[Open log]

[halfcow]

Characters: Ryoki + everyone
Location: Around Death City
Rating: R
Time: 15th/16th night. It starts at 22pm, ends around 3am.
Description: Ryoki goes mad.

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[lionborn]

Leo waited for Ryoki at the street that would take him directly out of the city and into the desert, not too far away from where his own run with similar intentions had ended. The Half was wearing his usual battle gear for the street, the torn, ridiculously long bandanna, the shorts, his machines. In his hand he held a lighter, between his lips a cigarette

[halfcow]

Ryoki walked through the street, and the fire only seemed to numb him at each step he took. He no longer had the bag, now all he had was one bottled, half full of gasoline (since he has been using said gasoline to set things on fire

[lionborn]

Leo inwardly flinched when he saw just how bad his friend was about. He knew that he himself was no paragon of stability, neither physical nor mental and emotional, and that stunt with Azusa had left him feeling as if he had lost much too much blood, but that all mattered nothing in comparison to what Ryoki had to go through at the moment

[halfcow]

Ryoki’s stare on Leo didn’t last long after he heard the question. His eyes moved back to the fire around him, as if he was trying to remember something. “We

[lionborn]

Leo had tensed for a moment when Ryoki mentioned Lili, but it didn't last long and he didn't say anything about it either. Fuck, he had warned the girl that she was getting herself into troubles that were too big for her when she took dealing with them too lightly. From the sound of it she didn't die, which was something she could be grateful for. He could worry about her later.

He met and held Ryoki's gaze without a problem. "I figured you already knew."

There wasn't anything else to add to it, as far as he was concerned. He could tell Ryoki that he was also hurt, angry and sad. That he wanted nothing more than to bash their self-righteous teeth in for what they had done and for thinking that they could even dream to understand what taking it from them meant. But what for? It wouldn't change anything.

[halfcow]

Liar.

If Ryoki knew, he would have snapped long ago. Leo knew that.

It didn't matter anyway. Since he had arrived to this place, it's not like they have even been together. Ryoki didn't know much about Leo right now and they mutually - in a silent agreement, sort of - agreed to keep things that way.

The bull turned to look at the fire once more, as if that would make any of it go away - truthfully, it only made everything worse. Ryoki just couldn't tell since it was the only thing he could think of right now.

"Nothing matters." he repeated what went through his mind that moment, and then started walking once more. He still wanted to leave.

[lionborn]

Of course he did. That's why he never brought it up with him. It's also why he was lying right now, because he didn't want to drive his friend any further. As far as Leo was concerned a lack of knowledge was bliss and he also knew that Ryoki was a lot worse at dealing with the hard facts of life than he was. He was also a lot better at running away from them than Leo, a bitter part of his mind added.

"Does it ever?" He didn't mean to sound as sarcastic as he did when he pushed himself from the wall and slowly fell in pace behind Ryoki. A bit behind and a bit to the side, like always when they had been on the prowl together. Something at the back of his head was aching and there was a flood of emotions that just waited to drown him once he lost his precarious balance from the thread of cold pragmatismthat he was clinging to right now, but he wasn't going to give in to that.

Yet.

[halfcow]

"Not here." in Death City, nothing made sense anymore. There was nothing for him and nothing he had. Even his death was taken away from him and now he had just madness and hatred to feed on.

Ryoki kept walking and once he realized the fire was now behind them and no longer in sight, he grabbed the half full bottle he still had left, put a rag inside, and searched for the lighter in his pocket. The bull looked around the street, looking for something flammable, finding a neatly parked car.

And after he lighten the Molotov bomb on fire, he proceeded to throw it at the car's window, so it'd burn from inside out. While that didn't make the bull's problems fade, it sure hypnotized him for about a minute or two.

"Why are you following me?" finally Ryoki turned to look at Leo again.

[lionborn]

He watched Ryoki set the car on fire calmly, thinking to himself that it was a shame to waste a fine model like this. Then he mentally kicked himself for having such a thought. Priorities, man, get them straight. Walking over to the burning car, he used its fire to light his cigarette.

