Don't you fake it
Dearest Nobility,
Forget not being available. I need you guys. Even if you don't reply. I need to write it down.
Ryan is sick. Really sick. And they don't know what's wrong with him yet. They should know by tomorrow. But he's having tremendous stomach pains, and he's got these terrible swings from hot (he literally sweats so bad I have to leave the room because he can't keep the blankets and gown on) to cold (so bad that he shivers even with blankets, and his nails turn purple.) He's got two IV's...one in each hand, because he needs that much medication pumping into him 24 hours a day. And he can't eat. He can't stomach solid foods, so he's "eating" broth. Which means he has to get up a lot to use the bathroom. But when he gets up he can't support himself, so he has to lean on his drip pole (the thing that holds the IV bags.) He's so pale and he shakes so badly.
I just want to cry. But I can't. Because that would be "overreacting." I know, the hospital is going to help him get better, but you haven't SEEN him. I hate seeing people sick. And I feel horrible when I feel helpless. I want to make him feel better, but I don't know how!
Anyway, I thought you might want to know why I've been like this lately. I'm really sorry for the depressing stuff. But I promise I will let you all know what's happening when I can!!
Love you!!
Forget not being available. I need you guys. Even if you don't reply. I need to write it down.
Ryan is sick. Really sick. And they don't know what's wrong with him yet. They should know by tomorrow. But he's having tremendous stomach pains, and he's got these terrible swings from hot (he literally sweats so bad I have to leave the room because he can't keep the blankets and gown on) to cold (so bad that he shivers even with blankets, and his nails turn purple.) He's got two IV's...one in each hand, because he needs that much medication pumping into him 24 hours a day. And he can't eat. He can't stomach solid foods, so he's "eating" broth. Which means he has to get up a lot to use the bathroom. But when he gets up he can't support himself, so he has to lean on his drip pole (the thing that holds the IV bags.) He's so pale and he shakes so badly.
I just want to cry. But I can't. Because that would be "overreacting." I know, the hospital is going to help him get better, but you haven't SEEN him. I hate seeing people sick. And I feel horrible when I feel helpless. I want to make him feel better, but I don't know how!
Anyway, I thought you might want to know why I've been like this lately. I'm really sorry for the depressing stuff. But I promise I will let you all know what's happening when I can!!
Love you!!