Topic #392 - Born this way.
Born this way.
I was not born this way. Nor did I bloody choose to be this way. That choice was made by Drusilla. Out of everyone else in the soddin' world. She chose yours truly to sire. Dru made me a vampire. But I don't blame her for that. And I don't much regret what might have been. Cause the way I look at it. Bad stuff happens. Also I'm not gonna make any excuses for the terrible things I done in my soulless vamp days.
I hate the excuse some bad guys use, sayin' they was born evil. That's bullocks. Unless possessed or mind controlled, which I have a bit of past experience with the First Evil usin' me like a bloody puppet. Everyone has a choice. They can choose to do right or to do wrong. Sayin' they don't have a soul. Or they was born bad is just an easy excuse. I don't like such easy explanations. Things are never so black and white.
Anyway, I was not born to be bad or good. When I done bad things and later when I decided to do good things. Both was a choice I freely made. I'm not gonna say that I didn't make a crap load of mistakes over the years. Not gonna say there is not many a thing I regret. But much like Angel. Who beats himself up way too much over his past mistakes. Like him, I've come to accept that bein' a good guy. Helpin' the innocent is what I'm meant to do. It may not be my destiny to be the chosen one. Nor to be the recipient of some shinny Shanshu Prophecy. I'm not a hero cause of some promise to be human one day. So whether I'm rewarded for my countless times of savin' the world. Whether I'm a vampire, ghost, or just plain old William. I won't stop bein' all heroic and self sacrificin'.
Theatrical_Muse: Topic #392
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 336
I was not born this way. Nor did I bloody choose to be this way. That choice was made by Drusilla. Out of everyone else in the soddin' world. She chose yours truly to sire. Dru made me a vampire. But I don't blame her for that. And I don't much regret what might have been. Cause the way I look at it. Bad stuff happens. Also I'm not gonna make any excuses for the terrible things I done in my soulless vamp days.
I hate the excuse some bad guys use, sayin' they was born evil. That's bullocks. Unless possessed or mind controlled, which I have a bit of past experience with the First Evil usin' me like a bloody puppet. Everyone has a choice. They can choose to do right or to do wrong. Sayin' they don't have a soul. Or they was born bad is just an easy excuse. I don't like such easy explanations. Things are never so black and white.
Anyway, I was not born to be bad or good. When I done bad things and later when I decided to do good things. Both was a choice I freely made. I'm not gonna say that I didn't make a crap load of mistakes over the years. Not gonna say there is not many a thing I regret. But much like Angel. Who beats himself up way too much over his past mistakes. Like him, I've come to accept that bein' a good guy. Helpin' the innocent is what I'm meant to do. It may not be my destiny to be the chosen one. Nor to be the recipient of some shinny Shanshu Prophecy. I'm not a hero cause of some promise to be human one day. So whether I'm rewarded for my countless times of savin' the world. Whether I'm a vampire, ghost, or just plain old William. I won't stop bein' all heroic and self sacrificin'.
Theatrical_Muse: Topic #392
Muse: Spike
Fandom: Buffy/Angel The Series
Words: 336