Still breathing

[songindarkness]

So I've hardly posted in nearly a year.  Mostly because I am terrified that I will be seen as attention seeking or emotionally manipulative or wallowing in self-pity (all of which I have been accused of before, and who knows, maybe it's true) so I feel like if I have nothing good to say, I should really stop saying anything at all.  And then all

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[theidolhands]

All I can say for now is that I really understand and that ray of light is your soul and/or the universe telling you not to give up.

[songindarkness]

Thank you. :) I wish I could say something that really expresses how much I appreciate your comment, but thank you, truly.

[songindarkness]

Thank you!

[riverchild]

HUGGGGS.

Two things about the uncertain memory thing: a) not sure if this is true for you, but I mostly find that I can remember perfectly fine unless I panic about forgetting, so just sort of assuming that I'll remember means I will; and sort of related to that, b) whatever important things happened over that year--they're part of you now. If they mattered, they will inform who you become; if they didn't, you don't need to remember them anyway

[songindarkness]

Thanks so much! *HUGS BACK

[tellezara]

*hugs* I know we don't see much of each other these days and I am totally le suck as a friend to everybody right now cos of PhDness, but I am still here and missing you! It's great to see you posting again even if you're not feeling so great. I'm glad Dan is there for you (you probably feel like you don't deserve him but you do) and for the things he can't help with or that you think are too silly to bother him with, you can just post here :) If it's any consolation, I might look like I'm being successful when I next get around to updating LJ but in reality I'm horribly stressed and only holding everything together by a thread that feels liable to snap any time ><; I know I'll get through it but it still sucks ass. And you'll get through this too - there's always the fear that things will never get better but I know you've come through bad times like this before and made little steps of progress at the other end, because you have always fought even through the times you thought you should give up. Keep surviving, I believe in you! :D

[songindarkness]

Thank you! Don't worry, I feel like I am totally suck as a friend too. But I do think of you and miss you. I wouldn't take it as a consolation that you are horribly stressed - I just hope you feel better and let yourself relax sometime! I know you'll get through it and I hope I will too. Thanks for believing in me. :)

[eatime]

Believe in Dan who believes in you, you can do it X

[tayles]

Beautifully put. Listen to Viv, for she is wise.

[songindarkness]

Thanks hon, I'll try. :)