Things are a tiny bit better than yesterday (check last entry). I'm not crying anymore, I think I cried out half my body weight, lol. I've been putting all of my sadness towards something productive, and being the Italian female that I am..naturally, I cook ( Read more... )

I've realized today that my greatest fear is being helpless. Not knowing what's going on, or what is going to happen in the future makes me feel helpless. I hate not being able to control things, and this has made me feel like a horrible human being. I have cried about non stop since 7am this morning when the doctor told me my dog is dying from ( Read more... )

There is something about spending the day doing yard work that I really enjoy. I'm not sure if it's the fresh air, the sun, the sharp tools, or the opportunity to wear a pair of old daisy-dukes. Probably a combonation of all the above. I don't exactly like being covered in dirt though, that and the insects. Speaking of which, I need to go scrub ( Read more... )

I know i'm leaving for Italy in September, but I don't think I can wait that long to get out of this town. I'm seriously itching to get out and have fun. I'm thinking of just grabbing a bag of the essentials and hitting the road. Wouldn't that be cool to just drive and drive to nowhere in particular? I LOVE road trips. I LOVELOVELOVE new places ( Read more... )

I should TOTALLY be a Yoga instructor.

I'm seriously going to look into that, after having the idea suggested by a stranger at the gym. Strangers can be so gosh darn smart!

The strangest thing happened to me at the mall today. I'm looking at high heels, and this lady taps me on the shoulder. Very tall, grey hair, actually pretty for an older woman. She leans in real close, a little too close if you ask me, and says "Pardon me for being intrusive, but I simply MUST know who does your makeup!". She may have been ( Read more... )

I think I've been working out too much lately. I love working out, and have been doing my own personalized routines every morning for the past year, but recently I've been adding more things. Doubling all of my counts. Between ballet, gymnastics, yoga, and now pilates..i'm worried i'm going to get all manly looking, lol. My mother assures me ( Read more... )

I must admit, having dyed my hair a darker color has tweaked my attitude a bit. I feel older, vixenish, and dare I say..sultry? Being a platinum blonde definately fit my spacey personality, but the dark hair and the glowy tanned skin makes me feel really different. In a good way. I think that I sort split off into two seperate Maggie's. First ( Read more... )

As of lately I feel like I have more than one choice in the kind of life I could live, or continue living. I have a potential option, one that is both golden and rare. I could be diving into a Modeling career..and who knows where that can take you. Fancy clothes, magazines, living the high life. Or, I can stay in the hole that I am currently in ( Read more... )

I need to clean my bathroom..but I keep getting distracted by far more important things. Like laying on the bed with my head hanging off the side..or making a little pyramid out of a deck of cards. I did finally finish all the music to "Behind Blue Eyes" on the guitar, so at least I accomplished something ( Read more... )