A horcrux application
01. Name: Katelin Brigitte-Michelle van Heffen
02. How did you find out about Hogwarts Elite? I stumbled upon it, I think, two years ago but never dared to apply. I don't know why but all of a sudden I remembered the community and after so many years in fandom I saw it as a good time to apply for a sorting.
||MIRROR OF ERISED||
03. What do you wish to accomplish in life?
I want to have seen all the magic and wonders in the world. I have been traveling alone since I was 17 years old, but I'm far from there yet. There's so much I have yet to learn, to see, to wonder about. When I'm going to die, I want to look back at my life and know that there was nothing left for me to discover. This, and I want to become an editor by the LINDA, a magazine here in the Netherlands and at this moment, one of the most popular ones, but also the one that is hardest to get hired for. They're tough and will only take the best of the best. But it's my goal, and I know that if I want it, if I work hard enough for it, I'll get that job. At the moment I'm a student at the University of Applied Sciences of Communication here in Breda, and so far, I'm on track of achieving exactly what I want.
04. Describe exactly what you would see in the Mirror of Erised. (This is not the same question as #03.)
I don't think one is able to answer this question without being biased. I am not sure what my deepest, darkest wish is, nor what my subconsciously secretly wishes. However, I do know what I've been dreaming about for a while. Something I've been practising at the moment, every day, is meditation. I want to be able to Astral Project. It might sound like a small thing, but I've been yearning to be just like my Teacher. He can cleanse people from a distance, get rid of any bad energy, help people cross over and so much more. He's everything I want to be in life, mindfulness wise, and I envy him for it (in a good way). He's my true role-model.
05. What makes a person deserving of your respect?
If they have a goal, or at least a plan in life, and are working towards that. There is nothing I have deeper respect for than people who are fighting for something they really want, because let's face it, nothing is free in this world. It's all good if you're content with what you have, I will not like you any less for it, but if you're fighting for your wish, your goal, your destination, that's power, and I respect that. Simplified I'd say it's the strength in people I admire. It can be as simple as accepting that you need help, and going to find that help (say, a psychologist) because you simply can't face whatever it is you're facing alone anymore, or something big as going for your top job, and working yourself up from the bottom, putting every single bit of energy in it, just to get there. Or hell, just saving up to save a dog that's going to be put down if not saved from the shelter, even though you don't have any money left to spare. Or having two jobs to pay for your college, just because you want that degree. It can be anything, as long as you're fighting for it.
06. What is your biggest pet peeve?
You cannot read my mind, so please don't expect me to be able to read yours. If you want me to do something, or if you just want something from me, tell me. Don't leave me guessing or hell, leave me be to get annoyed later. I might know you very well (considering we're friends) but I am not in your head and I am not all knowing. If you want me to compliment you for that new dress, but I don't, ask me if I like it. If you want me to tell you you're beautiful because you're having an insecure moment, just ask me, tell me that you feel that way, communicate. Just, don't leave me in the dark expecting me to guess what's going on in that pretty little head of yours, because I can't.
07. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I wish I had the ability to speak so many more languages. Since I travel a lot I come across so many different cultures, and it's a shame I always have to fall back on English, but until now I simply wasn't able to find the time to study another one. I know my Dutch and I know my English (or well, most of it) but I really need to get my French, German and Spanish (to start with) up to date. Once I've accomplished that, I'd like to learn Japanese, Chinese and Taiwanese. At least. We'll see how far I'll get, or you know, how much time I will have to start learning those.
08. If you could do any one thing and suffer no consequences, what would it be?
I would want to go back in time. Seeing the old cultures, ancient cities, or just travel the world without restrictions. Just me, a horse and a backpack. Normally, even if it were possible, let's assume it is for a moment, it would create chaos, because time traveling or changing time is impossible. The consequences of a trip like that would be ginormous, trapping one in a never-ending paradox if very unlucky. I would love that freedom, because the world is so restricted at the moment. Documents for everything, applications and borders... I don't like it. I wouldn't want to stay in the past though, I have my life here and I like it, but just seeing it, staying in a different era for a while, that would be amazing.
