[xxxholic] Decay

[sordidlilthing]

Title: Decay
Author: Mushroom
Pairing: Doumeki/Watanuki
Rating: G
Summary: “Forgetting, not remembering, is the inevitable outcome of all experience.” - Geoffrey Sonnabend, Obliscence: Theories of Forgetting and the Problem of Matter
A/N: A what-if fic. Much thanks to luvien for lending me the book!

Comments

[anonymous]

It's.. i.. I have no words
it just so.. hurts
and..
*pouts*

[star_flare]

The first part had me hooked. And! Himawari-chan (Sorry, you know how much I'm a sucker for seeing her written) and the part about her being the braver one~<3 The end feels a bit lacking? Maybe it's just me, since you did a good job in dealing a blow with Watanuki's reaction (or lack of), and the "out of reach" thing has a double-meaning and stuff.

Otherwise, sad, especially with Doumeki trying to look after him and Himawari going all, "You don't have to anymore." The way I'd always imagined it - if this scenario were going to happen - was that Doumeki wouldn't remember either, but he'd feel something was missing, so yeah. It was nice (in a sad, sad, DOUMEKI LET ME HUG YOU way) to see him this way. Although I have to ask (YOU KNOW HOW DENSE I AM), Himawari also paid for this reality, right?

Lastly:
And Doumeki believed that he had paid all that he could, that everything was taken away from him.
OMG This is so, so spot-on. The price, I mean. I can totally see Yuuko doing it.

[sordidlilthing]

Thanks so much, sweetheart! And yes, I had to add Himawari, I just love her to bits.

I added a few more lines to the last part, to explain things a bit further.

I leave it all up to the reader (you), dearest! Although I have to admit this WILL NEVER HAPPEN in my fangirly canon.

[vicious_lullaby]

Oh god. Oh, god.

This. This. I do not even have words for how amazing this is, but it's gorgeous and it hurts and I do believe I am in awe.

Going straight to my memories. Damn.

[sordidlilthing]

Thank you very much. I'm extremely relieved that this worked for you! ♥

[wicked_liz]

"It made perfect sense."

No, it doesn't. ;_;

Really nice, Doumeki's struggle is like profound, but he doesn't really show it, people don't notice until it's too much. You really showed him aching.

I find it kinda scary though, cause it really is like Watanuki disappeared. All the things that made him, HIM, are gone now.

[sordidlilthing]

Thank you very much for the lovely comment!

I think Doumeki is too proud to actually show his suffering. That can be a good thing and a bad thing, though...

[knittedninja]

"Doumeki pocketed the letter and looked at the stranger he loved..."

Oh, that's just so sad.

Wonderfully written, but it makes me all ;_;

[sordidlilthing]

Thank you very much! And yet I'm sorry that I made you ;___;

[knittedninja]

It's okay, I like the abuse. ^_^