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spamtek

Fractal Prisons; Insufficiency of a Sovereign Self

May 10, 2007 19:53

When an object comes to rest, it will never chance to move again, not of its own volition. This is the secret caveat of all self-help wisdom, that it relies on a preexisting flame that it may fan out into the blaze of affirmative living. Blow on a barren wick and the best you'll do is toss the tumbleweeds about.

( Despondency, Apathy, Fatalism, and some pathetic whimpering for good measure )

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So... fate_sors May 11 2007, 04:18:08 UTC

Your worried you'll never to anything extraordinary and in the act of worrying your wasting time and preventing yourself, perhaps even sabotaging yourself subconsciously.
It'd better to just except life as absurd, and stop asking questions and just get on with it.
And honestly you've hardly done anything with your life, hardly experienced or struggled. If you had to fight for it you'd appreciate it more.

So says the activist. spamtek May 11 2007, 15:54:52 UTC

You embody precisely what the activist, the person already in movement and engaged in life says: "Shut up and do something about it." The wall divides us and neither can see the logic of the other's argument. What you say sounds ridiculous to me, and I respond: "You don't get it - I feel no drive to do anything. The only thing I want to do is want, and it's the one thing I can't get." And that, that admission of stubborn inactivity, seems completely retarded from your point of view ( ... )

Re: So says the activist. fate_sors May 11 2007, 18:09:12 UTC

Well your not always going to be feed and taken care of and provided for. Eventually you'll have to make it on your own... So eventually you'll be forced into activism.
Then I'm sure you'll loath that just as much.

Honestly though, the idea that you can't motivate yourself is preposterous to me. Disinterested perhaps... It seems at the very least you should be able to trick yourself into accomplishing something.

Re: So says the activist. spamtek May 11 2007, 18:21:38 UTC

It's the heart of the hideousness of it all. I can't ask you to believe me despite its preposterousness, because it's equally stupid to me when I'm up and moving and doing anything whatsoever. I've been on both sides; it's forced me to conclude that no imagination is powerful enough to emulate the sensations of an experience when your circumstances put you at odds with it.

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rock_lee_writer May 12 2007, 07:36:50 UTC

I understand. I live in a more self-sufficient circumstance than either of you and there is always a way to feel nothing.

But I deem livejournal comments to be a poor place to give boorish proddings and exclamation.

spamtek May 12 2007, 13:53:49 UTC

I suppose there's a necessity of novelty involved too... any action done long enough becomes background radiation, autopilot maneuvering that you tend to forget you're doing - and when you forget you're doing it, you lose the benefit it can grant you of being connected with the rest of the world ( ... )

rock_lee_writer May 13 2007, 07:51:30 UTC

Then you should play some magic yos.