09. What do you think are your top five positive characteristics?
01. Patience; I can wait for something for years if I need to. If I want it, if I'm working for it, it doesn't matter how long it takes, because I believe that if I work hard enough, I will get it, and if not, it is not meant to be.
02. I want to learn; I like learning, not only school wise but with everything. I'm interested in people too, for example, if I meet a new friend I want to know all about them. I'm really curious like that.
03. I'm a good friend; If I'm friends with you, I will always be there for you to help you in every way possible. I'm not the easiest with making true friends, you know, the ones who've seen your soul, but the ones that "got in" (mind the quotationmarks) are the ones that can ask me pretty much anything.
04. I'm honest; if you need my honest opinion, I'll tell you. I know I don't have to tiptoe around my friends and I like that. If I disagree with somebody I'll let them know, but if I'm terribly excited I'll do that, too.
05. I never get angry; I don't, I just don't. Don't ask me why I don't know. Sure, I can get annoyed, or irritated, but I've only been angry twice in my life. Once was when I found my younger cousin furiously kicking my dog and the second one was when somebody I thought I could trust with my life, betrayed me in a very ugly way. However, this is also a bad characteristic, hence me putting it last.
10. What do you think are your top five negative characteristics?
01. I don't like failing; I get almost, almost depressed when I fail, or when I'm unable to accomplish things. This'll result in me keeping my friends from contacting me, completely isolating me from the world until I feel confident enough that I can tackle the problem. I know I shouldn't but it's just something I do. I'll lose all my energy to do stuff, which often leads to a lot of slacking off, which will result to more failing. Yes, I'm an idiot.
02. Once I start procrastinating, I can't stop; When I let myself do something when I have to work for something, study or just be busy with things, I get in this "I'm so bored!" mood where I just can't get myself to work. It's annoying, and one of the few things that can get me back on track are either cleaning my room or going for a long run.
03. I cannot do anything productive if there's chaos around me. I need things to be clean. It's almost an OCD thing. If there's a mess, even artbunnies will disappear. Highly annoying.
04. I can be too honest. Some people don't appreciate it. To me this sounds weird, but it is true. I don't sugarcoat. I'm not a bitch on purpose but apparently some people take high offense in my being honest, even when I mean no harm or offense with whatever I am saying. I often think that that results in my bad trait not being "too honest" but being "naive". Some people just need a white lie every now and then, I think. Maybe?
05. I get vicious; I already said I never get angry, and that it only happened twice so far in my life. Both times I got really vicious. Whenever I get angry I have no control over myself anymore, I use my logic to a point where it all sounds reasonable what I'm doing to them. The time with my cousin, I dragged him outside by his hair and kicked him three times in the stomach, asking him how it felt if he was kicked like that. He is still scared of me and I still regret it. I started regretting it the moment I'd calmed down. Same story with the betrayal. I took my revenge, I got her to lose all her friends, her social life, her job, her safeplace. I completely destroyed her then current life. I was a horrible person to her, put myself down to her level and took revenge, and at the time it felt amazing. But it is wrong. I hope both of them will be able to forgive me for what I've done, some day.
||HOGWARTS, A HISTORY||
11. Who is your favorite character in the Harry Potter series?
Tom Marvolo Riddle. Not because he's all so great, but I could read at least another 7 books just about it. His whole history and reasoning just fascinated me. Like reading about how the mind of a serial-killer works. I would love to know more about how he got to be, how his childhood was from his point of view, just everything.
12. Who is your least favorite character in the Harry Potter series?
Umbridge. She's just so blind. I was definitely annoyed all the way through OotP. The way she just doesn't want to know annoyed me to no end. Plus, I dislike pink. Might have had something to do with it as well.
