i love my cristy
well, i got kicked outta my house on the 7th. stayed at cristy's last night and now i am off to sleep in da park. i just got done with an extremely good convo with her and thats why i love her so much!!
A Losers Grace: hey
A Losers Grace: u wanna bring me a cigarette
DLOCsGuRl: huh?
A Losers Grace: nm
DLOCsGuRl: I don't even know where you are, and I only have one left, I have to get some more tomorrow when we go out
A Losers Grace: ok
A Losers Grace: hey
A Losers Grace: i might move in with my friend richard
A Losers Grace: tomorrow
A Losers Grace: will u help me
DLOCsGuRl: who's Richard?
A Losers Grace: a friend from school
A Losers Grace: he lives out in ungo
A Losers Grace: near the courthouse
DLOCsGuRl: okay
A Losers Grace: did u email that one thing?
DLOCsGuRl: http://www.my-diary.org/users/72138
DLOCsGuRl: I figured it out
DLOCsGuRl: :)
A Losers Grace: ok
A Losers Grace: lol
DLOCsGuRl: :-D
DLOCsGuRl: I love him so much
A Losers Grace: i can tell
DLOCsGuRl: I HATE IT
DLOCsGuRl: but I can't do anything about it
A Losers Grace: i wish i could make chela see that i really like her
A Losers Grace: thats all ive ever wanted in a long time, was to be with someone i really liked
A Losers Grace: and i really really like her
A Losers Grace: but no
A Losers Grace: nothing ever works out for me
DLOCsGuRl: :-\all I ever wanted too and I still haven't perfected my relationship yet
A Losers Grace: "it would hurt the friendship"
A Losers Grace: but at least u have one
A Losers Grace: the reason why i get so quiet sometimes is because i am supresing my feelings
A Losers Grace: beating them down so they dont get the best of me
A Losers Grace: i try to make things work
A Losers Grace: but everytime she touches me or hugs me or pinches me
A Losers Grace: i start thinking of how things would be if we were dating
A Losers Grace: so i get really quiet real fast
A Losers Grace: and tell her to stop what she is doing
A Losers Grace: so i dont explode and tell her how i really feel
DLOCsGuRl: you have one with her too, but it's like, me and Tim, we have to start things all over again because we moved to fast
last time and it fucked shit up and now, we have to work to get back to where we we're , just take things slow, I know it's hard, but if
it's meant to be, friends or not, she'll come around.
A Losers Grace: but thats it she wont
A Losers Grace: bc of adam
A Losers Grace: i know why she stopped "us"
A Losers Grace: was bc she felt like she was cheating on adam
A Losers Grace: that night i came up to her hosue and they were there
A Losers Grace: she didnt start crying bc of me
A Losers Grace: it was bc of adam
A Losers Grace: i just dont know what to do
A Losers Grace: i wanna tell her so much
A Losers Grace: but if i do i know she is gonna get mad
A Losers Grace: its liike no matter what i do things always get fucked up
DLOCsGuRl: See, but that doesn't mean it could never be that way, you just have to give her time to make sure that she and
Adam won't work out......... Trust me, the whole thing about you have to give people time to get over other people is so true, because
me and Tim broke up with our ex's to be together and it put a big strain on our relationship, because we didn't really know what we
wanted, you have all the time in the world just let it play itself out
A Losers Grace: but thats just it
A Losers Grace: chela hasnt seen that adam is wrong for her
A Losers Grace: and its been 4 fucking years
A Losers Grace: im not gonna be around for that long
DLOCsGuRl: but she will eventually, and if you can't wait maybe it's not meant to be. because that's all you can do right now is
either give her time or just back off, because if you pressure her its gonna push her away
A Losers Grace: i know
A Losers Grace: im not saying i cant wait
A Losers Grace: but i dont know whats gonna happen to me
A Losers Grace: my friend wants me to go to canada wwith her
A Losers Grace: when she goes back to college
A Losers Grace: and after that i dont know what
A Losers Grace: but i wanna go to San Francisco with chela
A Losers Grace: but if her mom loses custody of kelsey they are gonna move out there
A Losers Grace: and then i will be stuck
A Losers Grace: and i am not gonna be homeless in a big city
A Losers Grace: ohhhhhhh no
DLOCsGuRl: First of all her mom would let you live with them, honey, I know it sucks and I wish I could say something that would
make it better, but honestly, love is shit, I know that, but in the end its worth taking the chance..........
A Losers Grace: she said her mom would not let me live with them
A Losers Grace: and i couldnt do that
A Losers Grace: i cant use ppl like that
A Losers Grace: it was sooooooooo hard for me to ask u to crash at ur house last night
A Losers Grace: i am gonna try and wait it out
A Losers Grace: see what happens
A Losers Grace: i just hope things work out
A Losers Grace: ::crosses fingers::
DLOCsGuRl: :) good, I hope they do, love is shitty, you just have to give people space, I'd rather spend one night a week with
tim, then him tell me that I was all up in his grill and that he never wants to see me.
