I'm all alone, but not. I have my baby, and she is all that I need right now. Brian and I sat down on Friday after our fifty-billionth fight and talked about going our own way. Initially it was my decision because he didn't want me to leave, but I had to. If I am ever going to learn how to grow up and make decisions that better myself and my ( Read more... )

I slowly close my eyes as I slip into oblivion ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I felt like this. I need to write my thoughts, without people being able to spy upon them... again ( Read more... )

Well, since the last time I wrote a few things have happend. I wasn't pregnant... yet. Brian proposed after the countdown on New Year's Eve/Morning. Shortly after, I found out that I was indeed pregnant, but I am only 9 weeks and about 3 days into it. I am due around October 27th, 2007 of course. Things are going rather well... most of the ( Read more... )

So, A little over a month and a half ago, I met this guy on MySpace. We talked and talked and talked, then decided to meet. His name is Brian. He is 25 years old. He has a 5 year old son named Gabriel. He has an ex-wife from hell, named Amanda. He is my everything. We are moving in together next week. This will be the first time that I have ( Read more... )

I've been in Nashville for a couple of weeks already and I keep getting the run around from my company as to when or if I have the job... go figure. I have had three interviews. Two with the customer service office, which seems more of a snooty atmosphere, and one with this other, more laid back office. I would really rather get the one at the ( Read more... )

So much has happend since last I posted. Richard and I ended our engagement. We both were making decisions that, although we were ready to make them, we weren't ready to make them with each other. We are still VERY good friends and hang out on a somewhat regular basis, not including at work ( Read more... )

I feel as if I am back to my old ways... A couple of weeks into our engagement, and I feel as if I am not supposed to be in it. I'm sad, I'm lonely, and I couldn't feel less wanted by my friends. Danielle and Britney have taken over the apartment. I realized last night that with all of pictures that are up in our apartment, not one of them has ( Read more... )

So, it's been 86 days since I met Sean. I love him, I often tell him that I want to marry him, and I definately would bare his children. I hate myself. Last night, I looked at him and all I could see was someone who talks the talk, but is too lazy to walk the walk. I look at him and see the person who has been saying for the past month that he ( Read more... )

A New Year has begun, and already, I feel like it isn't going to be the best. I started the new year off by attending the funeral of a very good friend of mine. Russ Cowart. Russ had stomach cancer and aparently didn't make it as far as he would have liked... His fiance, Carrie, is now left without the love of her life. It was a tear fest ( Read more... )