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i'm sick of it alllll. all there seems to be lately, is bullshit. i hate waking up in the morning to go to school and also, this is going to sound bad, but seeing my parents. all they do is bitch. really, i'm not even exaggerating. it wasn't like this for my brothers. maybe because there was 3 of us. and now there's one, me. left alone, while they're living totally different lives in two totally different states. i get bitched out for every little thing. they don't know how to COMMUNICATE. all they know how to do is yell. it seems as if they pick out EVERY little imperfection i have and throws it in my face. i'm sorry i can't make straight as for them. and when i tell them that's not how my brothers were because my brothers didn't give a fuck and did poorly through highschool, and became marines so i guess they didn't need it that much anyway. but, STILL. when they were my age they didn't know they were gonna be marines 5 years after? they push me and push me and push me. and i HATE it. they don't understand that when they nag me, it makes me want to do less. it really does. if they would treat me with RESPECT i would give respect back. i'm sorry i'm going on and on about this but, i have no where else to put it. and it's not like this is a one time thing where they yelled at me and i got mad. this is every day of my life. it SUCKS. blahh, i'm sorry. and if any of you DID decide to read this, i'm not asking for any of you to feel sorry me. it was needed to be let out. i should stop now.
things with pat have been going great though. we don't fight every other day like we use too. and i open up to him a lot more now. i talk to him about anything and everything. i let him know ME. which is the first time i've really done that in a while. he's one of the few things that make me happy. to get to see him everyday is a happiness that i haven't known in a great while. i'm not saying he's the ONLY thing that makes me happy because EVERY one of my friends do without a doubt. they ALL put smiles on my faces. and i'm thankful to have them all.
i ♥ ♥ ♥ hawthorne heights. SO love them.
things with pat have been going great though. we don't fight every other day like we use too. and i open up to him a lot more now. i talk to him about anything and everything. i let him know ME. which is the first time i've really done that in a while. he's one of the few things that make me happy. to get to see him everyday is a happiness that i haven't known in a great while. i'm not saying he's the ONLY thing that makes me happy because EVERY one of my friends do without a doubt. they ALL put smiles on my faces. and i'm thankful to have them all.
i ♥ ♥ ♥ hawthorne heights. SO love them.