What takes me so long?

[spaceystarlet]

Well here I am 2 years later, and life is so different. And the same. And better. And worse. Life has never been better or worse than it is right now. I'm now married and I have the most beautiful baby girl that ever lived. Aaria Martin Rivera. She's the best and most wonderful thing to ever happen to us. She's also of course presented some

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[gfrancie]

I remember feeling the exact same way the first year of my son's life. It is such a strange and crazy time. I say listen to your husband about some things. I was reading a thing about how half-assing/doing a poor job is actually pretty good. You are starting somewhere. Your goal each day to make food, keep a baby alive is good. Now you can add one more -everyday you brush your teeth and it is self-care. And each day you do it, it is a win. It is progress. Just try it for one week and you will feel a little better. This is also where you talk with your husband about when he is home, you get 30 minutes to care for you. Take a shower, brush your teeth, lay there for ten minutes and do fuck all and maybe stretch. Those 30 minutes every single day will help you make progress. I promise.
You aren't alone and so many moms have been there. Promise.

[spaceystarlet]

ha I forgot people I know are still on livejournal and may read this! Thank you for the advice.. We sat down and wrote out a loose outline of my day, which includes showers and exercise so I don't feel so aimless all the time. I've struggled with taking care of myself long before the baby, and it was hard then.. feels impossible sometimes when I can't even use the bathroom for 1 minute without the baby crying about it. And I wouldn't feel as bad not accomplishing all the things every day if we were making enough money to pay for everything.. I still struggle a lot with not earning any money to help with the bills. Wouldn't it be awesome if the universe deposited paychecks into the banking accounts of all unemployed stay at home moms? It is a job after all...