I went to all my classes today ( Read more... )

my dream last night that ever so elequently explains my current state ( Read more... )

Davey and I just drove my mother to the rite aid. i wanted to shoot her. i was thinking about crashing her side of the car into a tree but davey could have gotten hurt so ( Read more... )

i think this year was my second best thanksgiving ever (behind last year...i was drunk in spain...) my family was funny and insane, and what was pleasing was they treated me like an adult. i didnt know i wanted that nearly as much as i did. they invited davey to brunch on sunday...haha ( Read more... )

uh. friday was fun. thats all i have to say about friday. i forget everything that happened before 12. thats sad ( Read more... )

my week was good. i somehow managed to take my killer power game test today, without crying or pulling out hair...yessss ( Read more... )

here is goes.

im scared.
im sorry.
and i want not to care, but i still do.

that about sums up my life.

i hate everyone who went to q and not u and all of you who are at mogwai.

thats all i have to say.

death:

school in like one day.

terrible work sched.--i work EVERYDAY til monday. allll weekend. goddamn it.

im having all these conversations about my lack of self worth and confindence. WHY THE FUCK DO I LET OTHER PEOPLES ACTIONS AND EMOTIONS RUN MY LIFE.

hanny is watching donnie darko and she is being retarded. haha

I don't want to cry. i really really dont want to care. but at this point. at this point i cant help it. i wasn't dissapointed. i wasn't sad. but i feel my heart breaking away. and im breaking away with it.