13. What was your favorite plot or character revelation in the Harry Potter series?
Albus Dumbledore's. I always hoped he wouldn't just be the grey old man, I wanted him to be so much more and after DH I just got so excited! Because he had a history, he had his own plans and plottings and just general great wizardness (yes, that's a word). He went from (in my eyes) a relatively boring character to something I'd definitely want to explore. My second (I have two favorites, I can never choose) is Regulus. I just have one question: How? How did he get to see Voldemort was evil? Terribly fascinating.
14. Describe the canon qualities for each house that accurately reflect you.
• Gryffindor: I wish I was braver, but alas, I am not, nor do I rush into things. I'm a fighter though, I hope that counts.
• Slytherin: I'm ambitious, that's for sure. I'm also patient, I know what I want and I go for it. I wouldn't say I'm cunning, since I'm a generally nice person most of the times and really direct and straightforward.
• Ravenclaw: I like to learn, I like riddles and just contemplating the universe. I also like working for something. However, I do not think I'd be smart enough for a Ravenclaw. It would be pretty brilliant though.
• Hufflepuff: Once you're my friend, I'm terribly loyal. I'm also a really nice person most of the times. I just like people.
15. Describe the canon qualities for each house that do not accurately reflect you.
• Gryffindor: I am absolutely not brave. I'd come closer to Peter (however, I would have never betrayed my friends like that) than I would come to Harry. I wouldn't be able to fight a Dark Lord like that. Sadly.
• Slytherin: Like I said, I am not cunning. I am way to honest, direct and straightforward for that. I don't use all means to get what I want, I use the ones I can get, yes, but never any dishonest ones.
• Ravenclaw: I have no wit, like, at all.
• Hufflepuff: I don't trust as easily, nor do I live by any justice standarts much. I'm not sure how to explain it. I do trust, but I want to get to know a person really well before I let them in on who I am. Justice, well, I don't know if justice is justice. Look at what happened when I was angry.
||HOGWARTS EXPRESS||
16. Age: 21 (February 25, 1991)
17. Optional: I'll definitely promote the community once I get in n__n
02. How did you find out about Hogwarts Elite? I stumbled upon it, I think, two years ago but never dared to apply. I don't know why but all of a sudden I remembered the community and after so many years in fandom I saw it as a good time to apply for a sorting.
||MIRROR OF ERISED||
03. What do you wish to accomplish in life?
I want to have seen all the magic and wonders in the world. I have been traveling alone since I was 17 years old, but I'm far from there yet. There's so much I have yet to learn, to see, to wonder about. When I'm going to die, I want to look back at my life and know that there was nothing left for me to discover. This, and I want to become an editor by the LINDA, a magazine here in the Netherlands and at this moment, one of the most popular ones, but also the one that is hardest to get hired for. They're tough and will only take the best of the best. But it's my goal, and I know that if I want it, if I work hard enough for it, I'll get that job. At the moment I'm a student at the University of Applied Sciences of Communication here in Breda, and so far, I'm on track of achieving exactly what I want.
04. Describe exactly what you would see in the Mirror of Erised. (This is not the same question as #03.)
I don't think one is able to answer this question without being biased. I am not sure what my deepest, darkest wish is, nor what my subconsciously secretly wishes. However, I do know what I've been dreaming about for a while. Something I've been practising at the moment, every day, is meditation. I want to be able to Astral Project. It might sound like a small thing, but I've been yearning to be just like my Teacher. He can cleanse people from a distance, get rid of any bad energy, help people cross over and so much more. He's everything I want to be in life, mindfulness wise, and I envy him for it (in a good way). He's my true role-model.
