Thanks Jackie. You always know how to make me feel good.
Like I said, I am very good at hiding my craziness. Like remember that time I hugged Brendo for hours and cried in his lap? That was me being drunk and unable to hide it, lol. But yeah, I don't think I have a mental illness. More like I need friends around me and to not be stressed so I don't go insane.
Thanks for the advice sistergirl. If I could afford it I'd go buy that stuff right now. Anything to help.
It's just weird because my classes aren't overly hard this semester...I just really need a change. You know how I like to move all the time? It's kinda like that. I have to change up my life and I haven't in four years. That's a long time for me.
Also, I really want a puppy. I won't get one cause I can't afford it but I feel like it would make me so happy. lol.
omg....i will so totally get you a puppy for your graduation present!!! What puppy?? One from the pound!?! OMG I have the best idea...tell me what type of puppy you want (small dog, long hair, scruffy???). SWEET! I'll get you either a puppy from the pound with tons of accessories to go with it (food and clothes and doggy bed) or a purebred something...cause they cost a lot more. I'm really serious and so excited right now. I got a puppy the summer after I graduated cause I had the time (we'll just have to wait til after our backpacking trip).
Oh Kate! I love you so much. I don't like to talk to my friends and family about my problems especially if they are boy related. A lot of things I stress about end up being so small and meaningless I would end up feeling stupid for calling you about it in the first place. That's why I feel like seeing a counselor will definitely help in that way. And it's true, I definitely feel like I might be pushing him away. He said something to me along the lines of "I feel like you're not the same happy Kate I first fell in love with". Which is kind of terrible and makes me feel like crap. I really really need to make some changes to how I react to him. I know he loves me but for some reason if I'm not constantly reminded I start to doubt it. It's crazy and I need to stop. I will definitely try the whole not saying anything mean thing. I love you Kate.
Wow, thanks PJ. That really does help. I thought it might be my birth control but wasn't sure. I guess I could try it out. My biggest problem is finding that person to talk to face to face a lot. The only person I can honestly think of who would be willing to be there for me is my ex boyfriend and that could cause problems in other areas of my life. We'll see. Thanks!
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Like I said, I am very good at hiding my craziness. Like remember that time I hugged Brendo for hours and cried in his lap? That was me being drunk and unable to hide it, lol. But yeah, I don't think I have a mental illness. More like I need friends around me and to not be stressed so I don't go insane.
p.s. no, YOU RULE!
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(i love you katie burke)
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It's just weird because my classes aren't overly hard this semester...I just really need a change. You know how I like to move all the time? It's kinda like that. I have to change up my life and I haven't in four years. That's a long time for me.
Also, I really want a puppy. I won't get one cause I can't afford it but I feel like it would make me so happy. lol.
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that's the problem though, i have no idea what kind i want.
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And it's true, I definitely feel like I might be pushing him away. He said something to me along the lines of "I feel like you're not the same happy Kate I first fell in love with". Which is kind of terrible and makes me feel like crap. I really really need to make some changes to how I react to him. I know he loves me but for some reason if I'm not constantly reminded I start to doubt it. It's crazy and I need to stop. I will definitely try the whole not saying anything mean thing. I love you Kate.
:-) see you soon!
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I thought it might be my birth control but wasn't sure. I guess I could try it out.
My biggest problem is finding that person to talk to face to face a lot. The only person I can honestly think of who would be willing to be there for me is my ex boyfriend and that could cause problems in other areas of my life. We'll see.
Thanks!
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