i have just been made aware of a website on which i can have cigarettes, booze, urine substitute, rolling papers and salvia delivered to my door if i so choose.

and do you
each and every moment
know how i have loved the past?
and now and now and now
look forward to you?
that much
and that much also.

in tucson now. it is very much a homecoming. i have felt for a long time that there was nowhere that was home to me. but this was a home. is a home. anything you come to know becomes beloved. and on that note, i don't think you can possibly know something and hate it simultaneously. truly understand i mean. this doesn't apply to concepts or ideas. ( Read more... )

mixing two nearly stale cereals together makes neither of them better.

no man is an island; i'm an archipelago.

the main thing i've learned is that i'm on a repetitive loop. maybe others are different and maybe they are not. maybe they are more talented at disguising this fact. but at the bottom lies loneliness and at times unbridled elation, and over all the hope is that create. but the truth is: isolation, aloneness, anger, connectivity and love are what ( Read more... )

( some pictures from the life )

i'm calling out tomorrow. i'm cleaning house. i'm organizing. i'm going to see some art. i'm gonna take a nap in the middle of the henry. wake up in a bizarre dream. my ego is leaking. it's more like a flood. the only thing i know is to keep talking, and then when it all comes out it leaves me feeling used up, unsafe, all the insides are on the ( Read more... )

For labor day, I worked a 15 hour shift and with a 45 minute unpaid break. I did this because we're understaffed, because i get time and a half for working on a holiday in addition to the holiday pay i get whether or not i work plus another half time for the fact that 6 hours of that was overtime, and because i could use the money. That says ( Read more... )

i was going to post pictures of my cat. but then i got distracted for a good hour by this.  anyway, BEHOLD:
( Pirate Captain Penko!! )