2 weddings, and no funerals

[spamlives]

This weekend will be a test. One that I hope I pass, or at least if I don't, won't leave me in a state of shock and sadness. I always sound so morose when I write, but i guess that is just because I feel safe writing these things. Speaking them out loud makes it solid, more meaningful. Writing is just a tool we use to help heal ourselves and

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[sloughiness]

This is only one person's opinion, but as a sufferer of depression myself, I think it's important that you see your current state of depression as something to beat. I mean BEAT. It'll feel inappropriate, like something you shouldn't have, but if you want to live a fulfilling life (as your husband would have wished you to), it's something that you just have to work hard to do. Remember - if it were important, it wouldn't be easy.

I'm sorry for your loss, and hope that you can enjoy life beyond that.