05. What makes a person deserving of your respect?
If they have a goal, or at least a plan in life, and are working towards that. There is nothing I have deeper respect for than people who are fighting for something they really want, because let's face it, nothing is free in this world. It's all good if you're content with what you have, I will not like you any less for it, but if you're fighting for your wish, your goal, your destination, that's power, and I respect that. Simplified I'd say it's the strength in people I admire. It can be as simple as accepting that you need help, and going to find that help (say, a psychologist) because you simply can't face whatever it is you're facing alone anymore, or something big as going for your top job, and working yourself up from the bottom, putting every single bit of energy in it, just to get there. Or hell, just saving up to save a dog that's going to be put down if not saved from the shelter, even though you don't have any money left to spare. Or having two jobs to pay for your college, just because you want that degree. It can be anything, as long as you're fighting for it.
06. What is your biggest pet peeve?
You cannot read my mind, so please don't expect me to be able to read yours. If you want me to do something, or if you just want something from me, tell me. Don't leave me guessing or hell, leave me be to get annoyed later. I might know you very well (considering we're friends) but I am not in your head and I am not all knowing. If you want me to compliment you for that new dress, but I don't, ask me if I like it. If you want me to tell you you're beautiful because you're having an insecure moment, just ask me, tell me that you feel that way, communicate. Just, don't leave me in the dark expecting me to guess what's going on in that pretty little head of yours, because I can't.
07. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I wish I had the ability to speak so many more languages. Since I travel a lot I come across so many different cultures, and it's a shame I always have to fall back on English, but until now I simply wasn't able to find the time to study another one. I know my Dutch and I know my English (or well, most of it) but I really need to get my French, German and Spanish (to start with) up to date. Once I've accomplished that, I'd like to learn Japanese, Chinese and Taiwanese. At least. We'll see how far I'll get, or you know, how much time I will have to start learning those.
08. If you could do any one thing and suffer no consequences, what would it be?
I would want to go back in time. Seeing the old cultures, ancient cities, or just travel the world without restrictions. Just me, a horse and a backpack. Normally, even if it were possible, let's assume it is for a moment, it would create chaos, because time traveling or changing time is impossible. The consequences of a trip like that would be ginormous, trapping one in a never-ending paradox if very unlucky. I would love that freedom, because the world is so restricted at the moment. Documents for everything, applications and borders... I don't like it. I wouldn't want to stay in the past though, I have my life here and I like it, but just seeing it, staying in a different era for a while, that would be amazing.
09. What do you think are your top five positive characteristics?
01. Patience; I can wait for something for years if I need to. If I want it, if I'm working for it, it doesn't matter how long it takes, because I believe that if I work hard enough, I will get it, and if not, it is not meant to be.
02. I want to learn; I like learning, not only school wise but with everything. I'm interested in people too, for example, if I meet a new friend I want to know all about them. I'm really curious like that.
03. I'm a good friend; If I'm friends with you, I will always be there for you to help you in every way possible. I'm not the easiest with making true friends, you know, the ones who've seen your soul, but the ones that "got in" (mind the quotationmarks) are the ones that can ask me pretty much anything.
04. I'm honest; if you need my honest opinion, I'll tell you. I know I don't have to tiptoe around my friends and I like that. If I disagree with somebody I'll let them know, but if I'm terribly excited I'll do that, too.
05. I never get angry; I don't, I just don't. Don't ask me why I don't know. Sure, I can get annoyed, or irritated, but I've only been angry twice in my life. Once was when I found my younger cousin furiously kicking my dog and the second one was when somebody I thought I could trust with my life, betrayed me in a very ugly way. However, this is also a bad characteristic, hence me putting it last.
10. What do you think are your top five negative characteristics?
01. I don't like failing; I get almost, almost depressed when I fail, or when I'm unable to accomplish things. This'll result in me keeping my friends from contacting me, completely isolating me from the world until I feel confident enough that I can tackle the problem. I know I shouldn't but it's just something I do. I'll lose all my energy to do stuff, which often leads to a lot of slacking off, which will result to more failing. Yes, I'm an idiot.
02. Once I start procrastinating, I can't stop; When I let myself do something when I have to work for something, study or just be busy with things, I get in this "I'm so bored!" mood where I just can't get myself to work. It's annoying, and one of the few things that can get me back on track are either cleaning my room or going for a long run.
