22
here i am on the eve of my 22nd birthday, and i reflect on the events that have transpired over the past year. just like every other year, it has had it's ups and downs, but reflectively, it was a good year.
i have made friends, and lost friends. i have been hurt, and loved, and hated, and healed, and supported, and have supported.
i have realized that i have fallen, completely, totally and irrevocably, in love with a boy, who i hope to spend the rest of my life with.
i have realized that life is short, and i cannot dwell too long on past mistakes
i have lost people close to me, for whatever reason, be it a fight, distance, or vicious murder.
i have received devastating news that has shattered things i have always believed.
i have learned to love uncondionally
i realized, 5 years later, that being without a mother remains the most painful thing i have had to live with on a daily basis.
i have discovered new passions
i have had support in my endeavors regarding my passions
i have lost family, and will soon gain family
i need to learn to love myself, despite my appearance, personality, or feelings
i have learned acceptance
who knows, maybe this coming year will be different. but after 21 years on this earth, i realized that i have a lot left to learn, and a lot left to accomplish.