Comments | spam_monti: hurt and used

spam_monti

hurt and used

Jul 29, 2004 20:11

There is a reason that I haven't been writing in here lately; I've been too depressed, too hurt to take the time to do so. I guess I should start from the beginning, eh? Okay, well, the begin is Wednesday, the 21st. On Wednesday, I knew that Christina was going to go with another one of her internet boyfriends to the Drive-in, and I was getting so ( Read more... )

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pussycatpike July 30 2004, 22:59:26 UTC

Wow. that's definitely a lot to go on in such a short amount of time.
I'm sorry that your friends took advantage of you, having that happen is never any fun.
Just make sure that you cling to God because in these types of situations he's all that you'll have left.
<3Erin

haughty_666 July 30 2004, 23:19:51 UTC

When I read this, I was mad. I really was. I starting writing my comment and halfway through, erased it and am starting over. I know I hurt you, I know it seemed as though I took advantage of you, I know that you feel used, I know you dont ever want to trust me again, and I know that you dont trust me right now, but what I DONT know, is WHY... why after everything I said to you, in tears, truthfully, because you know I've never tried to hurt you in anyway and would kill myself if I ever made you feel like you weren't worth everything in the world to me, which you are, you still dont trust me, but want to still be best friends. No, wait, I know why, but... I dont know, I dont know... I dont know where I'm going with this except, you were right, Carolyn, is that what you wanted to hear? I just wish you had told me that you didnt want me with Jeremy the FIRST time you thought I shouldnt be with him. YOU WERE RIGHT AND I WAS WRONG. You're always right... and for once, I'm admitting I was wrong. ~christin

spam_monti July 31 2004, 17:57:33 UTC

i wasn't writing this in here to let everyone know, in fact, i wasn't even thinking bout people reading it.. i wasn't thinking about making some kind of act of revenge, i wasn't even thinking, except to put down my feeligns.. i was just trying to write what I felt, i love you, and i do'nt whatn you to say i'm right, i'm not always right.. that's not how it is at all.. okay... don't be angry with me, i wasn't thinking about other people while i wrote that, because i was just upset... please dont' hold this against me or be angry...

haughty_666 July 31 2004, 21:55:55 UTC

I know. This isnt supposed to be something that you write in because you KNOW some people are going to read it, I was just commenting on it.