03. I cannot do anything productive if there's chaos around me. I need things to be clean. It's almost an OCD thing. If there's a mess, even artbunnies will disappear. Highly annoying.
04. I can be too honest. Some people don't appreciate it. To me this sounds weird, but it is true. I don't sugarcoat. I'm not a bitch on purpose but apparently some people take high offense in my being honest, even when I mean no harm or offense with whatever I am saying. I often think that that results in my bad trait not being "too honest" but being "naive". Some people just need a white lie every now and then, I think. Maybe?
05. I get vicious; I already said I never get angry, and that it only happened twice so far in my life. Both times I got really vicious. Whenever I get angry I have no control over myself anymore, I use my logic to a point where it all sounds reasonable what I'm doing to them. The time with my cousin, I dragged him outside by his hair and kicked him three times in the stomach, asking him how it felt if he was kicked like that. He is still scared of me and I still regret it. I started regretting it the moment I'd calmed down. Same story with the betrayal. I took my revenge, I got her to lose all her friends, her social life, her job, her safeplace. I completely destroyed her then current life. I was a horrible person to her, put myself down to her level and took revenge, and at the time it felt amazing. But it is wrong. I hope both of them will be able to forgive me for what I've done, some day.
||HOGWARTS, A HISTORY||
11. Who is your favorite character in the Harry Potter series?
Tom Marvolo Riddle. Not because he's all so great, but I could read at least another 7 books just about it. His whole history and reasoning just fascinated me. Like reading about how the mind of a serial-killer works. I would love to know more about how he got to be, how his childhood was from his point of view, just everything.
12. Who is your least favorite character in the Harry Potter series?
Umbridge. She's just so blind. I was definitely annoyed all the way through OotP. The way she just doesn't want to know annoyed me to no end. Plus, I dislike pink. Might have had something to do with it as well.
13. What was your favorite plot or character revelation in the Harry Potter series?
Albus Dumbledore's. I always hoped he wouldn't just be the grey old man, I wanted him to be so much more and after DH I just got so excited! Because he had a history, he had his own plans and plottings and just general great wizardness (yes, that's a word). He went from (in my eyes) a relatively boring character to something I'd definitely want to explore. My second (I have two favorites, I can never choose) is Regulus. I just have one question: How? How did he get to see Voldemort was evil? Terribly fascinating.
14. Describe the canon qualities for each house that accurately reflect you.
• Gryffindor: I wish I was braver, but alas, I am not, nor do I rush into things. I'm a fighter though, I hope that counts.
• Slytherin: I'm ambitious, that's for sure. I'm also patient, I know what I want and I go for it. I wouldn't say I'm cunning, since I'm a generally nice person most of the times and really direct and straightforward.
• Ravenclaw: I like to learn, I like riddles and just contemplating the universe. I also like working for something. However, I do not think I'd be smart enough for a Ravenclaw. It would be pretty brilliant though.
• Hufflepuff: Once you're my friend, I'm terribly loyal. I'm also a really nice person most of the times. I just like people.
15. Describe the canon qualities for each house that do not accurately reflect you.
• Gryffindor: I am absolutely not brave. I'd come closer to Peter (however, I would have never betrayed my friends like that) than I would come to Harry. I wouldn't be able to fight a Dark Lord like that. Sadly.
• Slytherin: Like I said, I am not cunning. I am way to honest, direct and straightforward for that. I don't use all means to get what I want, I use the ones I can get, yes, but never any dishonest ones.
• Ravenclaw: I have no wit, like, at all.
• Hufflepuff: I don't trust as easily, nor do I live by any justice standarts much. I'm not sure how to explain it. I do trust, but I want to get to know a person really well before I let them in on who I am. Justice, well, I don't know if justice is justice. Look at what happened when I was angry.
||HOGWARTS EXPRESS||
16. Age: 21 (February 25, 1991)
17. Optional: I'll definitely promote the community once I get in n__n