it's a ride, trippin, chillin, vacation time is here and i will not change

not much is going on. things are heppening, what's new. why don't pple get ahold of me? i feel like i'm singled out from being myself, i dunno. if that makes any sence. none the less, no matter what i do, i will be responsible for my own shit. drama drama drama. i will not take a part in it. if i hear something going around, fuck it, i don't ( Read more... )

damn, it's over. the sigh of relief comes atlast. i've never been convicted of a drug charge. deferred ajudication, or however u spell it, probation is over. a good sized load off my shoulders, of course it really doesn't make a dent in the wall of bullshit i still have. now my dad is gonna be hounding me about going to school, but i'll just have ( Read more... )

long day. don't ever eat at the salvation army, it is nasty and full of roaches. the whole staff of pple who work the kitchen are housed there and druggies and alki's in the rehab program, and they disapoint me so bad i just want to tell them to go ahead and leave and start up the end of their lives. they act like being in rehab is good enough. ( Read more... )

it's a lonely world... we all live in it but still don't see the lack of real understanding we share. the pain, the things we take for granted...the negative things that make the good things. we've all heard it, the yin and the yang, seen the damage....... yet it's always taking the easy way out is the hardest way. build up and self pitty end u up ( Read more... )

i should have done my community service at the salvation army long ago. it's funny how people talk, and lie. i have about 3 friends now who actually want to hang out with me. who aren't hooked on drugs, or sluts and backstabbers. i've still got a lot of anger for the rest of the so called friends. some hurt, but it almost feels like hate. no more ( Read more... )

which direction am i going? still not trusting any of you. liars, back stabbers, gutless failures. that's the still the same. i do feel like the past is behind me. what i do is my fucken choice, my business, and what it seems to be, things are changing. i'm always gonna be doing something that pisses someone off. so just go ahead and keep wearing ( Read more... )

i don't think i have a job. my alarm clock is a ho. my job was a ho. everyone is a ho. i tried to call and see what was up but my boss is nowhere to be found. so fuck it. money keeps disapearing from my fucken pocket, like literally. i dunno what else to say, everything is looking pretty shitty from here on out.

ahhh, the sweet sigh of relief comes finally, i just got outta court. And with good news I might add. I was all prepared to go to jail for my 100 days and get convicted for a misdemeanor. But no thanks to my sorry ass lawyer, my P.O. got me a great deal. Since I passed my last piss test I just have to pay $140 for my arrest fees, get my 16 hours of ( Read more... )

DAMN IT FEELS GOOD TO BE A GANGSTER ( Read more... )