out of place.

and i miss you so bad. and i know i'm missing out on you so bad too.

i hope i haven't missed too much.

i'd like to be everyone's eyes.
and maybe then they could see just how beautiful they really are.

called you up to see if maybe we could hang
told you i was nervous and feeling lonely
i bit my lip
and you were like fucking hell yeah
then we smiled
thought about how beautiful the night would be
i thought maybe we could drive around talking 'bout your town
or stay at home

i could win over acting cool
like real fucking romance.

i'm trying my best to keep from
crying or throwing up at work.
i feel like both.
and i'll probably end up doing both.
the last song on your cd is playing.
what comes is better than what came before.and if things go the way i think they're going to ( Read more... )

i remember as a boy i would rack my brain thinking about freeways. cars and cars and cars. of course, i wasn't more than five or six, but it was like contemplating the vastness of space. that young, i imagined it as some great big race everyone was a part of to some place far beyond my experience. i would lay in bed and think about who was winning ( Read more... )

hey! hey hey hey! come pollonate me, hey!

i got in a fight with a bee.

yeah, my neck's a little sore... but who's the one that's still alive??!

last night my father went to a wake. it was a friend of his. i saw him later that night and he gave me a hug and kiss and said "i've been meaning to do that for a while ( Read more... )

i was at staples this morning & as i was about to pay, the man behind me asked, "are you an artist? because you look like one ( Read more... )

i drive by a mortuary almost every day. and i hold my breath down that street each time until i can see that the parking lot's empty. then i breathe the sigh of relief that i had inhaled back at beverly blvd. and i don't really know why i'm so afraid to find a funeral in progess, when in fact i have no fear of my own death. i fear pain & a painful ( Read more... )

i looked in the mirror & i have a beard. & it made me think of when i had such big plans, such big dreams. when i wanted to dig to the other side of the world with only a shovel & my backyard. & plant such great big trees that reached farther up than i could see. i've got certificates & awards & trophies all locked up in my closet. you'll never see ( Read more... )