say goodbye to this one folks- it's getting baleted. questions/comments/concerns should be sent other ways

I think that part of my problem and being stuck down here at the bottom is that I have a lot of negative energy. A lot of that negative energy is coming from inside me, but a lot of it is also coming from outside forces (a big one being Daniel). This negativity is choking my ability to begin to climb out (which isnt an overnight process, but even ( Read more... )

I wish, just for one day, that both sides in the raging underground war would call a truce and stop all the bullshit. I am equally as guilty as my "opponents" in gossiping, spreading shit around, and laughing at the misery of others.

by the way- infection caused by sexual intercourse IS a nice way for karma to kick pyschopant's butt ( Read more... )

people have consistently commented on how well I have been handling myself in this aftermath of last semsester. I always reply its because I have no other choice but to carry on and go with it because honestly, I can't just lay down and die a semester before I graduate college ( Read more... )

i realize more and more everyday that I've lost more than I thought I ever would or did. and let me tell you, it sucks.

I've figured out why it took me FOREVER to get over Adam. It was because I never completely cut him from my life. There was always IM or livejournal to keep me connected to him (in fact we may still be myspace friends?). I cut Dan out, and while I find occaisionally the want to see whats up I, for the most part, feel more at ease because I don't ( Read more... )

so the much dreaded first sighting did not occur today. it was good and bad. Good in the sense that my first time back on campus has been awesome- but bad in the sense that I still am dreading seeing him and it will happen that we see eachother ( Read more... )

oh yeah, the lack of emotion has turned into a fear in the pit of my stomach. damn me for looking on facebook ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how I'm feeling these days. I know that I am going back to school on sunday, and the lack of any emotion towards it is somewhat disturbing. I just hope that once I'm there it will be okay- I just have a feeling though that it won't ( Read more... )

and now ladies and gentleman, a disappearing act

*poof*