so latley things have been.. akward? i don't understand my mom. she's so nice to me when her boyfriend isn't around. does she know how that makes me feel. oh well. i'm going to have a job soon so i'll be gone and out of here ( Read more... )

me and bruce always get into trouble when we got off. what the fuck? we aren't off fucking!! we are off talking and chatting. ughh!!! why can't they just trust us!? i can't take it anymore. i'm going back home!! although i LOVE it up here!!! i don't know what to do now!

trust us!! we won't go off and fuck guys!! believe me!

i just went crazy. i was looking at pics on georges journal. I MISS FREAKIN EVERYONE!! i miss dave, harhar, solom, george, jason, dan, emily, sami, shayne, ernnny, justin. FUCKING EVERYONE!! the whole crew! i don't want to get back into old habits, but i want to see them again. i want us all back again ( Read more... )

this sucks. why aren't i the happy brit that i used to be? i usually loved to be at the lake with my family. having fun. smiling. joking. not anymore. i sit around with the old farts. they really aren't that old. but still. my mom bought me my own whine coolers today. they were good. surprisingly i didn't drink them all. i'm never in the mood to do ( Read more... )

so i'm in dallas. not too shabby. we are going to the lake tomorrow. boats, jet skis, and sun! yay!! i'll come home with a tan! go me!! there is a cute boy stayin at my aunts, not my cousin. there is also a cute boy at the store! seeexxxy! sunday we are popping fireworks. i'm excited. i think this time away is good. i was just sad that i had to ( Read more... )

tomorrow is the plain white t's. i want to go. so bad. i'd give anything, but my mom is going out of town. she can trust me this time. i'm done with partying. after hearing about the guy that died it made me think. how many times have i done stupid stuff. how many times was i supposed to die but didn't. okay that's a bit harsh i guess. it's only ( Read more... )

i could be wrong about this, but i don't know? i didn't assume anything was about me. if that's what you are talking about. please just let this hate between you and i stop. i'm nt asking for your forgivness but i'm sorry for the past stuff ( Read more... )

so yeah i have nobody now ( Read more... )

So guess what i found out.. i have no personality, i'm a bad person, AND this is the best one.. i'm a slut!! haha. yea yea yea fuckers ( Read more... )

i guess i'm just the cause of everyones problems. i ruin everything, huh? fuckin shit. fuck me ( Read more... )