today is that day for our generation - the one where you can ask "where were you when..." and get a vivid answer from every single person.
i was walking home from class, standing on the corner of milton and aylmer. i saw amanda. she told me someone bombed the WTC. it didn't register. i walked home, wondering why she was telling me something that happened 10 years ago. i was a little dazed (it was early...). i got back to my apartment, poured a bowl of lucky charms and turned on the tv. it took me a while even then to really figure out what was going on. when i did i started calling home, went online to see what was really happening. i remember finding out that all immediate family was safe. it's weird never knowing where your parents are working on any given day... they are constantly all over the tri-state area.
i remember being on campus later that day, none of my classes being cancelled, and standing with my friend pat while a line of us tried on all of the pay phones to reach his brother working on wall street and his mother working in the pentagon.
i remember talking to michele and feeling like she was the only person who really got it.
i remember a friend's roommate telling us that america got what it deserved.
i remember trying to get my mind off of things and going to film class and watching Nanook of the North that evening.
i remember being verbally harassed walking down the street wearing an I <3 NY shirt.
i remember feeling like it was all a bad movie.
i remember a candlelight vigil and it being freezing even though it was september.
i remember dropping loonies into donation buckets all over campus, not caring where they went because at least i was doing something.
i remember thinking what an idiot bush looked like even as much of the US was turning towards him.
i remember seeing the people jumping out of the windows. they aired that a little longer in canada.
i remember feeling helpless, feeling like i wasn't american, feeling like i needed to step back onto america soil to really understand.
i remember wanting to get on a bus as soon as possible. i remember deciding i was better off in canada.
where were you when?