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docRylandMd: Hey Beautiful
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: dont say things like that to me
docRylandMd: Why?
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: uhh..... i dont know if you remember your girlfriend but i sure as heck do
docRylandMd: Baby, she's not my girlfriend. We are just seeing what might happen.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: what do you mean seeing what happens
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: are yall exclusive
docRylandMd: She's my lab partner and she continues to ask me out. I'm not going to lie and say I'm not intrigued because I am.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: cuz some girl is forward with you you are intrigued and now are sort of seeing her
docRylandMd: Why are you so upset?
docRylandMd: You can't have me to yourself forever....
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: i dont want you to myself..
docRylandMd: Then what do you want
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: i dont know
docRylandMd: I can't sit here waiting for you to realize what you want.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: WHY NOT?
docRylandMd: Your selfishness has always been my least favorite quality ;-)
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: your blatant disregard for what i want has always been mine
docRylandMd: It's not blatant disregard, I'm tired of waiting.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: are you coming home for even a little bit
docRylandMd: We'll see.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: dont you want to see me at all
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: or are you spending time with carrie
docRylandMd: I can't disregard my future because of you
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: im not asking you to
docRylandMd: What are you asking?
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: to come down and see me for a few days
docRylandMd: I don't think thats a good idea
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: and why not
docRylandMd: We aren't meant to be.
docRylandMd: We both know it
docRylandMd: And acting like something might happen isn't helping.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: so your saying sever ties?
docRylandMd: I'll never move on if we don't
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: Well then I understand
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: but ill always be apart of you just like you are wth me
docRylandMd: I know.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: What am I gonna do without you?
docRylandMd: Baby...
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: I'm not a baby anymore
docRylandMd: You will always be a baby.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: IM 18!
docRylandMd: I'm 20.....
docRylandMd: but that's not the point....
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: I don't want to talk about the point because i really dont want to cry
docRylandMd: Baby don't cry...
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: So what do we do just say bye and never speak again/
docRylandMd: I don't know
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: we tried this
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: i ended up calling you
docRylandMd: You can't. You need to start college fresh and I need to finish it fresh.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: You were supposed to be my doctor
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: what are you gonna do
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: change your sn?
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: cuz no one can call you ryland but me kk and carger
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: carver
docRylandMd: Stop changing the subject.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: stop going to yale
docRylandMd: Stop bringing that up.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: Stop being you.
docRylandMd: Stop.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: I WON!
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: and i know you let me because you love me but i dont care cuz i won
docRylandMd: I'm glad
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: soooooooooooooo i guess i say have a great life?!?
docRylandMd: I love you and I always will. Don't ever forget how wonderful you are and I can't wait until you find your prince charming.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: i already did....
docRylandMd: Don't.
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: i love you as my best friend and ill miss you always.... your amazing... keep you your 4.0 and be an awesome doctor and....... blah im gonna go cry now
docRylandMd: I can't say goodbye
docRylandMd: How can I end our friendship because it's hard?
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: take your finals.. and ill graduate... once our minds are clearer.. we can think about whats best for us
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: but for now talking to you is best
docRylandMd: I'll try to see you this summer
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: ill try to find an awesome guy to make you jealous with this summer :-)
docRylandMd: This is the weirdest conversation I've ever had with you, and that's saying something :-)
StAcEfAcEiNsPaCe: welllllllllllll im glad we are still talking.... and im glad that i didnt cry yet... I must sleep though adn you have to study and ahh i <3 you sooo much :-):-):-):-):-):-):-)
docRylandMd: Night Baby!
that was insane. one second we are like severing ties then its like why should we then we will talk laterabout it and i dont. All i know is that hes been there when i needed someone and no one else was there. I <3 him more than anything and i hope carrie dies :)