my mri came back normal. nothing is wrong physically with my brain. now i am back at square one -- what the heck is wrong with me???

found a new love tonight. julio godoy of pensive. ooh, actually, the bass player won my <3 b/c he has hanson on his ipod. instand respect. but julio spoke french. that was happiness. but you should check out pensive ( Read more... )

guess what? i DO have a brain! it's amazing, but true! i had my MRI today. all went well, i should get results on monday. and i have felt less dizzy today which is wonderful. the only thing i hated with the MRI was the shot of contrast. she found a vein and when she stuck me, it ran away! so she had to stick me again. and i ruined her record for ( Read more... )

ok, i am officially scared out of my mind. i have been super dizzy for the last few months and it has gotten worse in the last few weeks. so, i finally sucked it up and went to the doctor. she asked me questions and did some preliminary tests, then decided to have me go for bloodwork. i have been tested for diabetes before and was scared that's ( Read more... )

i hate when people say i am close minded because i dont share their opinion. doesn't that make THEM close-minded? i dont condone gay marriage, and you do, and I'M the wrong one? you will beat me up because YOU are right, and I am wrong? look up the term close-minded. and hypocrite while you're at it ( Read more... )

today, i found myself at work talking about a friend i had when i was four. his name was Gabe, and he was my best friend in the whole world, not to mention my only date. i told my workers stories about how i got put in time-out for going into the bathroom with Gabe (i was 4, i didnt realize he was a boy & i was a girl and that mad us different). i ( Read more... )

i feel so relieved now. i have been trying and trying to get through to someone and i think i finally did it. i think things are going to be better now. i could cry tears of pure joy because this has been killing me ( Read more... )

i can't explain why, but today i feel like there's a weight pressing down on my chest. a weight on my heart i can't get rid of. a melancholy cloud looming overhead waiting for the right moment to strike ( Read more... )

Not my favorite song on the cd, but i do love it <3 ( Read more... )

today i went into to work at 6 am. same as almost every wednesday. but today, we had SO MUCH TO DO. like, three days' worth of work to finish in one. AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! last night was like this too, and we pulled it together at the very end ( Read more... )

my mom called today and told me that my uncle tom is not expected to live through the day. my uncle brian is trying to get out there to say his last good-byes, but he may not make it. i pray he does.

i didnt realize how much it would affect me. i even cried a little-- and i'm not close to my family. i just know it's a hard thing to lose someone.