my entire day has been on fast forward and then at about 8 o clock someone hit the slow motion button and now its 1030 and all i wanna do is go to bed.

i am not a clean person. and by that i dont mean hey ive got lots of stds and things of that nature but more like i prefer to throw things in piles because i dont want to waste time putting things away. but there are some times when i just can't take it anymore. the piles build up and i can't stand the crumbs in my bed and on the floor and the ( Read more... )

i'm still alive.
but i'm lost.
come find me.

wow what an anticlimactic ending to my summer. it's been amazing. better than i ever imagined. and i'm trying not to be pissed or disappointed but this isn't how i wanted it to end. and now i'm sad but im trying to tell myself that it really doesn't matter how we spend our last night cuz the point is we're leaving anyway. deep breath......... ( Read more... )

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot...who calls you back when you hang up on him...who will lie under the stars & listen to your heartbeat...or will stay awake just to watch you sleep ( Read more... )

how do you know when someone is wise and all-knowing and when they're just full of shit? and how do you know when to take advice and when to completely blow it off? i've had a 7 hour road trip to think but all that i've realized is that i'm more confused than i was before. i don't want to move forward from here but i know that i can't go back and ( Read more... )

i am sick of lying to my parents. it stresses me out and makes me paranoid and i feel so restricted. so for that reason i can't wait to get back to school. i just wanna be free to do what i want when i want and i dont want to have to lie about it. i can just imagine them driving by leah's house on saturday to see if there really is a party ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning and realized how nauseous the thought of going back makes me. so i'm not.

what do you want me to say? im speechless really. it was amazing and perfect and i wouldn't have changed a thing. and those words don't even begin to describe it. but now it's back to reality...which is incredibly depressing. we did what we wanted when we wanted and although it was so far from the real world i dont think ive ever felt more alive ( Read more... )

something's off today. you ever have this image of yourself one day and then the next day that image is totally different? for maybe no apparent reason at all? or that could just be me. maybe i'm schizoprhenic. no, but really, i've heard that saying about how you aren't who you think you are, but you are who you think other people think you are ( Read more... )