My spleen hurts.
3-2 Thursday
Before
I need something/one to give me a reason to be this angry at everything. Because, once again, I have no idea why I am. It's pretty pathetic when I have to embellish even my dreams to make this crappy excuse for a life seem interesting.
They finally put something kind of neat on the wall opposite my locker. I now have oceans and fishies and volcanoes to look at while I'm angsting to myself. And a few barely legible (and even less literate) "helpful" signs to tell us about the feeding cycles of said fishies and volcanoes. If I were a volcano, I would eat only airplanes and hot air balloons.
Lunch
I can't feel my face. I'm so sick of instrument playing. Blergh.
4 Library
At least the library has nice squishy chairs for my poor butt.
6 Government
Oh, it was so quiet while LykeomglykegasplykeBethlyke was gone. Le tear.
3-3 Friday
Before
Oh man. The "ocean" on my locker wall got a hella lot cooler overnight. Now I can honestly say it's interesting to look at, rather than just kind of mehish like yesterday. There's stuffed 3-D things sticking off it, and even thingers hanging off the ceiling. I'm torn now...the volcano is rad, bt now there is a giant pink ambiguous blob labeled as a 'goblin shark'. But, I dunno, airplanes are tasty...
Lunch
So I overheard 58-RS-Ben talking to Muldoonies-Jack-E about bands, and I wondered if he/they care about anything besides music...and then I realized that I don't care about anything except music too. ...And it is good.
I feel like someone is squeezing the top of my stomach. Like one of those jelly toys that you try to hold and it slips out of your hand and is foreverandever trying to escape. UAI Guy is teh sex in a workshirt for a place he may or may not actually work for.
3-6 Monday
Before
Mm, 'tis fun to screw the self over, again and again. And ignore stupid preppy bitches. Garr. K8 is either irrationally angry or mehfully without emotion today. She hasn't decided yet. Depends how many people are chumps.
2 Brit Lit
Five more days of crap, and then 9 days away from this shitteh place. M-C-sensei needs to have her stupid mouth duck-taped shut. Quack.
3 Concert Band
Don't be a goddamn hippie. Just say no to dredlocks and mullets. (Especially when done to pretty emo hair...woe.)
6 Government
Further proof that given a chance to talk with no direction, conversation involving teenagers will degenerate to focusing solely on sex within minutes. We're composing innuendos. "I'd like to verb your noun!"
After
As far as practicing bus evacuations goes...I'm pretty sure, with this guy, the bus could be on fire, and he wouldn't care much more than to say 'Somebody spit on it.'
3-7 Tuesday
Before
I am the deathiest of death today. At least I actually have something to be angry about for once. Ah, sweet aspirin. I am learning so much from this ocean picture. For instance, deep-sea fishies are under a lot of pressure (yeah, join the club) which means they would be bigger if they were near the top.
Argh, such stabulations. I should have stayed home. (whine bitch emo cry)
I enjoy being a bad samaritan. >=D
3-9 Thursday
Before
This school is so fucking retarded and incompetent. Kill me now, for I don't think I could stand to be alive in this stupidity any longer. UAI Guy still gives me that dumb look every time he passes. Why? He already established that he thinks I'm a big loser and there's not a chance for anything (not even friendship, much less a relationship) to develop between us. It's like he just does it to mock me. I am le pissed off today. (monsterface) My Frankenguy project is due today yesterday. [I stayed home.] Of course I didn't do it. I hope no one actually wasted their time wondering if I did it. I graduate May 17th I think. Somewhere thereabouts. So. 2 Months of school left forever. Mother wants me to start going to university this summer already. But Mother wants lost of things from me we all know I won't do, because remember that I am nothing more than the Big Goddamn Dissapointment. Apparently teh Brother Person is doing perfect, except that girls don't like him. Oh, woe. K-chan broke up with her boy-thing. Right when I was starting to not hate him and all, too. I look like a skank!ho crossed with a complete loser crossed with someone with a slight mental condition today. Ah, the suck, it is unimaginable. And all this angst rant spurred from the fact that the office didn't have my admit (again, as usual).
2 Brit Lit
Apparently I am the only one who thinks actually coming to class is still a cool thing. Get with it, K8, jeez. Oh man. I am on edge today. And I totally don't feel like dealing with any of these fuckwits. Except to righteously deal out the stabbings they all deserve. Fucking school spirit days. Isn't there a rule that something has to be worn under the sheet-togas? I never wanted to be able to count Chandler's armpit hairs. (vomit) Oh, fan-fucking-tastic, a test on Franken-whatever now. If I haven't killed myself by the end of today, then everyone better give me a big fucking hug, because it'll be a miracle. But of course no one will, because no one gives a fuck that that stupid K8-chaped thing even still exists.
3 Concert Band
It just amazes me what some people don't know. And makes me wonder why (and in some cases how) they are still conscious/breathing.
Lunch
OMfG, I'm so cold I'm shaking all over. And I hurt...in my special parts. Wah wah wah. (emo angst cry) K8's life is so hard. Some of the things people do...I just wonder how they can even take themselves seriously. Angela Frigidwhatever can never have a baby. Those are not baby-bearing hips. It probably wouldn't even fit in her if you took all her bones out first, she's that disgustingly skinny. Yech.
6 Government
Oh how I adore G-sensei. She gives me hope that the world isn't entirely screwed over.