Then he took a drag, telling himself that he wasn't just stalling time to figure out an answer. In the end he didn't manage to come up with a good lie that would satisfy Ryoki so he smiled and said the truth.

"Because that's what we do when one of us starts burning. We stay until the end and then toss them in the sea." Not that they had any bigger body of water nearby, but it was about the principle.

[halfcow]

Ryoki seemed surprised to hear Leo's words. Not because they weren't true, nor because he didn't expect that from him, but because Leo actually understood why he was setting things on fire

[lionborn]

Leo lowered his head hearing her name. Only hearing it was enough to make him want to scream, because dammit, he had loved her too and had yet left her to Ryoki because he loved them both. And now? Look what had become of it! Forcing himself to keep calm, keep his balance, the half-lion exhaled.

"...I know."

Because he did. Because he really, really did. Because it had been taken from his as well and because it had taken him a lot less time to realize his loss. He too had gone on a rampage and he had been in a better condition than the bull was right now. He knew what was going to happen next. Subduement.

He took a deep breath. This was going to be difficult, like telling a tidal wave to change its course and get away with it. Stupid bull. "Ryo, today's a bad night. How about moving what ya want to do to another time when there are less annoying fuckers out'n around?" While he was speaking he casually moved a little closer to the other Half. He had to get Ryoki before they could.

[halfcow]

Ryoki kept muttering after speaking Akito's name. It was like it numbed his senses and punched him in the guts. It wasn't a nice feeling. "I can't, Leo... And the flames... everything's gone..." and he felt like crying.

With drugs, everything had been a lot easier; he didn't cry and was numbed. They kept him in his little world. If he didn't have them when Akito died, Ryoki had gone on rampage. Who said drugs were bad?

However, when he heard Leo's next words, he stops blabbering and looks up at the other half. He looked at him for a while, and then at the flames of the car, and then at his own hands.

And the answer came with all of his determination. "No."

[lionborn]

Shit! He had known that an answer like this was coming, but it still didn't make him feel any happier about hearing it.

Reaching out for the bull's shoulder, he tried it again. "Ryoki. Let it be. If even I could find and catch up with you even though I was in the hospital and had my head fuzzy from being knocked out, what the hell do you the others are doing? They're anticipating you and like hell they're feeling like we do! They don't even get it! They'll shoot you like some street mutt with rabies and all it ever will have been to them is another daily core to check off from their fucking goodie-two-shoes to-do list

[halfcow]

The bull's eyes looked at Leo's hand as he spoke, and he said nothing. It was as if whatever Leo just told him didn't even reach his brain; he heard him and understood what he just said, but his head was such a mess by now that he couldn't exactly place Leo's words as right or wrong. They were just words

[lionborn]

Leo's eyes widened when Ryoki got so close. When they touched, when he leaned against him - it was all back, like back then. All like when he had finally lost him."That's it?" He felt a cold wave wash away everything there was in him: the fear, the worries, the gnawing need to just curl up and cry and shout that he didn't want this, didn't want to know or be any part of this and also his apathy and control. He didn't register the apology or the deeper meaning behind Ryoki's words. All he understood was that Ryoki was abandoning him again. Just like when he had chosen to do nothing but watch and laugh at him during that night and then later when he had given Leo not even a chance to keep him from leaving that building after cutting off that MUTE bastard's head. He was making his choice and didn't care what he did to Leo with it. He only thought of himself and expected him to take it, like always. He didn't care what it had taken the lion to show up here and say those words to him. He didn't care about him as long as he himself was got

[halfcow]

“I know.” Being called a human hurt Ryoki more than he could even believe. Never in his life he was called one, and for the first time when such happened, it was because Leo was angry and pissed and yet again calling the half-bull unfair. But it just hurt him. It’d have made him mad, but right now, it just really hurt and he felt nothing more but pain that squeezed his chest again and hit his throat and he felt like vomiting right then (or at least a feeling similar to his stomach twisting and hurting. Whatever