Waves of regret and feelings of inferiority. I wish I had gotten better grades; my grades this quarter really aren't wonderful and I feel like they are going to rule me out of all the colleges I want to go to. Sounds stupid but I think that it is a real possibility. What else could I have done?

Yay! I am so glad that there isn't any snow, I mean school, on Monday!!!! Jessa, Katya, and I miss yet another physics lab block which is bad, but good. The time for meaningful grades is running (funning) out! Are your final exams still on for Monday, Alex? I hope your happy papers are going well. swell. My life is taking a strange turn; feels ( Read more... )

For some reason, I can type very, very quickly today. I am writing about Oberlin still, but that is fine, because I like Oberlin. I feel odd, though happy. Half-days should be days to see friends. I wish that college applications were over so that we could all have a normal Friday (I wrote Fireday by accident; I wonder what that means-firedays and ( Read more... )

I feel isolated; I don't know how you guys are doing, in spite of reading livejournals. But this is the last stretch! I cracked on Monday night, so my parents aren't letting me do anything but study for the next month. Still, I miss everyone. I start to feel odd when I don't see my friends, not depressed just strange. I really want to play set; I' ( Read more... )

I'm so happy ( Read more... )

I'm so cold ( Read more... )

Happy Oberlin, Jessa! I see you at VegePlanet, but who know where you actually are ( Read more... )

I'm not sure whether anagrams have eaten my brains or my brain has eaten the anagrams ( Read more... )

I hibernated over Thanksgiving break and have woken up feeling better but still tired and sick with plenty of homework. I have been driving myself mad thinking about admissions decisions. I lie in bed trying to sleep and accidentally slip into thinking about this dangerous area; my heart begins to hammer wildly. It is scary to have such violent ( Read more... )

I spent the last few hours researching the effect of various drugs-amphetamines, barbiturates, etc-on the central nervous system. The net effect was a vague desire to try either MDMA (Ecstacy-it is an empathogen-entactogen, it improves one ability to communicate and empathize (empathogenic property) as well as creating a sense of general well-being ( Read more... )