Comment, please.
Before
I need something/one to give me a reason to be this angry at everything. Because, once again, I have no idea why I am. It's pretty pathetic when I have to embellish even my dreams to make this crappy excuse for a life seem interesting.
They finally put something kind of neat on the wall opposite my locker. I now have oceans and fishies and volcanoes to look at while I'm angsting to myself. And a few barely legible (and even less literate) "helpful" signs to tell us about the feeding cycles of said fishies and volcanoes. If I were a volcano, I would eat only airplanes and hot air balloons.
Lunch
I can't feel my face. I'm so sick of instrument playing. Blergh.
4 Library
At least the library has nice squishy chairs for my poor butt.
6 Government
Oh, it was so quiet while LykeomglykegasplykeBethlyke was gone. Le tear.
3-3 Friday
Before
Oh man. The "ocean" on my locker wall got a hella lot cooler overnight. Now I can honestly say it's interesting to look at, rather than just kind of mehish like yesterday. There's stuffed 3-D things sticking off it, and even thingers hanging off the ceiling. I'm torn now...the volcano is rad, bt now there is a giant pink ambiguous blob labeled as a 'goblin shark'. But, I dunno, airplanes are tasty...
Lunch
So I overheard 58-RS-Ben talking to Muldoonies-Jack-E about bands, and I wondered if he/they care about anything besides music...and then I realized that I don't care about anything except music too. ...And it is good.
I feel like someone is squeezing the top of my stomach. Like one of those jelly toys that you try to hold and it slips out of your hand and is foreverandever trying to escape. UAI Guy is teh sex in a workshirt for a place he may or may not actually work for.
3-6 Monday
Before
Mm, 'tis fun to screw the self over, again and again. And ignore stupid preppy bitches. Garr. K8 is either irrationally angry or mehfully without emotion today. She hasn't decided yet. Depends how many people are chumps.
2 Brit Lit
Five more days of crap, and then 9 days away from this shitteh place. M-C-sensei needs to have her stupid mouth duck-taped shut. Quack.
3 Concert Band
Don't be a goddamn hippie. Just say no to dredlocks and mullets. (Especially when done to pretty emo hair...woe.)
6 Government
Further proof that given a chance to talk with no direction, conversation involving teenagers will degenerate to focusing solely on sex within minutes. We're composing innuendos. "I'd like to verb your noun!"
After
As far as practicing bus evacuations goes...I'm pretty sure, with this guy, the bus could be on fire, and he wouldn't care much more than to say 'Somebody spit on it.'
3-7 Tuesday
Before
I am the deathiest of death today. At least I actually have something to be angry about for once. Ah, sweet aspirin. I am learning so much from this ocean picture. For instance, deep-sea fishies are under a lot of pressure (yeah, join the club) which means they would be bigger if they were near the top.
Argh, such stabulations. I should have stayed home. (whine bitch emo cry)
I enjoy being a bad samaritan. >=D
3-9 Thursday
Before
This school is so fucking retarded and incompetent. Kill me now, for I don't think I could stand to be alive in this stupidity any longer. UAI Guy still gives me that dumb look every time he passes. Why? He already established that he thinks I'm a big loser and there's not a chance for anything (not even friendship, much less a relationship) to develop between us. It's like he just does it to mock me. I am le pissed off today. (monsterface) My Frankenguy project is due today yesterday. [I stayed home.] Of course I didn't do it. I hope no one actually wasted their time wondering if I did it. I graduate May 17th I think. Somewhere thereabouts. So. 2 Months of school left forever. Mother wants me to start going to university this summer already. But Mother wants lost of things from me we all know I won't do, because remember that I am nothing more than the Big Goddamn Dissapointment. Apparently teh Brother Person is doing perfect, except that girls don't like him. Oh, woe. K-chan broke up with her boy-thing. Right when I was starting to not hate him and all, too. I look like a skank!ho crossed with a complete loser crossed with someone with a slight mental condition today. Ah, the suck, it is unimaginable. And all this angst rant spurred from the fact that the office didn't have my admit (again, as usual).
2 Brit Lit
Apparently I am the only one who thinks actually coming to class is still a cool thing. Get with it, K8, jeez. Oh man. I am on edge today. And I totally don't feel like dealing with any of these fuckwits. Except to righteously deal out the stabbings they all deserve. Fucking school spirit days. Isn't there a rule that something has to be worn under the sheet-togas? I never wanted to be able to count Chandler's armpit hairs. (vomit) Oh, fan-fucking-tastic, a test on Franken-whatever now. If I haven't killed myself by the end of today, then everyone better give me a big fucking hug, because it'll be a miracle. But of course no one will, because no one gives a fuck that that stupid K8-chaped thing even still exists.
3 Concert Band
It just amazes me what some people don't know. And makes me wonder why (and in some cases how) they are still conscious/breathing.
Lunch
OMfG, I'm so cold I'm shaking all over. And I hurt...in my special parts. Wah wah wah. (emo angst cry) K8's life is so hard. Some of the things people do...I just wonder how they can even take themselves seriously. Angela Frigidwhatever can never have a baby. Those are not baby-bearing hips. It probably wouldn't even fit in her if you took all her bones out first, she's that disgustingly skinny. Yech.
6 Government
Oh how I adore G-sensei. She gives me hope that the world isn't entirely screwed over.
Comment, please.