the utter silence and lonliness of audrey's basement

[sparkle_motion]

it's like the song"i'm feelin more alone than i ever have before".i guess not ever,but in a while.i don't know why i get like this,maybe because i've been down here half an hour and nobody wonders where i am.i feel like i've been annoying people so now i want to go hole up somewhere.i hate feeling obnoxious.i feel like audrey wants me to go away

Comments

[anonymous]

I want to tell you that people did notice where you were, besides me, who already knew, but I know that telling you that isn't going to make you feel any better. im sure audrey doesn't mind it when you say things to him sometimes... she probably would if you did every 3 seconds but you're not like that so it's cool. Maybe she wants the attention. (Not that I think she's like that). You gotta let that shit out. Its inhuman not to feel, no one expects you not to. You can become closer to people when you let them know how you really feel. I know what you're talking about though. I used to not want to come to these things because I knew I would end up alone and unnoticed in some corner somewhere feeling like absolute shit. I wasn't sleeping, and if you ever need to talk to me about anything,I don't care where I am or what I'm doing, you can come and let me know and I will be there for you. it shows that you're a really compassionate person for not wanting to cause pain or some other shitty emotion on another person. you have no idea how

[perfect_zero79]

Joanna, I think you are a rad person. You are always there for me. I hold you in high regard because you are one of the most caring people I have ever met. You rock. You're an inspiration to make me smile more. You light up a room when you enter it. Erin does too. Erin shines bight. So do you. You're my buddy and I love you.

---Chris

[dryer_bunnie]

For what it's worth, i wasn't annoyed in the slightest,jo. I just get kinda freaked out about things such as guys..yeah, i'm an idiot. And i trully do appriciate everything you've done. I haven't known you for very long, but i consider you one of my better friends. I could never get tired of you. You make me happy when i'm down and laugh at my stupid jokes..what more could a girl ask for? Love,

Audrey

[anonymous]

Joanna,
Don't ever think that we are ignoring you or that you hold no importance as a part of the group. I know the feeling of rejection though. At the last movie night, I was by myself with a guitar or on the computer because I didn't know hardly anybody there well enough. But you weren't annoying anybody, except for maybe Drew. He was getting annoyed by everybody. As for us expecting to see how you truly feel on the inside...you'll have to remove the mask at some point. We're not mind readers. But for now, take it easy stay awesome.
Jasper