My life always has been swings and roundabouts. I still feel empty eveyday I think of holding Lou's hand for those last seconds, the tattoo on her wrist beating softly and the smile in her eyes fading as we shared those final moments. A silent bubble in the midst of crazy bustle ( Read more... )

Running fast through a fairy tale ( Read more... )

Conversation is such a great healer. I am still lost, but feel loved and trusted and that helps so much.

I am putting this here for all to see as a reminder of my relationship with Lou, on and off we may have been but never lost to each other. She held me higher than I ever deserved and she took a piece on me with her ( Read more... )

I had a really good day yesterday - well work sucked from a far too busy standpoint, but some on my contacts here have really been helping me with my depression. Now I've never been depressed in my life and I'm not sure I really am now - but saying "my loss" is so selfish as this is the "worlds loss". Anyhow - I feel good about myself and my ( Read more... )

Because I promised ( Read more... )

You know who you are - I need you now more than ever and really appreciate what you have been doing for me. I would say you have probably saved my life over the past two weeks. Last night was hell, but thinking of you gave me the strength I needed to stay this side of sanity ( Read more... )

I so need to talk to to you and miss you dearly, my heart is ripped in two and my soul crushed. I miss your sweet voice and the touch of your lips.... Forever

Last night I died My best friend who I have known forever was shot and killed while out enjoying herself. I don't know what to do - my soul has been torn in half. I have never had a home other than hers and now I am so so lost.
I'm sorry to those I may have upset - truely i didn't want to make this your pain.

Pain is something that can rever be