Does that mean you are doing better? I shall endeavour to be cautiously hopeful but also prepared with copious amounts of alcohol in the wings, just in case it is farce.
((Well, all right... not copious... more like a small quantity of bloody good Port))
Re: Hmm...sordid_humorsFebruary 10 2014, 03:52:25 UTC
Thank you so much.
I'm not better, actually; I came kinda close to dying during surgery, and am still a ways off from being well. Yet I've realized that focusing on all the horrible and negative things in my life has never done me any good, and I've rededicated myself to seeing the good, even when its really fucking hard. The last couple months have been a great challenge. I'm striving every day to meet it--some days I falter, others I come startlingly close to success. Every day is a new day to try. And Conscience has been a rewarding effort, however mundane it may feel at times. No victory is taken lightly these days; joy is too hard to come by.
I've gotten another 5k since this post. I'd really like to have everything finished and posted by late March. It feels ambitious, but there's a good chance I can actually do it. One word, one idea at a time.
And dear sweetling GOD do I love port! I killed a bottle of '74 Malmsey last Christmas and it was the night of my fucking life.
I am sorry to hear you have not recovered. As the old cliche says "One day at a time".
I'm not much for cliches, but there you are.
Startlingly close to success sounds like it has some promise. Hopefully there will be more of those days in your future. I am glad you are taking up the challenge of a more positive outlook. It is bloody difficult, and the Fates will occasionally laugh in your face, but in all truth life is just too short to be miserable.
Gods willing you'll pull yourself up, tell the world to spin on it and walk away with your head held high.
The offer for beta still stands, if needed. And I'll keep the Port in reserve.
!!! Had a moment of panic when this tried to post anonymously, and I couldn't remember my password....
I am SO sorry to hear things almost didn't go well, and that you are still so sick! I have moved, and am now in internet hell, aka Hughesnet satellite internet, so not always on my computer, but still usually available mobile y (is that a word?? it should be). You are so close!!! Good for you on that. Not sure of my diety of choice, lol, He doesn't seem to listen to me so much these days, but my thoughts are definitely with you, and my offer of assistance if you need it. I'll brave the ssllloowwww internet services if you should require it. ^_- Good luck with finishing, and I do hope you get better! <3
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((Well, all right... not copious... more like a small quantity of bloody good Port))
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I'm not better, actually; I came kinda close to dying during surgery, and am still a ways off from being well. Yet I've realized that focusing on all the horrible and negative things in my life has never done me any good, and I've rededicated myself to seeing the good, even when its really fucking hard. The last couple months have been a great challenge. I'm striving every day to meet it--some days I falter, others I come startlingly close to success. Every day is a new day to try. And Conscience has been a rewarding effort, however mundane it may feel at times. No victory is taken lightly these days; joy is too hard to come by.
I've gotten another 5k since this post. I'd really like to have everything finished and posted by late March. It feels ambitious, but there's a good chance I can actually do it. One word, one idea at a time.
And dear sweetling GOD do I love port! I killed a bottle of '74 Malmsey last Christmas and it was the night of my fucking life.
-Trey
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I'm not much for cliches, but there you are.
Startlingly close to success sounds like it has some promise. Hopefully there will be more of those days in your future. I am glad you are taking up the challenge of a more positive outlook. It is bloody difficult, and the Fates will occasionally laugh in your face, but in all truth life is just too short to be miserable.
Gods willing you'll pull yourself up, tell the world to spin on it and walk away with your head held high.
The offer for beta still stands, if needed. And I'll keep the Port in reserve.
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I am SO sorry to hear things almost didn't go well, and that you are still so sick! I have moved, and am now in internet hell, aka Hughesnet satellite internet, so not always on my computer, but still usually available mobile y (is that a word?? it should be). You are so close!!! Good for you on that. Not sure of my diety of choice, lol, He doesn't seem to listen to me so much these days, but my thoughts are definitely with you, and my offer of assistance if you need it. I'll brave the ssllloowwww internet services if you should require it. ^_- Good luck with finishing, and I do hope you get better! <3
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Hope you'll feel better soon!
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