TMI, etc.
This past week has been.... tumultuous at the least. Not exactly what I had in mind for my first week of the new year, to say the least.
I went in for a colonoscopy to maybe shed some light on my stomach trouble. It's so frustrating to not know what triggers it and why it happens because I can go weeks without having any issues, then suddnely something I've eaten for years suddenly sets me off. The pre-colonoscopy treatment was murderous, but in a way I almost wished I had one of my tummy episodes instead because they only last 45 excruciating minutes rather than 6+ gross hours.
But what really bugs me, above everything, is that right now is an exciting time for me because I'm learning to cook and experimenting with new foods (this is exciting because I come from a relatively bland and limited home when it comes to cuisine), and when I can't even pinpoint what's making me sick, it makes me scared to eat, and normally I love eating.
So far there are no solid answers, but maybe I need to be more vigilant with my food diary.
It's kind of put me in a tough spot because Mom's vertigo has been making her even sicker. At least, we think it's vertigo. She recently got an ear infection and it's throwing her vertigo out of whack. We finally got her booked for an emergency appointment Monday with a specialist, but I'm scared for her. When she gets an attack, it ends up getting mixed with an anxiety attack, and it's so hard for me to be there to support her and tell her everything is going to be okay when I'm really scared about it myself.
Be a steady rock!
In other news, I received a beautiful booklet of sheet music for Christmas and can't wait to try it!