A Losers Grace: yeah
A Losers Grace: but hey
A Losers Grace: i gotta go
A Losers Grace: if i dont come over by noon
A Losers Grace: look for me at the park
DLOCsGuRl: okay, I'll see you tomorrow, K I will
A Losers Grace: peace
A Losers Grace: hey
A Losers Grace: u wanna bring me a cigarette
DLOCsGuRl: huh?
A Losers Grace: nm
DLOCsGuRl: I don't even know where you are, and I only have one left, I have to get some more tomorrow when we go out
A Losers Grace: ok
A Losers Grace: hey
A Losers Grace: i might move in with my friend richard
A Losers Grace: tomorrow
A Losers Grace: will u help me
DLOCsGuRl: who's Richard?
A Losers Grace: a friend from school
A Losers Grace: he lives out in ungo
A Losers Grace: near the courthouse
DLOCsGuRl: okay
A Losers Grace: did u email that one thing?
DLOCsGuRl: http://www.my-diary.org/users/72138
DLOCsGuRl: I figured it out
DLOCsGuRl: :)
A Losers Grace: ok
A Losers Grace: lol
DLOCsGuRl: :-D
DLOCsGuRl: I love him so much
A Losers Grace: i can tell
DLOCsGuRl: I HATE IT
DLOCsGuRl: but I can't do anything about it
A Losers Grace: i wish i could make chela see that i really like her
A Losers Grace: thats all ive ever wanted in a long time, was to be with someone i really liked
A Losers Grace: and i really really like her
A Losers Grace: but no
A Losers Grace: nothing ever works out for me
DLOCsGuRl: :-\all I ever wanted too and I still haven't perfected my relationship yet
A Losers Grace: "it would hurt the friendship"
A Losers Grace: but at least u have one
A Losers Grace: the reason why i get so quiet sometimes is because i am supresing my feelings
A Losers Grace: beating them down so they dont get the best of me
A Losers Grace: i try to make things work
A Losers Grace: but everytime she touches me or hugs me or pinches me
A Losers Grace: i start thinking of how things would be if we were dating
A Losers Grace: so i get really quiet real fast
A Losers Grace: and tell her to stop what she is doing
A Losers Grace: so i dont explode and tell her how i really feel
DLOCsGuRl: you have one with her too, but it's like, me and Tim, we have to start things all over again because we moved to fast
last time and it fucked shit up and now, we have to work to get back to where we we're , just take things slow, I know it's hard, but if
it's meant to be, friends or not, she'll come around.
A Losers Grace: but thats it she wont
A Losers Grace: bc of adam
A Losers Grace: i know why she stopped "us"
A Losers Grace: was bc she felt like she was cheating on adam
A Losers Grace: that night i came up to her hosue and they were there
A Losers Grace: she didnt start crying bc of me
A Losers Grace: it was bc of adam
A Losers Grace: i just dont know what to do
A Losers Grace: i wanna tell her so much
A Losers Grace: but if i do i know she is gonna get mad
A Losers Grace: its liike no matter what i do things always get fucked up
DLOCsGuRl: See, but that doesn't mean it could never be that way, you just have to give her time to make sure that she and
Adam won't work out......... Trust me, the whole thing about you have to give people time to get over other people is so true, because
me and Tim broke up with our ex's to be together and it put a big strain on our relationship, because we didn't really know what we
wanted, you have all the time in the world just let it play itself out
A Losers Grace: but thats just it
A Losers Grace: chela hasnt seen that adam is wrong for her
A Losers Grace: and its been 4 fucking years
A Losers Grace: im not gonna be around for that long
DLOCsGuRl: but she will eventually, and if you can't wait maybe it's not meant to be. because that's all you can do right now is
either give her time or just back off, because if you pressure her its gonna push her away
A Losers Grace: i know
A Losers Grace: im not saying i cant wait
A Losers Grace: but i dont know whats gonna happen to me
A Losers Grace: my friend wants me to go to canada wwith her
A Losers Grace: when she goes back to college
A Losers Grace: and after that i dont know what
A Losers Grace: but i wanna go to San Francisco with chela
A Losers Grace: but if her mom loses custody of kelsey they are gonna move out there
A Losers Grace: and then i will be stuck
A Losers Grace: and i am not gonna be homeless in a big city
A Losers Grace: ohhhhhhh no
DLOCsGuRl: First of all her mom would let you live with them, honey, I know it sucks and I wish I could say something that would
make it better, but honestly, love is shit, I know that, but in the end its worth taking the chance..........
A Losers Grace: she said her mom would not let me live with them
A Losers Grace: and i couldnt do that
A Losers Grace: i cant use ppl like that
A Losers Grace: it was sooooooooo hard for me to ask u to crash at ur house last night
A Losers Grace: i am gonna try and wait it out
A Losers Grace: see what happens
A Losers Grace: i just hope things work out
A Losers Grace: ::crosses fingers::
DLOCsGuRl: :) good, I hope they do, love is shitty, you just have to give people space, I'd rather spend one night a week with
tim, then him tell me that I was all up in his grill and that he never wants to see me.
A Losers Grace: yeah
A Losers Grace: but hey
A Losers Grace: i gotta go
A Losers Grace: if i dont come over by noon
A Losers Grace: look for me at the park
DLOCsGuRl: okay, I'll see you tomorrow, K I will
A Losers Grace: peace