at her. Taeyeon tapped my head and gave me the package. I opened the threshold to my room and threw it onto my bed. It must be another gift from fans so I decided to open it later.
A free day for me! I’ve been waiting for one for like forever and now, finally, I can spend my whole day sleeping and doing nothing. I slumped my body on the couch with a cup of tea and some biscuits. Inhaling the smell of freedom for today it made me feel so good. Tiffany watched me from across the room as she giggled cutely before taking a seat beside me. I look at her in the eye as I lift up the tea cup innocently. She pinched my cheek.
“Looks like it’s just the two of us.”
I nodded as I waved my hand to the rest of the girls -Tiffany does the same thing. She rests her head on my shoulder and took one of the biscuit from my hand. I smile, widely as my heart raced unsteadily.
“Just the two of us.” I repeated her words. “Want something to drink?”
She shook her head. “No thanks, I’m not thirsty.” Tiffany exhaled as she stretched her body before wrapping her hands around my waist, and buried her face in my neck. My heart raced uncontrollably and I was having trouble breathing. I gulped hard, extremely nervous at the contact.
“Jessi?”
“Y-yeah?”
“I wanna ask you something. Answer me honestly, will you?”
I nodded.
Things you should know; I dislike it when somebody asks me questions, and expect me to answer honestly. I hate to be honest especially if my answer is gonna hurt a person. I hate to be honest because if it’s something private, like a confession from my heart, I hate how it makes me blush like mad.
“Why did you really care of me?”
And this question, I hate it. It will lead to a confession.
“I care for all of the girls. Why?”
“No, there’s something different. I’ve been watching you lately. I-I even heard you cried the night when I and Taec-“
She stopped and cleared her throat.
“-and him got back together. Did I hurt you?”
Hardly breathing, hardly thinking, and hardly… answering. I needed oxygen. Where the hell is it when I so freaking needed it?! Whether I like it or not, sooner or later, she’ll find out. Maybe this is the time.
“I-I’m j-just-… there’s like something-… -my heart like stopped beating when I saw you and him together. Something like… someone just stabbed you hard and it goes dead as time goes by...” I gulped.
Deciding whether to say it or not.
“Ti-Tiff, I think… ithinkiloveyou.” I blurted out.
It’s not even clear but Tiffany slowly looked at me and straightened herself. I lowered my head as low as I can.
“Can- can you… say it again?”
“N-Never-Never mind. Forget it.” Awkward laughter escaped my mouth and it wasn’t helping. Tiffany still had her eyes on me. I sighed.
“Don’t make me say it again? Please?”
I can felt a hard look on my face as I - again - lowered my head and frown.
“Why?” her voice is soft and it made me look at her for a good 3 seconds.
“I’m… I’m afraid.”
“Afraid of what?”
“…Rejection.”
I looked away and closed my eyes, stood up and walked towards the kitchen. I needed something to freshen up my burning face and brain. I heard footsteps behind me, following me as I shifted my gaze to the window.
“But what if… there’s no rejection?”
My eyes widened. I turned around and found Tiffany looking at me, blushing, playing with her fingernails and biting her lower lip. She lowered her head as she continued her words.
“Will you… repeat it again?”
A huge smile -not caring if it looked creepy- was plastered on my face as I lifted her chin and lovingly got lost in her eyes. She smiled shyly as I held on to her hands.
“I love you.”
TBC